Chapter 21- SELF CONTROL

It's so dark here. Where am I right now? Zhi Hei..? anyone there?

*footsteps fastening* *pants*

There's no paths or light anywhere.??

"Shi Xue" - male voice

"Whose there??" Shi Xue looked around.

"You need to be careful.." - Male voice

"Who are you?? Where are you??" she asked anxiously.

"Remember.. be careful..."

Shi Xue woke up drenched in sweat. She relaxed after smelling the scent of Sweet Alyssum flowers in the room.

What a terrible dream she thought to herself as she held her forehead with her hand.

*Sigh* So uncomfortable and sticky. I should go and take a shower. After a while of calming down, she got off the bed. Her legs had no strength when she stood up and she slipped onto the floor. After multiple attempts, she gave up and hugged her knees as she sat by the bed.

... A moment later she started thinking about the dream where it was all dark and there was nobody there. Just like right now, no family and nobody to go back to. The emptiness she had last night once again spread throughout her body. She didn't know when, but when she realized her tears were falling again. Her heart ached in pain as she helplessly let her tears flow down her face.

*Sounds of footsteps approaching the door*

Shi Xue quickly wiped the tears on her face and tried to control her cries. The door creaked open and a handsome man stood there with a tray of food in his hands. Ah, Zhi Hei...yesterday was too much information for her mind to process that she didn't have a good look of this man. His face was near perfection, eyebrows sharp with no extra brow hair, nose straight, deep brown eyes carrying a sense of gentleness, healthy looking red lips, and flawless skin. Such a beauty....

As Shi Xue spaced out looking at him, Zhi Hei quickly put down the tray of food and knelt down to her side. His voice was a bit shaky seeming nervous as he asked if she is alright after seeing her on the floor with teardrops on her flushed face. She regained her senses as Zhi Hei gently wiped the tears on her face with a tissue.

"What's wrong? Do you feel pain? Why are you off the bed?? Was there something you needed?" he frowned.

She looked at his anxious look and laughed "You're more worried than the doctor! Relax, I got up because I wanted to shower, but my legs had no strength so I slipped."

Zhi Hei let out a sigh of relief as he fell backwards and sat there smiling at her "That's good you're alright... but you were crying when I came in!"

"I'm alright, I just had a bad dream that's all." a hint of sadness showed in her eyes. Seeing her frown helplessly in front of him, his heart felt as if someone was squeezing it. He reached out his arms and hugged her close to his chest. He rubbed her head gently as her already stopped tears began to flow again.

"You're not alone. I'm here, so I'll carry your burden for you."

"Thank you" she replied as her hands grasped his t-shirt. When she hugged him back, he felt an electric shock flow throughout his body making him stiffen. He didn't dare to move as if he was dreaming. She.. hugged me back...

After 15 minutes of remaining in this position, she moved and tried to push him away

"Uhm... I'm all sweaty and stinky, I should go shower. I'll dirty your clothes."

"Oh..." Damn it, I didn't want to let go! It's been so long since I've been this close to her.

After releasing her from his embrace he noticed the strap on the left side of her silky night gown was slipped off her shoulders revealing her smooth pearl like skin and cleavage. Her current position revealed her long creamy looking legs and her hands were around his neck. Her beautiful light hazel looking eyes had a pink tone after crying, slightly reddish parted lips that she just licked, and peachy toned complexion. Her night gown a bit wrinkled....

*Gulp* Self control self control self control!!! can't make a move on her now, just gained a bit more trust to hug her. dammit. "little zhi hei" beast get back down, can't let her find out about this...

"I..if you want to freshen up, I'll get a maid to come and help you"

"I don't need a maid to wash me" as she tried to get up forgetting the fact that her legs had no energy.

*Thump* She stumbled onto Zhi Hei. Her soft body is now against his whole body. Her pearl like skin and pumped chest is against his chest and six pack abs. Her every movement could be felt and every time she breathes, his heart would skip a beat and go faster. When she tried to get up, Zhi Hei held her close by her slim waist. He whispered into her ears "Don't move. Stay like this for a bit"

Her face was already blushing when she accidentally pushed him down. After hearing him whisper into her ears and feeling his touch by her waist made her face extremely red. She gradually relaxed on his chest and heard his heartbeats. The heartbeats were very quick like hers, but it felt very comfortable to listen to. She smiled and positioned herself in a more relaxing posture to listen to his heart beats more clearly.

This afternoon, both of them laid on the floor and cuddled in peace. Though they didn't talk and would hear the gentle sounds of wind chime in the room, it was a joyful time.

They looked into each others eyes and Zhi Hei's head moved closer and closer to Shi Xue's. So close that their nose touched.. Seeing that Shi Xue wasn't pushing him away and was blushing even more now, he moved his hands to caress her face. He leaned forward and slowly closed his eyes...

Almost... Just a little bit more...

*Knocks*

Nooooooooo

Maid: "Miss Shi Xue, I came to che....*COUGH COUGH* Uhm S..s..sorry master, I'll come back later." she rushed out of the room.

....

Damn it.. The moment was just right

-Cries internally-

Next time I'll make sure to dismiss them all tch.

*ahem* "Uhmm.. uhh uh I should get going with my shower before I eat. I'm hungry." she brushed her hair fixing her fringe. Then she realized she was still on top of Zhi Hei. Zhi Hei gently helped her up before carrying her back to bed. He leaned close to her face and she closed her eyes tightly. Seeing her nervousness, he chuckled and kissed her forehead.

"You have wounds so you can't touch water. I'll have someone to wipe your body for you." he smiled.

Good thing my little beast is long gone phew.. he thought to himself.

"I..I can do it myself... I'm not used to others touching my body" she blushed

*heart begins to race again*

Zhi Hei leaned forward and whispered into her ears "Or... would you like me to wipe for you?" he teased her as he played with her slightly curled hair with his fingers.

"....M...Maid is fine" as her body shivered from his breath.

"Good girl" he smiled with joy in his eyes as he rubbed her head before going out to find a maid.