Smiling doctor

Nina Los' diary:

It's been a while since I last wrote and many things have happened. I'm 28 now. Dad gained a last name that is also a awesome title. Being Los means you are super powerfull in the eyes of dragons. I need to make sure that I'm worthy of that name in future.

All of my friends have grown to a age where they have to work and do adult stuff. I wish I could help mom with her work already. At least she will let me look at some papers she comes across. I also have grown more friendly with that boy in the party. His name is Henry Rondosfn and he seems to do lot of things to get my attension. He even came to visit me by himself couple of times. He was troublesome sometimes, but I think he means well. He's akward, but he tries his best. Sadly he is human so he will grow much faster than me. During that party, he was 5, but now he is already 11. Thanks to the place we are in, he is more like 8 or 9 in terms of growth. I'm 28 years old already and he is already getting taller than me! It's frustrating! Nonetheless, he gives me gifts pretty often, so I will manage my patience with my growth.

I also have visited his uncle Terry. Terry is an doctor that knows a lot about illnesses and growth. He is super smart and he gives me sweets every time I visit him. He has this kind looking smile on him that makes me feel safe near him. Not as much as staying near my mom or dad, but still, it's really conftorable. For some reasons, many adults don't seem to like Terry that much. Even my friends, who are now adults, think the same way. I tried to ask them, but they wont tell me anything that makes sense. For some reason, when I visit Terry's clinic, mom wants to stay near me at all times. She says that she would do it in other places as well, if there was someone as good as Terry. She has a serious gaze when she looks at him when we are there. I don't get it.

Today I will visit Henry's house for a while. He said that he has a surprise for me and I can't wait to see what it is. Even if it's just another of his gifts, I'm kind of happy to receive it.

Henry Rondosfn's diary:

Ah, how I enjoy the time I spend with that beautifull creature called Nina. She is so beautifull I could look at her every day. I don't know why I feel this way, but I can't deny that I admire her beaty. She seems quite studious, so I have bought her many academic books to read. She seems to enjoy those. I also noticed that she likes sertain sweets that are made in her home. I managed to find out what they were and I made sure to have them every time she visits me and when I visit her. I just wish that I could spend more time with her. But I don't think that I can beat her love for books. She just keeps reading them all the time and I can't compete.

Uncle Terry seemed to like her also and he gave me tips on how to make sure she likes me. I have tried my best to impress her and some of the things uncle has taught me have worked. I can't thank him enough for these lessons.

Father seems to be a bit sceptical on the fact that me and uncle talk so much. I respect father also, but uncle has given me so many ideas of how to apresiate Nina's beaty. Father even once told me to not take what uncle says too seriously. What is he on about?

I saw what was on the basement in uncle's house, and I don't know how to feel about it. There were three harpies in small cages. There was a foul smell coming from the table that I couldn't quite figure out what it was. I touched the table and it was sticky from something. I didn't know what it was, but I swiped it off soon after I noticed it. I looked around a bit and found that there were sedatives and other drugs in there. I wonder if he tries to help these harpies? They seem a bit sick after all.

When uncle noticed that I was on the basement, I saw a worry on his eyes for a moment. He then explained that I don't need to worry about what was in there and to keep it a secret between us. I then asked if the harpies had some sort of illness and he said that they just needed a bit more care. I then asked if they had names and uncle said that their names were Amelia, Nicol and Nina. I saw it quite funny that he had an harpy with a sama name as my friend. I said so and uncle said he also found it funny.

I invited Nina to house and today she will come and talk spend some time with me. Uncle said that if I follow what he said then Nina will be having a fun time when she gets here. I can't wait what uncle had in store.

Mary's journal:

Much has happened. The most important thing is that Nor got himself a title of Los and is free to use it as his last name. Something like that hasn't been seen for who knows how long. I don't think he fully understands the weight that that name holds. He seemed quite casual when he said it. Some of my acquaintances didn't have any idea about the Los name, and even after explaining it to them plenty of times, they still didn't see it as the big deal it is. At least my superiors understood. I made sure that Nina would understand the weight of that name and I think I made her understand well enough.

