start of the flame

I'm an Indian girl with a religious family background. right now I'm just a teenager with dreams and hopes in my eyes a pride of my family on my back. like every teen I wished for a perfect life too but as the clock striked I got to know even perfect life also hides deep and dark chapters in it I am the eldest among all my 1st cousins, I had no one to talk to about my feelings..my happiness and any special moments with until I found out that some of my cousins are my neighbors too and because we use to have a religious event in every 3-5 months I met alot of my other cousins my age too! I was glad that finally I'll have someone by my side. being an Indian girl was hard. but dealing with these people was the hardest,

growing up I felt more mature than the girls my age maybe because I've seen more than they could ever see..family politics, heart breaks, silly fights that caused alot of damage not only to our relationships but also our hearts

even though I was mature enough to handle all this, my stupid heart could handle a small crush... he was not my school mate nor my online friends, he was my COUSIN. I use to play with him and he was the only guy I was comfortable being such an idiot with he never broke our energy if I started laughing he would continue it till our tummy hurts and we sound like laughing witch 😂 I didn't get a chance to know when this guy became my huge crush and also my first one

(he was chubby, sweet, toooo romantic, flirty and funny ) and the worse part is he's also my neighbor ..so every Saturday we had our games fixed sometimes we use to play badminton with my 1 female cousin, 6 male cousins and my brother (1- alam, 2- ali, 3 -rif *aka my crush, 4 -omaz, 5 -sabain, 6 -sino 7 -musmi *mybrother) mostly because of our male cousins me and my female cousin (zinl) had to play cricket mostly everytime..as time passed by we also developed interest in cricket yet we couldn't score more than 12 points. our friendship was getting stronger each day until one day he came up to me with a piece of paper in his hand, which made my life took the hugest turn without any warning.