This is not what I wanted

Jimin's POV

I drove over to noona's restaurant. I asked her which way she went. I thanked her and went to find her.

She was nowhere to be seen. I stood by a park.

"She must be here." I went in and searched her.

Luckily, I found her. But she was not alone. She was with Hwan and jinyoung. Anger rose in me, seeing them.

I immediately went over and pulled jinyoung by his shirt.

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Y/n's POV

I walked over to a park. I sat down and thought what to think about.

I was totally confused.

Did I make the right choices?

"Mind if we join?" I heard a voice. I looked up and saw jinyoung and Hwan.

"Sure." I said and scooted.

"What are you thinking, so much about?" Hwan asked.

"Nothing."

"Y/n, I know it's a bit early to accept our apology. Maybe you should take sometime. Take your time, Think and then decide." Jinyoung said.

"No. No. It's going great. This bonding is really great. There's nothing to talk about."

We chatted for sometime and had fun. I forgot the reason why I was sad.

"I love sky blue colour. It's so peaceful seeing it." Hwan said.

"I like grass green. It goes well with the surrounding. And it looks fresh." I said.

"I like tree brown. It's dark sometimes and light sometimes." Jinyoung said.

Like this we were talking random things.

Suddenly, out of nowhere, Jimin came and pulled jinyoung by his shirt.

"What are you doing with her?" There was a lot of anger in his voice.

I got up, freed jinyoung from Jimin.

"What are you doing Jimin?"

He left him and looked at me.

"You didn't know what happened. I'll see you guys later." I said to them and they left.

"I know everything. Mia told me. Y/n, are you out of your mind? How do you even accept their apology?"

"Jimin, they apologised sincerely. They said the truth. They themselves accepted it was their fault. How does it matter?"

"Y/n, the same person hurt you."

"I understand. But think from my point of view also. They deserve to get a chance. They can prove themselves wrong."

I was controlling my anger and thinking before I could say anything that hurt him or me.

"Y/n, I'm trying to protect you. It's not best being with bad influence. Y/n, I'm not saying you don't need to be friends with anyone. You can. But not them."

"How can you decide my life? I get to choose who I wanna stay with and who I don't. It doesn't matter if he or she is bad or good. I don't care about it."

"Y/n, your misunderstanding me. That's not what I mean."

"No Jimin. You're the one who misunderstood me. How can you say I shouldn't be with him? Just before you came, they planned on going out. Not me alone. All of us. He called all of us. I'm giving them a chance to change."

I said angry.

"Y/n, it's all a game. They're just brainwashing you. How can you trust them?"

"Like I trust you. I trust you so much that you wouldn't do this. That you would let me live my life."

"This is different that is different. We've known each other for a long time. You've known them for only a few months or days. How can you decide?"

He raised his voice.

"It's my life Jimin. Do you not understand? Who are you to say what I should do? Yes, you're my childhood friend, but doesn't mean you come in between everything. I just...."

I paused and realised what I just said. This is why I thought everything and said. But my anger took over me.

"Who am I? Ok. I won't interfere in your life anymore. Nor do you. As soon as someone came, I became someone right? Thanks y/n. Thanks for everything." He said angry.

"You didn't become someone. It's just, I want my personal space. We're not kids anymore. We're grown up and we do need a personal space. This thing is like a mess."

"This thing is really making a fuss between us."

"Let it. Cause we really need to talk it out. I think we really need a break from each other's company."

"Y/n, really?! You think this is gonna solve the problem?"

"No Jimin. It may or may not. But I need sometime. Sometime to think about our friendship. Sometime to free myself from all the work. Sometime for you to think and relax yourself, concentrate on your work."

As I said a tear flowed.

"No y/n. This is not you. This is not the y/n I knew. If that's what you want, fine. I won't interfere you. I won't trouble you anymore. I'm basically a third person to you." He said angry and left.

I just stood there. I felt like my legs were attached to the ground. I couldn't move more.

I fucked up again. I just messed up everything. I messed up his life, my life, everyone's.

I just need sometime for myself. After everything's clear, I'll have to talk out everything.

But he might not be ready to hear me out.

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Jimin's POV

I was shocked to hear y/n speak like this. She was a different y/n.

I left her there and sat inside the car. Tears flowed.

"Y/n, what happened to you? What's wrong with you?"

I drove off to the dorm fast. I felt like dying.

I reached the dorm and sat in the car and thought how I spoke to her also.

