Desperation

Estella was texting Amy desperately;

'I need to talk with you...'

'AMY...'

'Answer your phone pleaseee..'

'It's really important..'

'Amy!!!'

While she kept trying to reach her Best friend she started getting more anguish. Remembering the reason she was feeling so down and sad.

She had opened her dark brown eyes, seeing the same white boring room,she had saw the night before. The noise of the monitor, that was marking my pulse, was still beeping. Her eyes looked around the hospital room, seeing that this boring place had actually a TV. She reached out and got the controller and turned it on.

Her attention was drawn away from watching FRIENDS to the door, when it began to open. The doctor Mrs. Fernandez, had walked through the door.

"Buenas tardes." the doctor greeted me in Spanish.

"Hey.." She said.

"Well, I was going through the test I ran on you yesterday after you came. And well I'm sorry to say, but you had a miscarriage...It was caused by stress, If I'm not mistaking. You seem pretty stressed out."

Her brain had stoped for a second, she couldn't speak, she had actually stopped listening to the doctor once she said miscarriage. 'It's not possible. I can't have kids..'She thought to herself.

"Don't cry, these type of cases are normal." The doctor said. That's when she took notice of the tears rolling down her cheeks.

"But How?... I was told I couldn't have kids..." Estella said confused.

"Well If you want I can run some tests about that... I mean, I'm not the one who diagnosed you with infertile. Maybe I can treat you.. Have you been drinking pills or anything?" She asked.

"I have been drinking theses pills."The hospitalized girl said,while looking through her hand bag."This one?...I was told it could work.. but I haven't drunk them in a very long time.."

"How long?" She asked while reading about the pill.

"4 months, since July." Estella took a second before responding.

"Ok... Well if you want I can run some tests.." Mrs.Fernandez nicely said.

She nodded. The doctor was about to leave when she was stopped by a question her patcient asked. " Wait...How long was I?" Estella manage to say but it came out like a whisper.

"5 weeks." She said. "And you will be able to leave tomorrow afternoon."

"Okay.." She looked at the TV, and started to get lot in her thoughts.

Estella waited while she tried to call Amy again. It had taken Estella days to think if she wanted to speak with Amy about something like this. 5 days to be exact. Now that Estella feels like talking her friend doesn't answer.. She decided to text her again.

'It's important, look I really need to talk with you.'

Estella through her phone down on to the couch. She gripped her hair while the tears slide down her cheeks.

'La la la di lalala di.' Her ring tone,she quickly grabbed her phone and answered.

"AMY!..I...I'm having.. I don't even know where to start." Estella stuttered while sobbing.

"Estella? Are you crying?" A deep and not girly voice was heard from the other line.

"Greyson?... What the hell are you doing with Amy's phone.?" She asked.

"Um.. I was in the kitchen and well I read the text and you seem like you needed to talk..."He said. "Plus if I'd call you from my phone you would've not answer.."

"Just pass me with Camila.." She said and tried not to sob. Especially now that she knows she's speaking to the father of her dead baby. "please.."Her voice cracked.

"She's not home..You can talk with me.." He said worried

"I don't want to."

"Well what the hell happened to 'I wanna end with us being friends' Friends talk to each other. You know." Greyson said.

"It's different... it's a girl problem.."

"What about your period?"He asked. "You know I don't get uncomfortable with that."

"Stop Greyson..It's much more.. I don't- I can't talk with you about this."Estalla said. "Soo please stop..." She added, tears kept falling down her cheeks.

"Okay.. How are you doing?" He asked knowing that was a dumb question.

"I've been better... you?"

"Happy, I'm talking with you." He said.

"That's good..Well if Amy isn't there I'm going to hang up."Estalla couldn't stand to keep hearing his voice, knowing the damage she will cause him with this news.

"Wait... How's work?" He asked.

"My boss hates me..Because She says I have an attitude."

"Oh... Your boss doesn't know how to work with you.." Greyson chuckled.

Long pause.

"Fine I'll let you go.. Bye.. I love you.." He said.

"Bye....." She said and hung up.

After doing so she once again let the tears eat her face. Hearing his voice made her more guilty of not knowing she was pregnant in the first place. After a few hours had passed her Best friend had finally called her back.

"What?"Amy asked, she was shocked with the news Estella was telling her.

"Yeah..and you have no idea how bad I'm feeling...." Estella cried.

"Okay listen, stop crying. And breath."

"Oh yeah!! That's easy for you!! You could get pregnant when ever you want!..." Estella yelled.

"Sorry,I know... But you have to stop, I know it's a recent thing. But you have to move on. and you're telling me that you're getting new results next week. So maybe it ain't bad." Amy tried to calm her down. "I don't know how to act with some news like this... I'm sorry..." She apologized.

"I know... But.. I can't even express myself.." She began to say. "I left him, Because of my condition and then one night I get pregnant?... I had no symptoms of pregnancy... but then out of nowhere I have a miscarriage?" She sobbed. " I lost my only child!" She shouted. "I lost Greyson's first baby... He will hate me soooo much." She cried. "He will tell me I should had stayed with him and never left and that miscarriage would had never happened...."Estella kept shouting into the phone. "I feel terrible... No wonder I am infertile.... Because I would have been an horrible mother!" She blamed herself.

"Estella..I'll talk with Greyson.."Amy suggested.

"NOOOO...Please don't... I don't want him to hate me." Estella begged.

"Okay..But you have to tell him... the sooner the better. Plus you'll feel much better after talking with him. Cause you probably feel the same way you been feeling by just talking with me... I guess I'm no used to these kind of stuff." Amy told Her.

"yeah I understand. I'll try to call him and tell him..."

"good.Listen to me,when I say you'll feel better. He'll get your feelings, it's his kid after all."

"okay..."

"So how are you feeling down there?" Amy asked nervously.

"Now?I'm feeling good.. I mean three nights ago it would sting.... It was annoying." Estella explained while wiping her tears away.

"Oh...I'm sorry you had to go through that... I hope that doesn't happen to me.." Amy said.

"could we change the subject?...I don't wanna talk about babies... It's too soon." Estella suggested.

"Sorry,Um work? Is your boss still pressuring you?" Amy asked changing the subject.

"I hate her. I seriously can't work with him."

"Really?..Maybe he's being hard on you because he likes you..." Camila said.

"Oh,hell no.... Impossible... Plus I don't stand him... If I could choose to replace someone from my life it would be David." She said."For real if you ever meet him you would understand what I'm talking about."

"I bet he is a real pain in the ass..." Amy said.

"You have no idea... I'm actually glad my doctor gave me a week off work to calm down. My work is driving me crazy.. I actually didn't think it would be so hard working in a farm." She told Amy

"Well I knew it was going to be hard.... Considering you would complain about some stuff during your years of studying agriculture." Amy laughed.

"I didn't complain..."

"yes you did... You would complain about economics, you would be like Why the hell do we have economics for? What am I going to talk about the subject with the cows!?Oh my gosh..." Amy told her.

They were both laughing at so many things,they were remembering about their childhood.

By now Estella had forgotten about the baby situation. Amy was feeling complete again, considering she's been missing her bestie very much.