Messed up!

I'm pretending to be okay again and keep having thought that people will get annoyed to be friend with weirdo like me. Sometimes I feel like asking them but yeah it seem like I don't have any courage. Also he act like nothing happened at last. I guess he'll be the last person I gave my trust. No one anymore after this. This shelter will save me. Hahaha I messed up many times whenever it comes to friendship matter.

" Did I do something wrong? "

I'm here laughing like an idiot while crying inside ,I'm loud person yet actually quiet about what I feel and only think about what my friends think about me. I'm scared everyone get tired and hate someone like me. Yeah I had some bad temper problem but I'm trying to deal it. But who know? Ahh maybe I just really need to shut myself.