No fighting, no shouting and no digging my heels in

***Matty's POV***

I take her home, and I feel like life is all clicking into place for us.

I couldn't be more happy for my mum, I briefly wonder if I would have felt so positive about the prospect of attending their wedding without having Taylor by my side. I would have still been happy for her I just wouldn't have wanted to go. I'm not usually good at formal events and dressing up and all that shit.

It's late the drive home took us a little bit longer because of the traffic. Ross texted me earlier while we were out asking if I was up for a party tonight. I haven't replied. I intend to stick to my word, I would rather not get back into that scene. Parties every night, the smoking and drinking.

Tomorrow is the last one for me and only because I know she has been looking forward to it, My aim is for us to chill with Malachi and Rhea. Her friends. Her normal friends that do not know about me and my past.

I will attempt to keep her from Ross, but he will smell a rat if I come across as too possessive. I've got to play it cool; no fighting, no shouting and no digging my heels in.

I'm laying in the bed already just in my boxers. I'm trying so hard not to gawk at her undressing in front of me. I've never ever been this attracted to a girl. I watch her unzipping her dress and peeling it off. I try to look away, play it cool. She turns around wearing her suspender belt, stockings and panties.

"What are those" I ask her.

"They're nipple protectors" she smiles at me, attempting to peel them off.

"So that I don't have to wear a bra" she tells me.

She peels one off and her nipple pops in front of me. I mean come on, give a guy a break.

"You didn't wear a bra?" I ask starting at her breast, I've given up on trying to look away.

"No Matty I didn't, my dress was low cut at the back and I didn't want my bra on show" she tells me.

"Mmm I saw that" I tell her biting my lip

She flushes. Pulling of the other one from her other nipple.

I'm captivated. She walks over to the bed and climbs on smiling at me.

"I enjoyed tonight thanks for inviting me Matty" she says sweetly. I'm still thinking about her nipples. My hands go down to her chest and she reacts by leaning into me.

"Me too actually" I say thumbs going over them.

"Your sister is really nice, I like her a lot. And Kraig" she says.

"I don't know I'm not sure about that one" I tell her. It's not that I don't want anyone with my sister. I just got a weird vibe from him. He's a live wire, and he's too confident. And he was watching Taylor too closely. And it's like dude you're with my sister not my girl. Maybe I'm too possessive.

"Kraig with a K." I laugh.

"I noticed from his debit card" I tell her as she's looking at me like a weirdo.

"So he's got a weird name, we can't all be perfect like you." She teases me.

"What we're you unsure of?" She asks after I'm quiet for a minute.

"I don't know. He just didn't seem close to Kim. He seemed more interested in everybody else" I tell her. Hoping she doesn't push me further. I'm happily playing away with her nipples and rubbing her waist and I'd like to continue doing that. Not taking about Kraig with a K.

"And he's Irish" I say. I can't help myself.

"Yes I noticed the accent, too" she replies.

"Have you thought about playing live with his band" I ask her tentatively

"I don't know really I'm not great singing in front of people but I suppose I'll have to do it at some point. It could be good even for practice" she says, forever logical in her responses.

I take a stray curl and pin it behind her ear.

"You would be amazing, I think the crowd would prefer you to his band" I laugh.

"It's something to think about.... Later" she smiles suggestively.

I bite my lip, she's just wearing her stockings now. I trace my hand down her side over her hips. I hesitate between her legs. She's hanging on my next move. I like her like this. It makes me feel in control.

I start to touch her down there and she closes her eyes moaning my name. It's the best feeling ever hearing her say my name. It makes me so hard, it aches. I just want to be inside of her.

I climb on top of her. As she opens her legs ready for me. The second I'm inside of her I feel a complete release, like everything is right. I relax into her and all of my thoughts are just about her.

Before Taylor I could never imagine having sex with the same girl over and over and it being exciting each time. Now I realise just how naive and stupid I was. I can't imagine having sex with anyone other than Taylor. It's like it means something different to me, something more. I can't even look at other women I'm so attracted to her and even though she is familiar to me, I crave her closeness time and time again.

When she told me that I'm her first sexual partner, which I suspected just looking at Tom. I felt so annoyed with myself for fucking around so much, in a way it cheapens everything. Like as if I could be any less worthy of her and then she tells me that.

She asks me if she can go on top. Her hips look so good on top of me. It's like because she can dance, it's even better. When I saw her dance in that lap dance at Ross', sexiest thing ever, I knew that would be the case.

I'm captivated by her movements on top of me.

She comes down closer to me and kisses my neck. I put my arms around her, stroking her back. I need her to reach her ending before I do, inside of her.

Her legs are shaking and she is calling my name again. That's it for me really, seeing her come like that and say my name in the same breath.

"I'm really close babe" I tell her. And she puts a finger to my lips to shh me.

I really am trying, really I am. I just want her to understand how hard it is to have your girl on top of you looking like that and stoping yourself from coming inside of her. The restraint I have is being tested. She continues grinding on me. I look at her in her eyes and she is aware of what is going to happen.

"You feel fucking amazing baby" I tell her reaching up to her breasts and playing with her nipples.

"So do you, Matty" she tells me.

And then she starts to orgasm again, I can feel it all around me.

I pull her down close to me and I know for sure I've also come inside of her.