how it all began

Twas in the middle of nowhere and I was in a mixture of thoughts whether or not I should continue with this journey that headed to nowhere.

"I know I shouldn't but do I really have any options... what will they say is still haunting my lovely self "

I turned back and moved sluggishly back to my mother's house I felt like this is not what I had signed up for but the question remains do you really have a choice..."you are the reason for all this"

That's all I needed to know that I was actually not even needed in that house...

I Ran into my room, turned on the music as loud as I could and slept on the couch drawning myself in tears

My caregivers always fought about my existence and it always brought me back to the sweet memories of having my papa around...he was my hero and he always protected my peace...he traveled and left me in the hands of this lady who always forced her illigitimate daughter to call her mommy