I MESSED UP!

Jake's P.O.V

I need to stop this. Getting closer to her too much is not good for me. At the same time, I can't leave her alone. Every time I just see her, all my emotions come rushing back like a sugar rush after taking too much candy. I think I need to stop.

What does she even have that Dorcas doesn't have? Dorcas is a successful model, YouTuber and actor. She is good with the media and a big celebrity person. 

Dee, well for Dee she is just this young girl, a young girl whom I met and now all I want is to be near her. She is not a Celebrity like Dorcas and me. All she knows is reAding fantasy novel and thinking that she will also fall into one of those situations. 

Or maybe she has just fallen into those situations given that I have to save her from her situations ever since we met.

Or maybe am just stupid to let my mind think about her in that way, should I just lay her in my bed, put her in seventy-seven position then she will be out of my system?

No, I don't want to remind her of how she almost got assaulted and that will also add too much of her misery. I don't want to be the source of her unhappiness, I don't want to be the reason somebody commits suicide.

"Hold up, you already are her source of unhappiness, look at her, you took your silly friends to the dinner and they called her names what are you not her source of unhappiness?"

"Shut up dude, I was not the one who did that, my friends did that!" I shouted back to my wild thoughts.

"What? about a few minutes ago, you fucking accused her of making Dorcas unhappy, you even made out in front of her,"  he retorted back.

"Hey, you know I always do whatever I want even if you are objecting," I mocked back at him.

"Trust me, I think I will he wild with her around than Dorcas, look at how Dee send us all bananas when you just sit with her, think of me of heart and your other feelings, having a celebrity because you are also a celebrity without feelings is not enough, I want Dee, just give it a try even if she is not a celebrity," 

Why is he even pleading with me about that? I can't have Dee, what will my friends think of me?

Wait since when have I been concerned about what people think about me, about what I do?

But let's just lay the facts straight. If they found me with Dee, they will start digging about her and her family, she can't keep up with being famous and walking in the celebrity shoes. She still hasn't joined college, what does she have for her title?

That's why it going to be hard to let the world see her. She is a liability and I can't just take her with me.

"Do you know Dominic was right? You could have just left her in the hospital," shouted again my mind before going silent.

I couldn't leave her in the hospital, because of the way her mother was treating her, but also I don't know her better than her mother, if she accused her of throwing herself into men, then she must have been doing that. I don't know, I mean I met her just the other day.

Her sister Fern is someone I know, I haven't got a chance to put her among my statistics but she has worked for one of my investors. 

That's why when her mother was praising her, I know she was talking if how petite and hardworking she is, not at working honey, but as a fucking gold digger who wants to reap people off their money. I don't see me with her.

What about Dee? Maybe she is also just pretending here but she has passed there and did everything to get money, now that she claims her father is sick and needs treatment.

I watched as the nurse was checking her. She was asleep. The nurse informed me that she is doing better. 

"Why do you have your tits almost falling out? Don't you have some decorum while treating patients, we are not here to try some hardcore porn, just look for a new dress," I said to her. 

Yesterday she was dressed properly, look at her today, all her yogo's almost sporting out. Well, I also can't blame my handsomeness. They make the girls want to circle me, well except for Dee who doesn't seem interested in it.

I sent the nurse out and was left with Dee. Her chubby, little face was glowing. Well, she doesn't use expensive Gucci make-up, but just look at how spotless her face is. 

Her lips are to die for. The things that tempted me yesterday and j kissed her. She was sweet. The way they are full and cherry-like. I just love how she bites them then leaves them to tremble on their own without forcing them.

I placed my hands on her cheeks, I just wanted my hands to stay longer on her body. She mumbled in her sleep.

"What are you thinking of Dee, who is hurting you? I just want you to tell me," I was mumbling silently as I gently caressed her. 

"Shhh, it's going to be over," but she was not stopping.

Her monitor was beeping and I didn't know what to do. 

"Dominic! Dominic!" I called while panicking. 

Dominic came in running with other security while cocking their guns.

"Are you alright boss?" He asked me in a shouting tone.

"Not everyone I calm you I am in trouble, place your guns back and call the doctor, I think she is going through something!" I said while pointing at Dee who was struggling in her bed.

Nick came in running and pushed me aside. His hands we fast and within a time he had stabilised her heart near and she was now beating normally.

"Can I talk to you for a minute?" Asked Nick in a serious tone.

I didn't want to leave Dee's side but I was forced to.

"Is Dee okay because her pressure was over the roof," said Nick calmly.

"I guess," I said uncertainly of my words. 

I didn't want to admit that I was the reason why her blood pressure was pushing high. I kept quiet but deep inside I couldn't.

"I think I may be the reason, I just shouted at her for nothing, totally nothing I was acting stupid you know, just trying to make sure she feels bad," I cried.

"Hey, Jake, are you sure you are okay?" Asked Nick in a worried voice.

"I just messed it up, Nick!" 

hat are you talking about Jake, what have you messed with, did you now kick her?" He asked in a harsh voice after he saw how I was talking.

I just knew the way I behave is what has caused this. She was just in the sitting room reading the magazines that are normally not read. She is the first one to read it.

She listened to all my stories without saying a word she encouraged men how to go through things that I didn't know I would go about.

I thought I was doing the wrong thing and my sisters will come. Haunting for me about our promise, but look at her, she has assured me that we will fix this together.

I don't know why I was acting this way, I feel something when we are together.

I called Dorcas yesterday because I felt like I needed a distraction. I needed someone I could throw my frustration at and Dorcas was just the right person bit every time I placed my lips on her to kiss her, I felt Dee's lips and I didn't want her taste but just Dee's.

I just fucked her without foreplay but I know she was wondering why we didn't have our fore okay before having the main course.

I feel bad that I am doing bad to her, I don't know why am drill keeping her around while I don't even live here. I don't even feel her, nothing happens when we fuck, there are no sparks. 

"You haven't answered me, I need to know what happened so that I can treat her?" Shouted Jake making Other security guards walk near me but I stopped them with my hands.

I didn't know how to explain this, I felt embarrassed that this might make Jake hate me again.

"I shouted at her, I shouted at her for stupid thing," I said in a broken voice.

Dominic walked forward in a rush and wanted to hit me but stopped himself while looking at the security guards.

"You realize now that you did the wrong thing? Are you crying now? You better get in there and apologise to her but I am still going to get my revenge tomorrow in the ring!" He started.

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