not a loser

Why she had not told him till this minute was what made him unsure of what she was saying.

Although when he read her heartbeat, it was calm in a way and that meant that she was not lying to him, but he still found it so hard to believe.

At the same time, he really wished he could feel all excited about it because it was great news.

But at that time, his heart was made up and he really needed to go, to protect them some other time.

He had the best of best reasons to stay if truly Lisa was pregnant, he would need to be available for her every time of the day.

Elisha thought about this and laughed at how possible it would even be, because when she was pregnant with Ella he was still a young Alpha.

He did not even do much work as his uncle was more than available before he also passed on as reality dawned on him.

But by then he was already done with the mother and baby sitting he was always doing and could settle with the pack duties he had on him.

Now, Elisha knew that even if he was going to be around during Lisa's pregnancy, he was not going to devote enough time to taking care of her.

But to make the matter worse, he knew that he could die if he stayed with the other pack members.

Elisha was in a state of confusion at this point because he did not know whether or not what spurred his leaving the pack.

He had to go but he was not sure if fear of the unknown was what made him make the attempt of leaving.

Maybe it was because he was tired of being a slave to the Avas, too much time had gone already.

The evil about it was that their slavery did not look like it was really that way but they were actually slaves.

They had to pay a tenth of all they got and also they were being forced to fight alongside them in any way they had with other packs.

Elisha decided to brush the thoughts of how the Avas treated them and how hastily he wanted to get out of their hook.

Looking at the fierce eyes of his wife, he knew that she was not lying and he felt terrible that she was not at the same time.

"Lisa, you shouldn't have gotten pregnant"

"Really? That's what you have to say, Elisha?"

"At least not at this time."

"Wow! You are absolutely ridiculous."

"No. You are."

"This is not the one I got married to."

"Stop it, Lisa"

And that was when hell was let loose and then they fought their way outside the house.

Actually she was the one fighting him, he was trying all he could to avoid her advances but it was seemingly impossible.

She was strong, though not like he was but she was determined to injure him and he would not fight back.

All her emotions were put into fighting him and that was what made her win him.

There was no way he could control her when she was using the fight to push every one of her pain out.

Maybe she was afraid as well of what she saw and what she believed could happen to him if he left them.

And he knew she was hurt that he did not even care about their unborn child, who would succeed him when he was gone.

Well, maybe because he had Ella he did not care about anything else and he was finally power thirsty like other Alphas.

Now she has started to hate him and what he was standing for, if he went things would never be the same.

It was not as though she loved the kind of life they were living or she enjoyed her husband submitting under another Alpha.

But she had seen all that it was that was going to happen and she was relaxed that all they needed to do was groom Ella.

She would be powerful and would save the pack members immediately when her father was gone.

Indirectly she had told Elisha this time without number but he never listened and all he would say is that they should keep trying.

She understood how strong willed he was and she supported him but there really was only little to nothing they could do.

Now, he had to go when she saw death looming and was with a child, it was terrible that telling him made no difference.

That was why Lisa burst out in tears, the truth was that she was not only confused on what to tell Ella, she was afraid.

She might try to make everything look perfect so as to allay Ella's fears and please her husband but something bad was coming.

Suddenly, she decided to clean every one of her tears and stand up as soon as she could, cleaning her overflowing dress as well.

Ella smiled because this was the strong woman she knew but the smile was a dry one because she was unsure of what to do.

Her father would be leaving them tonight and she did not know when he would be back, all she could think about is why.

"Ella" Lisa held her by her shoulders to talk to her.

"Yes, mother"

"You know I love you and daddy loves you so much also" she said looking at her husband.

She gave him the "I just have to do this" kind of look and he looked back at her thankfully.

Maybe she finally understood why he had to do this and he would be more than grateful if she did.

But he decided to wait for her to say all that was in her mind to know what would happen to him and his journey.

"Yes, I know that" Ella's face turned inpatient as she really wanted to know what was going on.