Part 42: Chance X And X Risk

"What?!!!" Grenno shouted on the top of his lungs, made us cover our ears as best as we can to keep our eardrums from being destroyed. I didn't know he can shout so loud like that. "Do you really have that arm?"

Every time he asked me questions, he leaned closer to me until I can see the sparkle in his eyes like a kid that saw a cool toy car, while I leaned backward to keep my distance away from him. We're still inside Dorias but unlike before, only us and few other people are in here.

"Y-Yes. It's been with me since I was a kid." I answered as my cold sweat dropped towards the ground from my face. I think I'll keep answering his questions until he satisfied. It'll be a pain if he will get upset.

"I see." He muttered as he rested his chin in his fingers, "But why did you come to me?"

"My master told me that you're an expert in these kinds of things, and maybe you can help me in finding out about my arm," I answered, still sweating. His questions are getting smarter than before. But unlike before, he didn't seem to rage and already calm down. I thought he's a scary one but he's actually kinda nice.

"Is it Java?" He asked directly, which I nodded immediately. "Tsk. She couldn't shut her mouth at all. I've told her to not tell anyone about me."

When I heard him saying that, I took my words earlier back. He's actually rude to anyone. I think he's only kind to me since I have this arm.

"Well anyway, it's true. I want to research about your arm for more." He said, went back to his serious mode after saying bad things about my master. "But are you sure? You'll be stuck with me for a while."

I thought I can answer 'it's fine' to that question, but I suddenly remembered something and I turned around to see my friends behind me. If I'll come with Grenno, then I'll be leaving. I'll be leaving Gon, Killua, who was still sleeping, and Bisky here in the game.

"I... I don't know..." That's all that I can answer to him as I lowered my head since I don't know what I should do. I want to know about my arm, but I don't want to leave them. And besides, I'm still in the process of improving my technique. I just can't leave with unfinished training.

This is a great chance for me, but a great risk too.

"It's fine, Secco." I raised my head to see Bisky beside me, standing up smiling. I'm not sure but I felt something warm between those, "You can come with him. That's your top priority, right?"

"B-But..." I was about to say something, but I couldn't be able to get it out. I'm still stuttering, not sure what words I will release.

"Don't worry. Leave these two boys to me." She said as she winked at me.

"Bisky..."

Since we met Bisky, she was always teaching and taking care of us. Even though her training are so hard for an ordinary human like me, she's still an amazing teacher. I'm glad we met her, and I'm sure it's not just me who thought like that, but also Gon and Killua.

Grenno stood up from his seat, which made all of us turned around to see him.

"If you already made your decision, meet me at the port tomorrow noon, and then, we'll leave the game." He said and started walking away with his huge backpack and his oversized clothes.

As we watched him leaving the city, all of a sudden, someone grabbed me by my arm. It didn't give me a great force, but it's sudden enough to make me jump from my position.

"Are you gonna leave again, Secco?" I saw Gon's face beside me, his golden eyes are pleading and his eyebrows are apart with each other. He lowered his head to hide his face from me.

"I'm sorry, Gon." I also lowered my head, don't want him to see my guilty face. I tried to make him feel better by saying the positive side of my departure, "B-But I'll be back! Once I know about my arm, I'll go back here! Don't worry!~"

He showed a smile. It's still full of sadness, but there's still acceptance. He tried to be mature in this kind of situation, which made me feel happy for him. He had grown strong, and one day, I'll be like him.

"We'll be waiting for you." He said, which made me smile widely.

"Alright, kids!" We heard Bisky from afar, with her hands in her waist, as Killua was lying behind her, still unconscious, "Let's have a farewell party tonight! Since Secco is leaving, we can't just give her a cheap goodbye."

"Okay!" Gon shouted while his hand raised in the air, formed into a fist, while I just smiled warmly.

After that short encounter with Grenno, we left Dorias and continued our hunt for restricted slot cards until the sun sets.

When the night came, we came back to our training ground to celebrate my departure and we couldn't believe that Bisky already prepared some food for us at a great speed. Come to think of it, I still have no idea what her special technique is. All I know is that she's a Transmuter, since she was always changing her Aura into numbers.

"Hey, Secco." I heard Bisky calling out for me, as I was just eating my meal. She gave me hand gestures that showed me to come to her. I raised my eyebrow, confused about what she was going to say or do to me. She's always mischievous like Killua, so I couldn't be able to find out what she was thinking.

I stood up and walked towards her. I sat beside her and continued to eat my meal. She leaned over to me and whispered something on my ear.

"Since this is your last time being with us, why don't you say your true feelings to Killua?"

At first, I was just trying to absorb her sentence until when I found out what she meant, I can feel my cheeks started to get red and my heart started to beat faster.

What is she talking about?! I really don't know what to say or do because of what she said. She already knew I have feelings for Killua, but why now?

"I-I'm not doing that!" I shouted in front of her, not trying to be loud. Then, I stood up and left the party, trying to cool myself up.

I didn't go far, but the distance is enough for me to pretend that they're not there. I took a deep breath from the top of my lungs, and exhale from the cold wind of the night.

I took a seat from the dirty ground below me. I raised my head and stared at the full moon shining brightly below me. The stars surrounding it just twinkle gracefully that it didn't hurt my eyes at all.

Tomorrow, I'll be leaving them and I don't know if I can go back for a while. This is my last time in this game, and I wanted to do something worthwhile.

But confessing to Killua isn't the right thing to do. He's not the only one I'll be missing in this game, and besides, I just like him as a person, and not anything romantic. So why would she think like that?

Then, all of a sudden, an idea went into my head, and I started imagining me saying my true feelings to Killua, like those romance dramas I always see on the television when I was a kid. At the same time, my heart started to beat faster again and my cheeks started to get a little hotter.

