Realisation

~The most powerful

        Motivation is

          Rejection~

Theme song for this Chapter is;

❤HURTS LIKE HELL By;

Fleurie❤

Jeddah (pov):

"Where were you whole day, I'm asking you something" Zayn questioned again but I ignored him and carry Ayan in my arms.

I placed Ayan on his bed and cover him with duvet. My baby is so cute. I kiss his forehead and turn off the lights of the room.

"Jeddah tell me, why are you not responding me" I turn to face him.

"I'm fed up. Did you hear I said I'm fed up with your lies" he was shocked by my straightforward answer and replied "what you mean by that" I wheeled him in front of mirror wall.

"Then tell me, what is going on with you. One day you returned home with those fucking bandages. You don't even know who shoot you and you are crippled now." I laughed "and now you are again" he shift to see me but I turn his face again to mirror.

"You said you love me, you said that I am your responsibility. Then tell me where were you on those fucking nights when I was waiting for you desperately . Where were you when I called your company and they replied you don't have any buisness trips" I laughed humorlessly "don't tell me that now I'm wrong. You know today was my birthday. My fucking birthday. did you even wish me. I never asked you for anything. I give my all to this relationship. Yes Zayn I give my all but what you give me in return just dissapointment"

"Baby let me explain" I put my finger on his lips. He gulp "sshhh".

"Don't call me again with these nicknames. I don't want to hear anything now" I move forward and stop "you can sleep in this room, I don't want to share my room with you anymore" I said and move outside to my room.

My legs felt wobbly and my shoulders shook as a heart wrenching sob took over me and I fell on the floor. I reached for my pillow on the bed and cried my heart out.

I tried to calm myself down but the more I tried, the more tears welt up in my eyes threatening to roll down.

"Why did you cheat me Zayn, why am not enough for you. why don't you care for me now, why did our love fade , why" these were the questions that I desperately want to ask him.

I opened my window, there was snowing outside. "I love you Jeddah. I will never leave you I promise" these words were hitting my head. I remember the time when Zayn hold me in his arms. But now everything is change. He is not my Zayn anymore. He don't love me anymore.

I fell back on my bed trying everything to settle my emotions but why I can't control my feelings.

Tears welled up again and I don't know when I fell in deep sleep.

I woke up next morning with a severe headache. I took a shower hurriedly and change my clothes.

I called Karem. He pick up in no time " good morning" he said.

"Good morning, today it's Sunday, can you help me in something".

"Yes" he replied.

"Ok please contact the doctor of Zayn who performed his operation,I want you to send him away somewhere you can decide it for yourself and please also his family. I know in no time he may find out".I said in one go.

"Easy there, it's not a big problem" he replied in his usual playfull manner.