And then the whole basilisk dragon insident. The fact that Lexonor had to put some of his money to table when the auction was going on was something that made some people in the Fallen quetion our standards. They think that we owe him now for this action and it is spliting people appart. Some deny it and some think it's real. The formal stance that we have taken is that Lexonor did all this on a whim and it should not be taken as something he has over us. That's the official stance anyways, but it won't silence the people who think otherwise.

And as to what happened to that dragon, the first plan was to sent it to a place where they could not be captured as easily. But the unexpected will of that dragon made it a bit more complicated. It wanted to serve under Nor's command. In terms of military, that fact is huge and it's causing backslash in the Fallen. Some think that Nor having all that power in his grasps is making people think that he is becoming too dangerous. I have gave them my full assurances that he won't resort to anything dastardly. At least not very easily.

And after five years of waiting what will come from Tian, I finally saw that dragon in person. She was beautiful I give her that, but the presence of her made me bit uneasy at first. She was quite easy to get along with once you got to know her, but the fact that she is very dangerous existance is still out there. At least she won't do anything that would trouble Nor. I hope that it stays that way. And I'm glad that she doesn't keep her eyes open much. I've seen her open her eyes and I felt immediately uneasy.

Rey also brought up the order of Lóng. The fact that he ordered Nor to move out kind of sadens me, but since I managed to convince that they would go to the house next to mine, I was relieved. It took a lot of work to get it back to a livable state, but the end result is amazing. I would say that it looks way prettyer than it did before it became an abandoned house. Not that I remember much of it.

Then a surprising thing happened while I was looking for servants to Los house. A man named Xorim appeared. Someone that had the interest of the Fallen on him. He was known mercenary that always got the job done. His track record was something that no normal person could dream to achieve. I was bit curious of why he would want to enter to an servitude of new family. I couldn't bring out his past when interviewing him since that would have made him causious. Nor seemed to be open to the idea of him working for him, so I let the mater go and let see what happened. And something unexpected happened indeed. He was looking for Aktor for some reason since he held a grudge on him. They wouldn't tell me what the grudge was about, which made me bit curious, but I still let it go, as all parties seemed satisfied.

I have some trouble when bringing Nina to physical examinations. Doctor Terry isn't someone you wouldn't want to be near kids. His... past has made it very clear that he cannot be trusted near children. Yet his main job is to check on people's physical conditions, and that includes children as well. Sadly, he is one of the best doctors in Atlas, so when we needed a physical examination on Nina several times in the past, doctor Terry was, unfortunately, the best choise. There aren't many people who study the field he does, so his expertiece is valuable. And as I am a parent of a child, I must make sure that he doesn't do anything funny around Nina. Unfortunately his nephew is somewhat close to Nina, so he might get to get in contact with him without me knowing. I can't just tell Nina the reason why she should avoid him. I mean... she is 28 now, but she is still a child. She might already know of these things, but I can't rob her of her childhood. She doesn't seem to like being monitored by Xorim or Rey when she is out with her friends, so it makes it difficult to make sure she's safe. Perhaps I should tell her the reason.

Rey Draca's journal:

I have been serving master for a full year now and I have learned his way of life. Even still, I ask often if there is anything he needs help with when I'm done with the usual tasks, but he often says that he is okay. I seem to be lacking since I haven't yet learned how to do things without the need for my master's orders. I have trained even more and he still seems quite reluctant to use my servises. Am I unneeded? No! I will prove my uselfullness to master!

I have been trusted to stay with young lady. She often asks me questions and I always answer with the best of my ability and she seems to enjoy asking me questions. I'm glad that I learned so much in elder Lóng's care. Now I can prove my worth to master by making young lady trust me. I also help her bath every now and then when she asks and I enjoy those moments greatly. She often admires my wings and tail to the point she often asks to touch them. Of course I can't refuse and while it's embarasing at times, I let her touch them. She likes to do so especially in bath. She has told me that I should keep my eyes open more, but once she understood that I prefer to keep them closed, she apologised and it was adorable. And when I explained that I can have better understanding of my surroundings by using magic, she told me that it was cool. Ah, young lady, you are just adorable.