I tried to shook my head to remove the idea out of my mind. When I'm satisfied, I sighed deeply, couldn't believe my thoughts. Remember, you just like him as a person, not romantically!

"So you're leaving, huh?" I heard a familiar voice coming from behind. When I heard it, I jumped from my seat like it was a ghost whispering in my ear.

"Why are you always jumping? You're like a kangaroo."

I turned around to see Killua, with both of his hands inside his pockets, like he was grabbing something out of it. I saw him giving me an annoyed face, which couldn't help since I treated him like a monster and jumped out of nowhere.

"S-Sorry.~" I said, trying to release a fake smile, as my cold sweat dropped in my cheeks.

Even though I'm faking it, he just let it go and stared at the moon above us, like I once did earlier.

But right now, I didn't do it, and instead, just stared at him. In his eyes. At his beautiful cobalt blue eyes. In there, I can see multiple stars reflected in the sky while getting lost in the cloud of the color blue.

Even though we have the same color of eyes, I couldn't help but get mesmerized by his. Every time I see it, I couldn't help but be stuck with it, and I really don't mind it at all.

"I'm not really worried." He started to speak after that short silence between us. I went back to reality from his eyes and decided to listen to him. I knew he wouldn't mind me leaving. Even though we're already friends, he's still cruel to me. That's Killua for you.

But when he turned around to see me with his shining eyes, he gave me one of his warmest smiles I've ever seen of him. I couldn't help but stare at him for so long, as my heart started to beat faster than ever before.

"Because I knew you'll come back."

When I heard those words, my heart exploded like a volcano, and I can feel my cheeks started to get red because of what he said. Knowing that he's actually proud and will be waiting for me makes me happy. Other than that, his smile along with his eyes made it a lot better. He's like an angel of the night.

And I have to admit that... I'm not just liking him at all... I've already...

...fallen for him.

'Why don't you say your true feelings to Killua?'

I gulped and started walking towards him, closer enough so no one can hear anything except for me and him. I just saw him raising his eyebrow out of confusion, while I just lowered my head to hide my red cheeks.

"K-Killchi, no, Killua Zoldyck," I called for his name to get his full attention. He didn't answer and just stood straight towards me, knowing that I was about to say something serious. "I... I have something to say to you."

My heart started to beat faster than before, as I was just preparing the words I'll say in my mind. It's really embarrassing for me to say it since I don't know what will be his reaction or answer.

"I-I..." I stuttered in my words, not sure if I'm gonna say it or not. And even right now, I'm still fighting for the decision to confess to him. I'm not really sure what to do. I'm scared to know his answer. I'm scared to know what will happen to our relationship after this. Will we still be friends?

Even though I like him, I just wanted to stay friends with him. I don't want to ruin everything just because I couldn't help but confess to him. It will destroy our friendship and I'm sure, I'll get in the way of Gon and his adventures. We have our separate ways, and I don't want his way to be interrupted just because I said my feelings.

I want to say it, but I don't want to ruin everything.

Until I thought of something. I'll just say it naturally like it was the most common thing to say to someone. Like it was just nothing but a wholesome confession and not something to have a big deal about.

I took a deep breath and raised my head to see his eyes. I smiled warmly, trying to hide my red cheeks out of embarrassment.

"I like you!" I said along with my smile. I saw his cheeks started to get red because of what I said. I turned around behind my back to keep him from seeing my tomato face, but I also tried to act naturally, "Since the day we met, I'm interested in you, and when we became friends, I'm so happy. Until the day I realized, I like you, Killua Zoldyck."

It's a long silence for both of us until he finally stopped being a statue and started to speak.

"W-W-What are you saying, Secco?!!! I-It's really embarrassing!!" He yelled at me with his red cheeks, still couldn't help I said those words.

I can also feel mine heated up because of what I said. I couldn't believe I said those words at him.

"I-It does?"

"O-Of course it does, you idiot!! Don't say that again!" He shouted again at me with his cute angry face. But then, he realized that he might hurt my feelings, so he turned around to hide his face from me. "I-I mean... it's not like you can't say that anymore but... d-don't say that for a while! You're making me embarrassed."

I just stared at him as he tried to hide his face from me. I didn't expect that to end like this, which is kinda funny to me.

I laughed at our situation right now. I thought it's gonna be the end of our friendship or something. But thank goodness, it ended up like this and not something so serious.

"What's the matter?" He asked me with his annoyed face, but his cheeks are still red as before.

"N-Nothing!" I said to excuse myself, tried to fake a smile as I sweated in my cheeks. At least, my embarrassment already disappeared, and now, I can completely talk to him in a natural way.

"Then, let's go back." He said, still with the same expression, and started to walk towards Gon and Bisky.

"Wait a second!" I called for him as I grabbed his arms from the back which made him surprised. It couldn't help. I didn't normally grab him from his arm before so this might be an unusual set up for him.

"W-What?" He said, stuttering in his words, as he stared at me with his shiny eyes.

Actually, there's been a thing that I've always wanted to do to him. Since he always does that to me, I kinda wanna try doing that to him and see what will his reaction be.

I raised my hand in the air and reached for his head. As I'm doing this, I formed my fingers and finally poke him into his hard spot, his forehead. He was always doing that to me and maybe I can do something the same to him as a remembrance.

He covered his forehead with his hand and started massaging it to keep the pain away.

"Ow! What did you do that for?!" He asked me while he is still covering his forehead with his hand.

I didn't say anything yet and just smiled in front of him, showing that I'm glad I poked his forehead. As I did that, I can see his cheeks started to get red even more.

"That's my way to say goodbye to you."