Guilty

~Azaria~

We sat there a moment his hand on my thigh, the gesture was small but sweet and I didn't feel so crazy wanting him as close as I did. I never went all the way with anyone. There had been a few times where we got pretty handsy, but it never went further than touching and kissing. After the takeover there weren't many chances for such things, most people were fighting or fleeing. I took a deep breath trying to figure out how to explain my powers.

"So, if I was a full genie, I wouldn't have a permanent form unless I wanted to and even then, some physical barriers are not really an issue for us." I paused looking to his eyes hoping he didn't thing I was a freak or strange, but he just nodded and squeezed my thigh gently "keep going, its ok" He spoke softly to me and I smiled probably looking goofy and lopsided forgetting I was explaining something, I cleared my throat and continued "Well I'm not a full genie so I can't change my form at will, but, I have this like ghostly shadowy form where most people can't see me and some physical barriers are not a problem for me in that form"

I looked down feeling a bit shy. I never told anyone about my powers let alone how they work, and I suddenly felt self-conscious wondering if he would think I was good enough.

but to my delight he just accepted it like nothing and spoke

" I wondered why I could smell you so strongly " he leaned back on the loveseat "So has anyone been able to see you in that form, I defiantly felt you touch me" I shook my head.

" Just my parents, I haven't seen them in a long time...." I trailed off frowning thinking of them. I wasn't even sure if they were alive or not. "Ahhemm" I hear Alaric clear his throat " Did they make it after the invasion?" he looked at me with concern and I shrugged " I don't know They were when I was taken, I hope... I don't know how long I have been gone" I sighed, he squeezed my thigh, and spoke up again.

" So, what else can you do?" He looked at me with a sparkle in his eye and I narrowed my eyes at him.

" For a wolf you sure are nosey, you are sure you're not part cat or something?" I giggled and his brow lifted playfully.

" Be careful mate, if I'm the cat you're the mouse, and I'm always in a mode to play" he winked at me with a mischievous grin and I laughed softly, my cheeks turning a hue of rose at his unabashed flirting. 

his hand on my thigh while his eyes bore into me felt like it might burn me in the most delicious way if he kept staring at me like that. We sat there just looking at each other like our souls were testing the waters getting a good look at their other half. I met my eyes to his and I was lost in an instant, my lips parted, and I let out a sigh as I laid my hand on his chest over his shirt. He visibly gulped and his breath hitched at the contact, but our eyes never left. He reached for me, and my hand went up his firm chest, over the tender flesh of his neck up to his cheek and I stroked my thumb over it feeling the stubble that hand taken over.

His hand on my thigh traveled up to my waist and the other hand wrapped around the back of my neck and in one effortless pull I was on his lap and his mouth was on mine. His tongue pushed into my mouth and his delicious smell and taste of vanilla overtook my senses. I fisted his shirt trying to keep myself steady, his scent making me feel dizzy like I was drunk. I could feel his hand gripping my thigh again and his hand pressed to my back keeping me close to him, his hard body pressed into mine and he was hot like a furnace but the feel of him against me ignited those sparks along my skin causing that fire to bloom again low in my belly. He groaned and moved from my mouth to my neck licking, and it sent tingles all over my body and a lusty moan left my mouth. I felt on my backside exactly the effect my moan had on him, and he growled. He stops and moves me again to sit next to him but makes sure our sides are touching, and I tuck my arm under and around his, leaning my head on his shoulder. I feel him place a kiss on my head and I smile softly. At first, I was confused why he stopped but I could feel how much he wanted me, but he was.... afraid? 

He speaks up saying.

"Sorry...I hope I didn't scare you I just didn't expect this to be so intense..." he sighed " We really should talk too; I want you to know what it means to be with me before.... but I know someone is after you and my wolf is on edge knowing someone is trying to get you. So, we need a plan, I need you safe" I nodded my head it rubs against his arm.

 "It's ok...I'm affected too, and you weren't scary."

 If anything, I was the scary one, I'm the one who possessed that girl. Who knows what trouble she got into for what I did.... even if she is part of the coalition, she probably was just a nobody following orders. I was jolted from my thoughts when Alaric squeezed my leg "what troubles you beautiful?" I shifted a little not sure if I should say it.

"Promise you won't judge me as a bad person?"

His brow came together making his forehead wrinkle and he was so adorable, but that deep voice made that cuteness sexy in an instant when he spoke " whatever it is, I will be by your side." I nodded wondering if that would hold true. 

"I can possess people...against their will and that's how I escaped the Coalition."

 He nodded at my words, seeming unfazed.

 "So, you were being held against your will and you used your powers to escape.... why would I deem you a bad person because of that?"

 He looked me in my eyes and held my chin up to look at him.

 "Have you ever eaten a person before? Or tortured them to near death?"

 My eyes widened a bit and he spoke again " I didn't think so, as long as you don't judge me, I won't judge you" he smirked "don't worry honey, I won't eat you, not like that anyway."

 I was stunned. He ate someone before? What could they have possibly done to deserve that? Should I even ask? He did bring it up so maybe he wants me to know?

"What did they do that you did that? its ok if you don't want to talk about it..."

 He sighed and looked up at the ceiling.

"What they did got my baby sister killed."

I looked at him staring at the ceiling and I placed my hand over his heart and rubbed his chest hoping I could sooth his heart, I could feel his sadness and it was strong. Tears pricked at my eyes feeling a loss, the sister I would never meet, the things we will never get to do, and I can see it in his eyes too.

"I'm sorry" and I snuggled into him, and he put an arm around me.

"Don't be, it's not your fault" he sighed and looked back at me "don't feel bad for someone when you're trying to stay alive, and they are in your way" I nodded and spoke.

" I don't think you're a bad person, you didn't carry that out baselessly on an innocent person, don't feel guilty for that" I looked up at him snuggled under his arm. A look of shock crossed his face and I just smiled up at him and then his face softened and smiled back at me and then held out my pinky "do we have a deal?" I wiggled my pinky finger at him, and he chuckled and linked his pinky with mine and I kissed it and he spoke "I don't remember pinky promises being sealed with a kiss" I smiled at him and laughed a little

"This is my special pinky promise for my mate, I think we should finalize all our decisions with kisses" I giggled and him taking on a mock serious tone "excellent observation, I agree...we must celebrate this revelation with more kisses."

He starts to lean over trying to pepper kisses all over my face and I giggle pretending to try to escape and not think about how much we must face. For the moment I just want to play with my mate and drive that sadness from his heart as long as I can.