"Sometimes the only way to push forward is to pull back."
"The potential possibilities of any child are the most intriguing and stimulating in all creation."
– Ray L. Wilbur
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Will Allan Foundre POV
June 25, 2005
The next day, I'm currently practicing my swordsmanship -I swung down the dull katana hard- while I was thinking about what Dad and Uncle Charles discussed.
*Swish*
The one behind it all is 𝐊𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐩𝐢𝐧...
*Swishh*
He is the one responsible for putting Mom and Dad in a hospital...!
*Swishhh*
He is the reason why all this is happening!
*SWISHH*
...and we are the ones that need to compromise? *sighh* This world is fucking unfair... but I can't really do anything about it. I feel so helpless and powerless, I can't even fight back Kingpin right now. I don't even know where he is...
I stopped training because I can't really concentrate... instead I looked at my gatcha.
|Name: Will Allan Foundre
Gacha points: 0
Powers:
- None
Character Assimilation:
[ Zenitsu Agatsuma (Demon Slayer)- 67%] [ King (One Punch Man)- 22%]
Summon Characters:
- None
Unused Cards:
- None|
It has been like almost three days since I assimilated King's card and I am not progressing as fast as I thought I would be. What do I need to do to assimilate it faster? Hmmm...? Ah! That's it King is very good at games, right? Damn, I've been focusing on training so much that I forgot even about that. Good thing is that I have some consoles at home, I'll ask Uncle Charles to take me there when he comes back.
For now, I'll focus on the Total Concentration: Constant. I can do it when doing normal tasks but it is still difficult when training and not to mention sleeping.
After a few hours, Uncle Charles came back home.
"You stopped training little guy? You're going to need lots of self-discipline, so don't give up!"
"No, I'm just resting because I can't concentrate and I need to get something from home so I need you to take me there."
"That's good, that's good... Have you eaten yet? You'll need lots of meat! Dereshishishi..."
"I'll eat later after we go to our house."
"Well, I'm hungry now, let's eat first before we go."
*Sighh*
After we ate we went to Uncle's car and drove, while driving Uncle Charles asked me a question,
"What is it that you need in your house that you're so impatient to get there?" He asked curiously.
"...I need to get my game consoles..."
"I thought it was something very important, I even had to eat faster dereshishishi."
"..." This is why I didn't want to tell him.
"...but that is good. You've been training since the shooting happened, I was going to take you to the mall to unwind but I've been busy..."
"It's okay, Uncle... I know you have a lot of things to do."
"No, no it's not. I know you've been trying to change and I support that, be a man! But you are still a kid, go and play some games, make friends and leave all the complicated stuff to us."
Be a kid? That's all I've been doing this whole time, being a kid. All I've ever done is ignore everything and hide in our house, just like a kid hiding under the bedsheet afraid of the imaginary monster under his bed. I should take action now and stop being idle, that is why I'm trying to find anything that can make the assimilation faster. I still can't meditate and I don't know why, that is the reason I am focusing on my physical training.
While I was thinking I felt someone ruffle my hair for like a second.
"I said be a kid, right?"
"But! that is all I've been doing... I want to help. I need to do someth-"
"Have you ever been a kid?"
"Wh-what? That doesn't make any sense, I AM a kid..."
"You know for a smart kid you sure are stupid."
"...." Now he is just insulting me. I know I am not smart, I am only smart for a kid my age.
"As I said have you been a kid?"
"What do you mean by that? I said I am a kid, getting scared all the time, I can't even do anything when Dad got shot and Mom is held against her will. I just stood there frozen in fear."
"You get scared easily but that's okay it is just part of being a kid. But being a kid also means making mistakes, being curious, and making memories. How are you going to be a kid if you're so scared to do anything?"
I didn't say anything because I think he's kinda right...
Then we arrived at my house and it feels like it has been a lifetime since I came home. Uncle Charles used Dad's keys then we went inside.
I just stood there in the doorway, looking at the house that I've lived in for the last ten years... it feels empty. This is the reason that I didn't want to go home without my parents, Uncle Charles is the one that went here last time to get me a bunch of clothes.
"You okay there little guy?" Uncle Charles asked me worriedly.
"...I'm fine, I am just going to get my game consoles, and let's get back to your place."
Then I took my game consoles and we drove back.
"I'm going to sleep don't stay up too late..." Uncle Charles said after we got back.
I just nodded and connected the console to the tv.
I played games for the whole night...
I was so distracted that the only thing that reminded me of the time is when the sun shines on the window...
But I guess I managed to take my mind off the shit that is Kingpin while I am playing. Well, another good thing is that King's card is at 53%.
The games aren't even that great, I mean don't get me wrong the game is good for something that is created in the year 2005, but it is just... like nostalgia.
But the most important thing is how I stayed up all night because I don't really do that, I have greater self-control than this. Am I being affected by King's Card? What if I assimilate a lot of cards am I still going to be the same me in the end?
I really need to learn meditation so that I can center myself but I still can't seem to focus... Do I need to climb a mountain and meditate at the top or do I go under a waterfall? *sighhh*