When confronted by death, many people would think about their life and reevaluate past decisions.
What were their regrets?
What would they have changed?
Maybe they shouldn't have been so strict with their children?
Maybe they shouldn't have broken up with their first love?
If they hadn't taken out that loan from those dangerous people, their children would have something to inherit today?
Naturally, Shang wasn't any different.
Should he have been more amongst people?
Should he have accepted the Sweeper's confession?
Should he have spared Jerald?
Shang thought about all of these things.
And he acknowledged something.
He would be happier if he had someone with him.
It would feel nice not to be alone right now.
Everything was so painful, exhausting, dark, and lonely.