Chapter 91

Music: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=roy3Ft6Fvbk

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I was a little ashamed about how I'd acted but I pushed it aside and looked at Raph's hand, which he was holding out to me.

"I don't know how to dance." My head was still floating a bit from the kiss, my lips and tongue still tasted of his mouth watering, minty flavour. Again I wondered if his skin would taste like that, my chest began to heat and I quickly steered away from that line of thought.

He took my hand, "Don't worry, it's easy. Just follow me."

The first song on the playlist was Away in a Manger.

Raph put my left hand on his shoulder and held my right hand in his. His left hand rested on my lower back.

"Watch my feet." He said, his voice was soft and rumbled in his chest.

I looked down, my forehead brushing against his chest, and watched is shiny, leather feet.

Panic started to seize me.

"I-I'm not sure I shoul-"

"You're doing fine." He gave me a kiss on the top of my head and smiled gently.

My heart rate was increasing and so was my breathing, I felt like everyone's eyes were on me. And the last thing I wanted was to give the Lycans who didn't like me the satisfaction of seeing me trip while dancing.

The easiest thing to do would be to back out and sit back down and watch the snow fall.

"Shh… you're doing fine, just focus on me." Raph's soothing voice repeated.

My eyes were still trained on his feet but I raised my head and saw his beautiful gold eyes looking down on me with an expression that filled my chest with warmth.

"Just focus on me." He repeated.

I did. I focused on his hand holding mine, mine was a little sweaty but he didn't complain. I focused on his hand at the base of my back. I began taking deep breaths of his calming minty scent and soon calmed down.

We moved slowly, just slow dancing to the music.

I am proud to say that I did not once, step on his toes.

The song changed to the next in the set: O come, O come Emmanuel.

-This song gets really fast.- I said, nervous.

-Really?- Raph asked with a playful lilt to his voice.

I slumped my shoulders and looked at him, "Don't worry, it'll be fine." He kissed the top of my head again.

The violin started out slowly and beautifully but then it changed to a more rapid pace.

Raph moved quickly and I did my best to follow, at one point he spun me and I felt like giggling.

We stopped after that song and he led me to the love seat that we were previously sitting on.

He wrapped his arm around me and I rested my head on his shoulder. I could feel the evening catching up to me, the exhaustion creeping in.

I closed my eyes which was a mistake because when I woke up, we were back in our house.

Raph was rubbing circles in my arm and it sent a tingling sensation along it.

I raised my head which was resting on his chest, then I slumped back down, with enough force for it to have hurt but he didn't say anything.

"I fell asleep?" I asked, horrified.

I felt his chuckle in his chest, then he kissed my head, "Yes, you did."

I groaned.

We were in the downstairs living room, the lights were off and the room was lit by the Christmas tree. Raph had never really celebrated Christmas. He was surprised when I started listening to Christmas music in October and decorating in November. And he just shook his head when I said we were getting a tree the first week of December, but this is what me and my family had done every Christmas since I'd been born.

My family. It was my first Christmas without them. Me and Raph would be going back to the island for New Year's, my family would always host a fondue.

"I love Christmas." I said as I nuzzled into his warm, minty smelling shirt.

"I know you do." I could hear the smile in his voice.

'Do you like it too?' I was curious to ask, but was tired and didn't feel like talking.

-I'm gonna change.- I said.

"Okay." He took his arm from around my waist and I stood up.

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Once changed I walked out of the bathroom and saw Raph standing at the window.

I walked up behind him and put my hand on his shoulder, looking out as well.

The party guests were walking down the road and out the gates. I flinched when I noticed one of the men who had been talking about me. It was the younger one, his dark eyes staring at me.

I glared at him.

-You don't scare me, human.- He said with a smirk. I could sense his confidence, and hate towards me.

I smirked at his words. I don't know why, it's a natural reaction for me to smile, laugh or smirk.

I could sense his confidence waver. I let out a laugh.

"What?" Raph asked, his voice playful.

I pointed to the man who was walking away now, "I scared him." I said proudly.

Raph's gaze darkened when he saw him.

"Nothing those guys said was true." He said.

I just nodded. Some of it was true. I'm not strong, at least not physically, and maybe we should've slept together by now. I knew that Raph wanted it, I could see it in his eyes sometimes.

He sighed agitatedly.

I glanced over and saw him running a hand through his hair.

I just turned and crawled into bed. Raph didn't join me. Sometimes he didn't. He said it was because he had work to do but I wasn't stupid. I knew it was because he wanted to…

I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes. My heart racing with the idea.