There aslo has been a condender on the best servant of Los household. A man named Xorim came and started impressing all other servants. I can't deny his skill so I have to resolt on just being better than him. Though it has been bit difficult to do so, I will not give up. At least the insident with Aktor made him lose some points in my book. I won't let him live it down for a while now.

Henry Rondosfn's diary:

I don't know what happened. First after Nina drank bit of the tea I had given her, she fell asleep shortly after. Uncle then came and put her in a bag so that she won't find out about the surprise. So he carried her in a bag towards his house that wasn't far away. The maids looked bit conserned that Terry was there and I didn't know why.

When we entered his house, we went to the basement and uncle took Nina out of the bag and put her on the slimy table. He then put somethings around her hands and feet that were attached to the table. At this point I started to feel conserned and asked uncle "What will we do to her?" He then just said that "We are going to do something beautifull." He then put something on Nina's mouth. Then saw Nina waiking up and she seemed to be in a panic and she couldn't speak or move. I then heard my uncle say "I would prefer them younger, but I can't complain about this catch." He then started taking his pants of and I could see that his peepee was straight. He then proceeded to take rip Nina's pants off and she was just screaming under that thing on her mouth. Uncle then said "When I'm done, you can follow my example." I didn't understand.

Then just before uncle's peepee touched Nina's hole, I heard a crash upstairs and rumaging on the hallway. We have put the door shut and it was a hidden door, so it took a while for that person to get to the basement. Before that person could come down, uncle grabed a knife and put it near Nina's throat. I didn't understand what was going on, so I asked uncle and he said "It's all going to be fine. The bad person will stop doing what they are doing after I convince them to stop." I then asked why was he holding a knife near Nina's throat and he said "It's for negotiations. Don't worry about it, it will all be fine."

Then I heard the basement door open with force and I saw one of the people from Nina's house. I believe her name was Rey. When she entered the basement, uncle said "I wouldn't rush any more than that." To that Rey opened her eyes and saw that uncle was holding a knife near Nina's thoat. Uncle said "Now I would kindly ask you to leave and..." Then he stoped speaking suddenly, as if he couldn't move. Then Rey charged and pushed uncle to the ground. She made some sort of crystal around uncle so that he couldn't move. Then another member of Nina's house came and untied the things that uncle put on Nina. He was a scary looking demon. When Nina could move again, she hugged Rey and was crying. I didn't know what to do. I didn't understand what was happening. The demon told me that I shouldn't leave, but also that I shouldn't get close to Nina in near future. What is going on?

Then father came with guards and Rey undid the crystals around uncle. The guards then put him in shackless and father said to uncle "I hoped that it didn't come to this." Then the guards took uncle away and father told me "It's not your fault. Your uncle did something terrible and you won't see him in a while. In near future, the guards will ask you couple of guestions and I need you to answer the honestly. Do you understand?" I say yes and then he says "Good, now don't take what you uncle tought you to heart. In fact, I hope that you would forget what he tought you." I said I understood. Then I asked if Nina was going to be okay and he said "I hope so. You shouldn't see her in a while. I tell you when it's okay to meet her again, but until then, stay away from her." I told "okay" and he then took me out of that house. I noticed that Rey was carrying Nina out and when we got outside, Mary came with a worried look on her face. When she called Nina, Nina rushed to her arms while crying "mom." After that father and I left the place.

I asked father what uncle did and he just told me that it was something bad. Now I'm just confused and crying on what happened. What was uncle trying to do? Why are the adults so angry at uncle? I felt that what uncle was doing was wrong, but I don't understand why.

In the end, I just hope that my... no... that Nina will be okay. And then, if she will ever allow me, I will ask her if she can forgive me. I saw that she was hurt, yet I couldn't help her. Perhaps I did something bad as well. If so, I won't blame Nina if she won't forgive me.

Mary's journal:

I have made a terrible mistake. I let Nina get violated by the very man who I was worried about. To let that happen is an massive oversight. I got too careless with the friendship between Nina and Henry. I should have forced Nina to have Rey as her guard at all times when visiting him. And perhaps, I should have told Nina the truth about Terry.

Even so, I can't turn back time and save her from that nightmare. I have failed as a mother. I can only clean up after what has happened and support Nina as the best I also feel bad for Nor who can no longer touch his daughter. But most important person is the victim Nina.

