Oh Ana
I'll be God
I'll be God
I'll be God
I'll be God, today
Hold my head under the bath and breathe away
Slit my wrists and watch that blood evaporate
Being this Godly can't be good for Ana's safety, Ana hear me
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I sent it.
I sent the text to her. Long and dreadful to read even for myself,I managed to get the courage and do it. Waiting was the most painful thing,I couldn't even manage to look at my phone for a solid hour after sending it,I played Nekopara instead,mesmerized my the way the characters breasts jiggled as the sprites moved. What a weird design choice.
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Y/N opened her phone,a long text from sadie in her inbox. Her brow furrowed in confusion,why was she sending a text this long?
- Hey,angel. I really need to tell you some things I've been bottling up inside for a while,churning,making my insides hurt. Two years ago,I was about to bang this guy named Ramon,ugh,just saying or thinking his name puts a bad taste in my mouth. Anyways,I chickened out,I just couldn't,and I didn't know what happened. However,he pushed me down and forced me to do it against my will,I fought back,knocking down candles. Stupid,i know, and a few things caught on fire. He screamed at me,and I managed to get away,as he chased me,something came over me,and let's just say he isnt here anymore. And the house burned down. So,I ran to the closest telephone pole and called up Adam,my ex. I never told you about him,did I? He said he would let me stay,only if I fucked him. He was vile and disgusting,and picked me up as soon as I stepped inside. Of course,I stumbled down the stairs as I tried to get away. We talked,and I manipulated him into letting me stay. I live there now,fearing everyday what might come over him. Not as much as before now,but,feat remains,like a lingering stain on a white skirt when ketchup gets on it. Permanent. The just of this is that,I love you. I love everything about you,everything you do. You make me feel loved and protected,and I can't stand men at this point. Especially Michael,I don't get what you see in him. He's rude,and do you even know what his father has done and is capable of? Tell me the truth,y/n,do you love me? Because I really love you.
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What? What was this? Y/n's eyes and heart hurt just reading it,this actually happened to her,it hurts. It hurts so much to hear that,like when you get told that there's no more cake left for you after your birthday when you only ever got one slice. Tears formed in her eyes as she began to type,falling down onto her bedsheets.
-Sadie,please,meet me on the sidewalk near my house. We need to talk. 💕
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Y/N got up from her bed,feet touching the old carpet as she walked downstairs to get her jacket. Her hands cold and brittle as she opened the door,cold air hitting her skin. Y/n closed the door behind her with a small noise,not waking her mother. She then walked to the sidewalk,hands in her pocket. Her shoes clicked as she walked over to it,eyes gazing at the burning stars above.
The street light was directly above her,shining down on her hair,cheeks dusted red from the cold as she forgot to put on her scarf. She kicked around pebbles with her foot and waiting for Sadie to arrive,not knowing exactly what to say to her. Does she say she loves her back,or does she say she doesn't? What if she just dodges the question? Y/N was clueless,bewildered even by the sudden confession.
She felt like she couldn't turn down the offer,but what other choice did she have?
She loved Sadie as a friend,but couldn't picture themselves in a loving relationship. Y/N feared it would hurt her and her friendship,and she didn't want that. Would it have just been best to block the number and pretend it never happened when she went to school the next day? But that was far fetched,Sadie definitely wouldn't like that.
Y/N rubbed her arms to try and keep warm,looking at to her left. She saw a familiar silhouette running,out of breath in a fuzzy purple nightgown,accented with lace. Cheeks red,panting. Sadie.
Sadie must have dropped everything and ran here when she got the message,that explains why she's out of breath. Y/N ran towards Sadie and wrapped her arms around her cold skin,calming her down. Y/N stroked her hair and back in soothing motions.
"Angel,I-" Sadie began to say, "it's alright,darling. Just,tell me sooner about your situation,I would've helped way sooner.." y/n said,releasing the hug but holding onto her hand.
The same one she held Michaels with.
Her hand felt complete again,but this felt like a sin. Why? All she was doing was holding her best friends hand carefully and lovingly,like she had done with so many people before. It had felt like one star in her jar of two had grown larger and overpowered the other,nearly escaping that jar,only held in by the cork holding them both in.
Sadies lips were parted slightly,surprised by the sudden acts of affection,she never got much that wasn't inherently sexual. "I really need to tell you something,Sadie." Y/N said,looking into Sadies dark green eyes,head tilted.
"I do love you but..not in the same way. I..really hope this doesn't hurt you." She said,smiling softly as to not hurt her feelings. This felt wrong,like she wasn't doing something right. Sadies eyes grew tears in the corners. "Am I...am I not good enough for you,angel? Do I..have to do something for you? I'll do anything,I'll even..even do..that." Sadie said frantically.
"No,Sadie,you're worth everything and more,you are an amazing person but..I don't want to be in a relationship with you. We can stay friends.." y/n said,holding the black haired girl into a hug. She could feel Sadie sobbing on her shoulder as she gripped onto her tightly,eyeliner smudged and mascara wet.
"I'll..see you another day,angel.." Sadie said,wiping her tears as she let go of the hug. "A-alright,Darling. Please stay safe,and don't hurt yourself on the way home.." y/n tried to say,but Sadie was already gone.
What..what had she done?
Time skip
Sadie stood over the peaceful sleeping boys bed and stared at him for a moment,brown hair a mess and arms layed in bizarre positions,disgusting she thought,staring at him. His window was open,Sadie standing directly behind it,the moons milky glow illuminating herself.
Blade in hand.
She had begun to hold the knife over her head,but to her avail,she stepped on a mask,laying on his floor. It was designed to look like foxy,one of the animatronics from Fredbears. It made a loud cracking noise that sounded immensely loud in the quiet house.
His beautiful eyelids fluttered open fast.
"S-Sadie?" He said,looking at the knife in her hand. "Sadie how did you get in here?" Michael asked,holding the wrist her blade was in as so she couldn't strike,determination in Sadies green eyes,almost glowing.
There were tears in her eyes.
"I cant do it anymore Michael. Please,I cant go on without her..."
She said,crying loudly this time. "You don't have to do this Sadie,we can act like this never happened and we can move on with our lives,please don't kill me.." Michael smiled weakly.
Sadie dropped her knife on the floor with a clang of metal and ran to hug him,wrapping her arms around Michael,touching his hair. "I-goodbye,Michael. I'll leave now.." Sadie said,releasing from the warm embrace and opening up the window. "I'll see you soon,but,don't count on it.." she said,smiling. Before Michael could say anything,Sadie had hopped out the window and disappeared without a trace
Other than the blade she had left on the floor,and a cracked mask.