Side story: Rosabell's despair

<Rosabell's POV>

Almost four months have passed since I kissed Alef. Remembering the sensation of that kiss make me feel so warmth. But, like always I had to go and screwed it up. Sigh.

Since that day I haven't said a single word to Alef. Every time a try to talk to him I always back down at the last moment and, when we tries to talk to me I just run away. I'm such an idiot!! He surely thinks that I hate him. Sigh.

If this goes on I'll just lose him. Why I have to be such a coward, all I need to do is tell him that I love him. Sigh.

"Rosa, dear. You need to focus, you'll end up burning your hand"(auntie Jessica)

"I'm sorry auntie Jessica. I was lost in thought"(Rosa)

"Sigh. You two really need to talk, you know"(auntie Jessica)

"I know"(Rosa)

~clip clop clip clop~

~nieeeegh~

"Are you waiting someone?"(Rosa)

"No, but I have an idea who might they be. Sigh. Stay in the lab I'll go see what they want"(auntie Jessica)

Auntie Jessica walked out of the lab while pinching the bridge of her nose. It seems that whoever came is going to give auntie Jessica a headache.

Time flew by while I was processing herbs, and before I knew it, it was already past noon. Because I passed so much time processing herbs my body started to feel numb, so I decided to stretch a little.

When I was stretching, Alef, Miss Freya and auntie Jessica screamed. I thought something bad happened, so I ran as fast as I could to the living room.

"Is something wrong!?"(Rosa)

"It's nothing dear Rosa. Go back to the lab, please"(auntie Jessica)

"Um, okay"(Rosa)

Because auntie Jessica said everything was fine, I returned to the live without saying another word.

On my way to the lab I heard that they started arguing. I started to worry once more, but it wasn't of my business so I can't meddle in. I really hope nothing bad happens.

Some time later, mom called me to eat. I went to the living room enthusiastically, because its one of the only moments I could watch Alef without worrying.

But, today the girl that came to visit was too close to Alef, it looked like they were glued together. I can't bear that sight, I just want to throw my soup to her face. That's suppose to be my place not yours, bitch!!!!!

I really want to kill her, but I have to restrain myself and point to her that she's too close to my man.

"Hey, aren't you too close to Alef"(Rosa)

I said to her while putting my best smile

"But this distance is natural, after all we are engaged"(Bitch)

After hearing her words, my mind went blank. I reacted after finishing my meal. And, when I finally reacted, I walked to my room while holding back my tears.

Once I stepped into my room, I collapsed in my bed and started weeping.

~wuaahhh~

I can't believe they're engaged, this has to be a nightmare!!!!

~sniff sniff~

She can't take Alef. He's my whole world. I don't what I'll do without him.

~sob sob sniff sniff~

This is all my fault for being such a coward, if only I had formalized our relationship sooner this wouldn't have happened. I hate myself!!

~sob sob~

I have to talk to him tonight. At least I have to know what will happen to us, and wish him happiness in his marriage. Who am I lying to!? I want him for myself.

~wuaaaaah~

I cried until mom call me for dinner.

As we were dinning dad and my little brother where telling us how they were doing with the shoe shop. But, my attention was somewhere else, I was totally focused on my Alef, but watching him only made me more depressed, because once more that bitch was glued to him. I really want to cry again. I really can't take it anymore but, I have to endure it, at least until I talk with Alef.

After dinner, I went to my room and waited for Alef to return from his training. Once I heard him enter to his room, I stood up and walked to his room.

When I was in front of his door, I took a deep breath and prepared myself.

Once I walk through this door my heart might break, but maybe, just maybe I could walked out of this room engaged to the man I love.

While thinking that I stepped through the door.