Unknown voice

This sleepless night is the longest night I ever had. I'm still thinking about Heli, his acting weird recently; I know his already weird but not this weird.

What he said is bothering me, is he alright? is there something wrong? should I do something? can I do something?

I'm going crazy trying to interpret what he wants to say, he didn't even do any mannerisms that can support my hypothesis of what does he really want to imply.

"I'll surely gonna ask him tomorrow!" I reassure my self while persuading my mind to rest and sleep, but my mind is still overflowing with thoughts. I think of the best way to relax my mind, and the only way that I can surely do without any hassle is to sing the the lullaby mom teaches both Heli and I.

"I will bloom, I will wilt, I will soar

I'm undefeated yet lonely

Run away I explore; truth or lies

Yeah I believe it.

The past us everything we are

Don't ever do forget

So I'll search, until I find my cure,

and all I see is starts

It's not until you fall that you fly.

When you know what is love

Your unstoppable

Tame a fox, chase the sun, find the beautiful.

We will glow in the dark

turning dust to gold

and will dream it possible.🎶"

I peacefully sing until my mind turns black and my senses turns its face back from the reality.

***

Everything is dark....

I can't feel any presence nearby..

It so cold....

I can feel the cold piercing through my spine.

I can't see any light ....

I can even see my own self...

Where am I?

What am I doing in here?

I'm walking in endless place without any hint where to go.

"IS IT NICE TO WALK IN A DARK AND UNSEEN PATH?!" someone in a huge low voice suddenly talk that scares me.

"Who are! where are you?!" I yelled.

"I'M EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE." he plainly said that I don't understand.

"What do you mean by everything and everyone?!" I confusedly ask. The huge low voice suddenly turns into a high pitch when he laughed hysterically that makes me even more frightened. It feels like I'm a just a small ant trapped and played by this huge and bored supreme being.

"ALWAYS REMEMBER, WHEN YOU LIGHT A CANDLE YOU ALSO CAST A SHADOW.... YOU'LL DIE WITHOUT YOU KNOWING IT." the huge voice said and then laugh, how am I supposed to understand that?!

"And you think I'll be fazed of what you said?!" I gathered all my energy to say it clearly, it feels like my mouth swallow my tongue because of nervous; I can't also feel my knees and hands their numb because of mixed emotions and cold temperature.

The big voice again laugh in a scary way that makes shrink even more.

"I'VE BEEN OBSERVING YOU FROM A FAR FOR TO LONG... AND THE LONG TIME OF WAITING IS FINALLY OVER!" he said and then laugh.

"What do you want from me?!" I bravely ask.

"I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST YOU! I ACTUALLY LIKE YOU THAT'S WHY I'VE BEEN WATCHING FOR YOU SINCE YOUR BIRTH." he said while I remain silent, I can feel my lips tremble; his presence is overwhelming with a forceful Unknown aura.

"AT FIRST EVERYTHING IS GETTING BORING BUT THIS TIME THE REAL SHOW WILL FINALLY START!" he added that makes my eyebrow raise.

"What do you mean?!" I don't understand even a single thing about what he said.

The big voice replied,

" ONE DAY YOU WILL FEEL THE THIRST OF BLOOD!

IT WILL HAUNT YOU UNTIL ALL YOU CAN DO IS TO KILL AND DESTROY!

UNTIL NO ONE CAN LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE!" he said while laughing in a demonic manner.

"AND BY THAT TIME WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN.... BUT BEFORE IT HAPPENS ENTERTAIN ME MORE MY DEAR CHILD." he said, I feel the cold pressure suddenly increases that makes my small body to shrink and numb.

My body struggled when all of a sudden some unknown forces from beneath the surface pulls me down and let's me trapped inside, I can't move my hands nor my legs and head.

"Am I going to die in here? without me talking to Heli for one last time." I thought.

"Will I not be able to eat strawberry puddings, talk with my parents, see my brother again, have a small chitchats with Fr. Monteverde, and have my last big hug from Heli?!" I ask while my warm tears freely flows to my cheeks one by one.

"I don't want to die yet!" I shouted. I heard the voice laugh.

" YOU'LL LIVE WONDERING HOW YOU'LL DIE, AND YOU'LL DIE WONDERING IF YOU'RE DYING!" he said while laughing in every word he said.

"THERE'S NO FUTURE FOR YOU NO ONE LOVES YOU!" he said while laughing hysterically.

"THERE IS NO DESTINY WAITING FOR YOU. YOU MAKE THE PATH WHICH YOU WALK UPON. SIMILARLY, YOU DIG THE GRAVE IN WHICH YOU WILL REST ONE DAY!" his voice echoed through my mind, the huge low voice makes my ears hurt as if it is pierce by a thousands of needles.

"Stop comparing me to you! I'm not like you! I'll make my own destiny that only I can change it! and I'll make sure that you can't lay a hand in every persons that I love and treasured the most." I screamed while trying to move my numb fingers.

"HUH?!!! HAHAHAHAHAH DON'T BE TOO FOOLISH!" he said hilariously.

"LOVE IS NOTHING BUT A BEAUTIFUL FORM OF BEING USED!" his voice suddenly switch to despair and hatred.

"BEING IN LOVE IS LIKE GIVING SOMEONE A LOADED GUN POINTED AT YOUR HEART AND TRUSTING THEM NOT TO PULL THE TRIGGER!" he stopped laughing instead he suddenly throws his anger in every word he said.

The ground suddenly moves in a unpredictable manner, his anger turns into a big storm that can kill a small creature like me.

I closed my eyes, I relax my mind. I remember my parents warm smile and hugs with my brother while eating strawberry puddings. I remember Fr. Monteverde visiting our house, I wished I could talk to him again; his a nice guy. lastly I want to meet Heli again at exactly 2 pm and then freeze the time so that he would no longer say goodbye to me.

I remembered what my father always say to us.

"A man can be destroyed but not defeated." that's why I'll not gonna give up and live for me, myself, and my precious persons in life.

I open my eyes and I saw the celling of room. I chase my breath as I try to move my numb body.

"Ahhh... what a nightmare..." I uttered.