So many times I wish I could leave

So many times, I pushed myself. I said to myself repeatedly, this was a dream. This is just an illusion. Everything would be ok. But is it really. No, it's not. Every dream I've had, over 1000 of these, have all been a perfect evil, a perfect mess, a perfect innocence. Behind the beauty lies the hatred and jealousy. I was shaking, taken aback by all of this. At first I chose not to believe it but at the bright lights began to fade and darkness shrouded the heaven, with fire igniting simultaneously wherever you looked and the nature slowly dissipating and disapearing, it all came together. It all clicked.

This hell is never ending, spiralling out of control. Opening my eyes slowly, lifting my body off the soft ground, the first thing I see is bright white light. Once my vision began to focus properly to my surroundings, I could finally see what was around me. It was my wish. It was what I wanted but what I didn't know was it was all a skin to cover up the evil behind the paradise.

I am back where I first began. In heaven.

But this isn't the heaven I experienced when I first arrived here. This is anything but it. Yes, there's a big green field around me, with soft as pillow grass and bright blue skies. But what I can actually do now is see through it all.

What happened in my dreams came true. The darkness slowly took over the clear blue skies as fire began to swallow the ground in no efforts whatsoever. I didn't have any magic nor any special skills to help me loft off the ground but it didn't matter. Everything burned under my feet yet I did not feel anything. apart from my heart tightening.

I soon realised that everything happening around me, all the bushy green trees burned to ashes, all the grass as black as the dark night, had a direct effect on my. Not my outside, not my inside but my soul. I could feel it in my soul, the deep sadness and hatred fueling the fires around me, where fueled by me and therefore affecting me.

Sweat beads ran down my forehead as I was squinting in pain as the hell developed. I couldn't take it any longer. My clothes were completely soaked and my hair was dripping with sweat as my knees completly gave in and crashed to the now hard as rock ground.

Soon, it all became blurry and once again I was thrown back into oblivion.

Not that it was any worse than what I was experiencing now.

I never wanted to wake up again.

Never.

...

A few time periods later...

Crash!

Bang!

Clang!

My ears were banging as the sound of clanging metals penetrated my ear drums. With great effort I opened my eyes and he was in front of me.

I don't know why but I felt so relieved.

I felt like I had been asleep for a millennium because my body was unresponsive momentarily. But as soon as I came back to my senses, I threw myself at him. I had no idea why but it felt so right.

Why was he here? What was he doing here? I never cared about all of that malarchy, all I cared about is that be was here to save me, right?

I balled my eyes out, completely breaking down in front of him and hugging him as tightly as humanely possible. He hugged me back.

Finally I felt safe, I felt out of trouble.

For once I felt like I had a chance of escaping again, even after running away from him.

a/n: so it's been quite a long time since I've written a chapter but I'm currently on a flight to my parents native country. are you guys going anywhere this summer? by the way, all this heaven and hell theory is completly fictional and is only a story line so I hope you enjoy my book and continue to read it. constructive criticism is appreciated along with any questions you'd like to ask. love you guys xx see you later