Still in love with this woman

Benson's POV

I tried calling her phone again, but the number was switched off 

"Dad when will miss Jesse come back". Lillian asked while staring at me with a questioning look that I didn't know what to say to her. 

I pull her to myself and made her sit on my laps while I gently stroke her hair with care before I spoke up 

"Miss Jesse will be back very late, why don't I put you to bed, and then you can see her tomorrow morning ". I tried convincing her which worked

"Okay ".she nods her head to me,

I smiled at her and stood up from the couch with Lilly in my arms.

I walk to her room and gently lay her on the bed, and was about telling her bedtime story when I noticed she was already asleep.

I hissed in relief and kissed her forehead before putting off the light and left her room.

I sat on the couch with my phone in my hand as I kept on staring at the phone to see if I will get a call from her.

I checked the time and noticed it was pass 12 am.

I hissed in Frustration and walk aimlessly in the sitting room

I knew I was wrong, I shouldn't have said those things to Jesse.

I did not know what came over me that made me muttered out those words to her.

I sat on the couch and tried her number but still, it was switch off.

I felt fear run through my blood, it's pass 1am and still no Jesse, and the worst part is that she is new to this town.

I murmured in frustration and anger as I roughly ran my fingers through my hair.

I sat on the couch with my eyes closed when a memory flash in my head.

"Jesse where are you ". I asked in panic

"Calm down, we are almost home"

I hissed over the phone before speaking up

"I told you guys to wait until morning before you start this journey, but you refused ". I murmured.

She chuckled softly over the phone before speaking up 

"Don't worry we are almost home".

I murmured and was about to say something when I heard noises from the background and the phone disconnected.

I felt fear run through my blood as I kept on calling her phone,, but the call wasn't connecting

I put on my clothes and rushed out of the house, I got into my car and drove over to Jesse's house.

I felt fear run through my body as I park in front of their house.

I came out of the car and rushed into the house, where I met Jennifer and their mom watching a movie.

They  stared at me, shocked and confused, as I walk into the sitting room.

"Is Jesse back ?". I asked while seizing my breath

"Not yet, is something wrong ". Jesse's mom asked 

I sat on the couch and told her how the phone suddenly disconnected and the sound I heard.

She hissed softly and stood up from the couch and went for her phone, she picks up her phone and dialed a number, but it wasn't going through.

I felt cold shivers run through my body and I couldn't control myself.

I stood up from the couch and wandered in the sitting room with fear 

"Calm down they are fine ". Jennifer assured me, but I wouldn't listen.

I walk aimlessly for hours until we heard footsteps at the door.

Quickly I went for the door and opened it only to see Jesse staring at me with curiosity 

"What are you doing here by this time of the night ". I did not let those words finish from her mouth when I pull he to myself and held her tightly in my arms as my heart pound in fear.

A soft knock on the door brought me out from my thought 

Quickly I stood up from the couch and ran to the door and opened it, only to see Jesse staring at me with a childish smile on her face. 

"Aww so sweet, so you've been waiting for me ".she murmured drunkenly

I stared at her and felt anger run through my blood not for her but for myself.

She moved closer to me and softly kissed my lips while she smiled drunkenly at me 

"Sorry for keeping you waiting". She murmured and place her head on my shoulder and I realized she about to fall asleep on my shoulder.

"Jeez". I called out to her, 

She murmured drunkenly and kept on murmuring words I couldn't understand.

I pull her closer to me and carried her bridal style to the room 

I open the door and gently lay her on the bed, while I took a better look at her.

Staring at her, I realized she was just as beautiful as she was twelve years ago.

I stared at her perfect, soft pink lips and everything in me was screaming for me to pull her to myself and kiss her, but I couldn't.

I was supposed to hate this woman, I was supposed to make I pay for what she did to me, but here I am staring lustfully at her lips.

I groan in Frustration and tried to move away, but she places her hands on my neck and pull me to herself and hit her lips to mine.

At first, I wanted to move away from her,, but she held me tightly.

I pulled her more closely to me before taking her lower lips to mine, 

Her lips were soft, almost silken, and pillowy against my own. I could feel the soft tickle of her breath beneath my nose, fingers carding through her hair as we breathed each other in.” … “Her lips were still sweet with alcohol from the drink she took.

She moans drunkenly in between the kiss before I noticed she has fallen asleep.

I hissed softly and peck her lips before moving away from her 

I stared at my down below and realized I was already hard.

I groaned in frustration and stared at sleeping Jesse.

I stared at her and realized I was still in love with this woman.