The Past

The past holds so much more than anyone could think of. I don't even know that would I ever be able to forgive him or not. I am just staying to try and I sometimes I think this is the worst thing to do. Because the amount of betrayal I faced has no room for forgiveness. I don't know why am I being such a mess and want to try one more time.

I am on two boats. One time I am thinking to forgive and forget and atlast live a happy life. But the other thought that goes through my mind is that this need never deserves any forgiveness. There is not even a single person at my place who would ever forgive someone for such a bad deed.

I decided to give a chance. This would take my life to a different path. This path can be good or worse. It can hurt me, break me and might lead to crying all life. But if everything goes right, it might lead to something good.

Thinking about the past always traumatizes me. Makes me realise my mistakes. The mistakes that can never be corrected. I still miss some people. But they will never come back in my life. Some people changed. I also changed a lot. I never expected this situation will arrive in my life. But I still want to apologise to some people. Although, my apology will never make a difference.