When I heard what had happened, I was surprised to hear that Terry was still alive. I was sure that the bond Rey had for Nina would make her turn that man into a pile of crystals. But as it turned out, she was able to hold herself back and capture that man. I would have backed her up if she would have killed that man. I might have done so myself if I would have been the one to rescue Nina.

As to what will happen to that vile person named Terry Rondosfn, I will make sure he will stay in prison as long as I can make him. To until his death if possible.

Unfortunately the grim fact remains. No matter who you are, no matter where you are from and no matter what position you hold, you can't escape the reality of this world. No one is untouchable. In time, everyone will lose some of their innocense and no one can escape it. To what degree that will be is something we might be able to control, but we can't stay pure forever.

Rey Dracan's journal:

I have failed as a servant of Los household. No, as a friend of Nina Los. Even if I was not placed on guard duty, I was still her personal guard. To have let it happen to young lady, I feel ashamed to be called her friend.

As my feelings as a dragon, I see that it is the weak that get dominated by others. This case follows the same principle. The fact that young lady was weak and kind let this happen to her. That is my feeling as a dragon anyways. As a friend however, I feel like her kindness is what is good in her and it should not have been taken advantage of. As someone who is stronger than her, I should have been there to protect her. But there is no time to feel bad for myself, I need to focus on helping young lady recover as fast as possible. For the sake of her and her father.

And what comes for that bastard called Terry, I kind of regret not turning him into crystal. I was able to hold myself back by thinking that the law might cause trouble for master later if I did kill that man.

Now that master can't cherish her daughter, I must do my best to be there for young lady. She has had some trouble going outside of her room, but it's getting better little by little. She even had trouble eating for couple of days, but she managed to eat well couple days ago.

I wish the best of health to young lady.

Nina Los' diary:

I don't want to leave my room. I don't want to consume anything. I don't want to be near men. After what has happened I could barely leave my room and tolerate the men by the house. But since it was so hard for me to live in dad's house, he decided that I should live in mom's house for a while since they have less men working there. I'm now staying in mom's house for the time being. Some of the women from mom's household that came to dad't house have come back with me to mom's house.

How could Terry do this to me? I trusted him as much as I trusted my servants. Why would he do such a thing to me? I read about it in some books and mom told me about it, but I didn't want it.

Thank the gods that Rey came when she did. I should have let her stay as my guard when I went to Henry's house. I should have let mom place Rey as my guard when she told me so, no matter how much I didn't like it.

I feel kind of awfull that I can't eat Xorim's sweets as easily as I could before. He is so good at making them, but the unease I feel is making it hard to eat them. I somehow manage to eat them though. It's the only thing he can do for me now.

I don't blame Henry. Even if he was someone who helped Terry to do what he did, I could feel that he felt remorse when things got worse. I might not be able to say that to him in person for a while, but I will sent him a letter one of these days to make him feel a bit less bad.

Mom has made sure that she has time for me. I'm thankful, but she doesn't need to take offtime from her job. I can manage fine by myself if you give me stuff to read or do. I hope she doesn't blame herself too much about this. I rejected the idea of Rey being with me when I was with friends. Then again, I can only hope that she won't blame herself. Not too much at least.

And dad... what do I do? When he came to console me, I couldn't stay calm and let him do it. I know that he would never do that to me but... I can't be with him. I was so scared when he tried to touch me, but when he noticed this, he wasn't disapointed. He just took a step back and said "I don't blame you. If it means anything, I kind of know how you feel" What do you mean you don't blame me!? You wanted to help me, but I couldn't receive your care! Why are you so calm about it!? Why do you only look sad at me and not get frustrated!? I rejected your love for me that you have always made sure I felt! Why can you be so calm about this!? What do you mean you understand me!? Why don't you feel frustrated!? I rejected your warm embrace!

All I can do now is try to talk to him with distance. Even if it feels bad. Even so, he still says that I don't need to talk to him if it feels bad. Why are you telling me this? I want to talk to you but it's difficult. I want to hug you, but I can't. I'm too scared to get close to you. Talking from the distance is the only thing I can take right now. Don't take it away from me!