chapter one

Linah.

"I am a virgin! How can I feel these emotions, how am I even this turned on. My panties are soaked wet and it's making me squirm on my seat. The pulsating feeling almost causing an explosion, all because he is watching me. He has been almost calculatively timed looking at me for a couple of  seconds before shift his eyes to his partners. Is this even normal maybe am hallucinating or over thinking of something."

I tried to get up maybe to get away from his sight but then I considered otherwise ... What if my arousal had already shown on my tight skirt. I make a mental note to wear something lose the next time am in public and not be all dolled up like an attention seeking barbie.

"I can't stand this!." I told myself. Lifting my eyes and met with his silver eyes once more. What if he can see through me I mean the goosebumps already on my neck and body especially my exposed areas or he notices the exhale of air that is almost leaving me breathless.

What do I do I scream to myself and almost immediately look away completely embarrassed of myself. Gathering the little energy left in me I exited the school building making my way home. This was my graduation celebration I was to join college at the end summer and here I was running through the night, away from my classmates, away from my celebration all because of some stupid uncontrollabe body desires that did not even seem to calm down even with the calming cold air of the night. I mentally scolded myself over and over again.

There are so many reasons why this would not work. First of all and the most embarrassing thing is I am a virgin, completely inexperienced in bed and in all the intimacy stuff. The guy I am so in 'lust' for seems to have had lots and lots of experience.

I cringe at the thought that this maybe true ... It is true and that means that he has met women who were extremely good as much as I hated this thought it somehow made me excited to think of what he would do if ever he wanted me.

Maybe all these is just in my head and there i was crushing 'like a wrecking ball.'

You are so fucked Linah.