Chapter 106: Journal:

Back to Hui Qing's POV: 

During this month I have been in and out of hospital. I was still in a wheelchair but I could walk sometimes for a short distance though. It was quite difficult for me to do so, but I was trying. 

Today was day 15 since I woke up and I was planning to visit Hui Yun. The last time I went she looked so dead. She was trying to look after a newborn child. Looking at her, I can confirm that I might never have kids. I'm going to go and visit her right after my therapy session. 

Knock Knock. A sound came from the door. "Come in," I shouted. Wei Wei walked inside my hospital room. "What's up?" I asked. Wei Wei handed me a book explaining that it was my journal. She hoped that I would be able to read the journal and get some of my memories back. "Thanks," I mumbled placing it into my bag. 

"Oh right, did you have a look at your email? Has your editor replied to you yet?" Wei Wei asked. "Omg, I forgot about that. If you didn't remind me, I would have forgotten," I stated opening my phone and scrolling through my emails. Wei Wei sat down next to me and helped me find the email. "Ah, so the fan meeting has been set to next month on 08/01/24," I stated as Wei Wei nodded. "Wanna go with me?" I asked as she nodded. "Definitely. I need a signature. After all, I'm your first fan," she mumbled as I laughed. 

In the next moment, the doctor came and Wei Wei made her way back to school. I think I need to return to university as well. I have missed quite a lot of lessons. Although Fang Feng did give me some notes her boyfriend made for me to catch up I think I need to return to university. I plan to go back as soon as Zhao Jun Jie's one-month birthday/ anniversary party has finished. 

As soon as I was finished with the therapy, my whole body was sweating. Waiting at the door was Qi Yan. Why was he here? He didn't say anything instead he carried me to his car and drove me home. The drive home was so quiet. There weren't any conversations. I noticed his car was quite clean, there was even a picture of us two hanging on the mirror. Were we that close before? The picture looked quite intimate. 

Qi Yan helped me get back home and left. He's so weird. Why did he go and pick me up but didn't talk to me? I asked one of the servants to help me set up a bath before they left. Not long later I finished my bath and I could finally read the journal. 

 I flipped through the pages and noticed there were a lot of pages. This will take me forever to read. I grabbed my phone and sent a message towards Hui Yun that I wouldn't be able to come and visit her today. I needed to spend time reading this journal. 

The first entry was the first day I entered university. Several entries were about my university life and interesting things that happened during that time. The entries began to change on 17/08/22, a year ago. The entries were so weird.

Apparently, I had written that I supposedly 'rebirthed' and I had returned to 10 years ago. I'm guessing from the way I wrote about the future, I wasn't very happy. In the future, I married Qi Yan and it was a horrible marriage. I ended up liking a man called Luo Wen Ning and in the end, I was killed by him and my best friend, Feng Xiu Ying. Everything seemed like a very vivid drama/ dream. 

I read through all of the pages and I saw the way I was slowly getting my revenge against Luo Wen Ning and Feng Xiu Ying. I also read about everything that had happened between me and Qi Yan. It looks like we had a very intimate relationship. However, I don't seem to recall anything...

I also saw what my family's ending would be. Reading all of that I was soon in tears. Over my dead body. There is no way I will let my family end up like that. The only thing I had done was secure Hui Yun's fate to be something else. It seems like Hui Yun and Zhao Ru Yu had something going on between the two. If this was true then Hui Yun won't ever die nor would the rest of the things happen. I will make sure of it. 

Uhh Whatever. Since I can't remember it, then I don't want to try and remember anything. I just need to live my life as if I'm a newborn person. I'm going to choose who I eventually end up with. And that person will not be Qi Yan nor can it be.