I went in and closed the door harsh. I washed my face and sat on the bed.

*knock knock

"Jimin?" Mia came.

"What is it?" I asked sad.

"Did you talk with y/n? How did it go?"

"We are on a break from friendship."

"What? What happened?" She asked.

I just said her that y/n and I got into a fight and she said she wanted some time. Not about I met jinyoung and Hwan.

"Jimin, I'm sure she'll want to talk to you again. She must've said it in anger."

"No Mia. She said it from her heart. I know. Let her have her time. I'm someone to her now. So it doesn't matter. Let her talk if she wants. I've got nothing." I said and left.

I went to the terrace.

I'm sure y/n will come back. But when? Why did this even happen?

"Jimin." Someone called me.

"Aerum? What are you doing here?"

"Just came up and saw you. So, everything's fine? You look kinda dull." She said and stood next to me.

"Yeah. Everything's fine." I said and faked a smile.

"Jimin, I want to tell you something."

"Go ahead."

"Actually...." I turned and she suddenly kissed me. I was confused. She moved back and said,

"Jimin, I actually liked you so much from high school. But I didn't have the gut to tell you."

What just happened? This is so much.

"Aerum, I'm sorry. But I haven't had any feeling like that. I like y/n and it's only her." I said and walked away.

I went to my room, sat on the bed and thought what happened.

Why did I say I like y/n? After everything, do I even think she'll like me now? Will she love me?

I shouldn't have said that.

*knock knock

Aerum came in.

"Jimin, I'm sorry. I didn't....." before she finished I got up and kissed her.

I broke the kiss and said,

"I'm sorry. I was thinking of something else, and said no. But I like you too."

"Really?!" She asked. I nodded and we kissed again.

I'm sorry y/n. This shouldn't happen but I don't have a choice. I don't think we'll be seeing each other again.

I'm just some stranger to you.

We went out and I took everyone's attention.

"Guys, this is my girlfriend, Aerum." I said.

"Wow! You really look cute together. But I thought you'd be with y/n." Jin hyung said.

"Can we please not talk about y/n now? And I'm gonna make it official. I'm doing a Vlive later. And all of you should come." I said and went back.

"JIMIN!!" Mia and Taehyung barged inside.

"What do you think you're doing? Why did you take this decision?" Mia asked.

"Mia, it's none of your business. Just leave it."

"We'll talk to her. We'll convince her."

"No thanks. Let her be how she wants. She didn't want me, so there's no use of going behind. Now, I and Aerum are together, which all matters." I said.

They left without saying anything.

I know I didn't take the right decision, but I don't have a choice. Now y/n's just someone unknown.

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Y/n's POV

I sat back on the bench and thought how it's gonna go now.

After sometime, I got a call from Mia.

"Hello." I said.

"Y/N, WHERE THE HECK ARE YOU? YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED???" She shouted over the phone.

"What happened?" I asked worried.

"Jimin came furious to the dorm and suddenly said that he likes Aerum." As I heard her more tears flowed.

"I don't care. Let him be with whoever he wants to be with. He gave me privacy, so I also should do the same thing." I was hurt. I lost his friendship also now.

"Y/n, are you out of your mind??!! Y/n, you didn't want this to happen and now you just give up??"

"It's of no use now. Anyways, I'm kinda resigning my job. And I'll be shifting to my brother's place. Thanks for everything and tell the boys to do their best for their upcoming albums. I wish you all the best." I said and cut the call before I could get an answer.

Tears flowed continuously. I made the worst decision ever.

I lost Jimin. I lost him. The thing I've been scared of came true. I lost the friendship between us. And now he's with Aerum. I can't change anything.

I walked somewhere.

Where will I stay tonight? I can't trouble oppa also. I need another job too.

I first need to find a place to take rest.

I walked and saw a restaurant. I went in and asked the counter guy,

"Excuse me. Is there a room I can stay for tonight?"

"Sure ma'am." He said and handed me a key. I took and went.

I went to my room and sat down. Tears flowed continuously.

I have to cheer myself up. I have to be strong. I can do it. I don't need anyone. I can. But I miss him. I can't be without Jimin.

"Ughhhhhhhh!!!!!!" I shouted and threw the pillow.

I just need to relax.

I lay down but I couldn't sleep.

I cried more and more. Why is my life so miserable? Why can't be normal and happy like others?

Thinking and crying, I soon fell asleep.

To be continued.....