Myself

"Maria come down soon and have your breakfast, you're getting late for college" my mom yelled from downstairs. "Coming mom" I yelled and got ready and went down to have breakfast and I greeted my parents and had breakfast and went to college. As I reached the college again as always no one talked to me but I couldn't care less , I went to my class and after college I went home, after getting dressed I went to the park near my home with my painting accessories and painted the river which was beautiful today with the orange light along with the sun set

And went home. After having dinner I went to my room, after getting fresh I went to my study table, after studying for some time I closed my book and took my diary and wrote how my day went today. After that I lay on my bed and looked outside the window.

Yes, this is me Maria a lonely girl and this is my daily routine. But I was not born like this, I was once a very happy girl with cute family, a only one friend with a lovely boyfriend.

But no it all changed because one day my boyfriend no ex-boyfriend asked me to meet him at our college ground. As I reached there , there he was with my friend Ara . But what is said that is what which changed me into this name tag "cold attitude girl". He said that he never loved me but to get closer to my friend he acted like he loved me. And my friend whom I trusted more than myself said that she had a crush on my boyfriend and confessed him and that's how they are now a couple and me some third person. After that incident I couldn't trust anyone apart from my parents and my diary. And I slowly distanced myself from everyone for which I got the name tag " cold attitude girl" but no one not even single person asked me why I changed. So that's why I don't care if they talk with me or not. After that break up my ex-boyfriend and my ex-friend didn't even apologized to me. But they were living a happy life as if they didn't broke a person's heart who trusted them more.

Every night I would think what have I done that my original parents left me alone and died , why the two people whom I trusted most betrayed me. But other than my parents ,the only thing which I trust more is my diary with whom I share everything. By thinking this I slept.

Next day

As usual I woke up and had my breakfast and went to college and came home. But today I had to go to store to buy new diary since my old one got over and within 2 days it's new year. I got dressed and went to buy diary but all the stores were closed after walking and walking I reached a store which looked very old. I went in but all the lights were off . I searched for the owner but none were there. While roaming inside I saw a paper in which it was written"TAKE YOUR PRODUCT AND PUT THE MONEY IN THE BOX NEAR COUNTER" as it said I searched for the diary while searching I saw a book which attracted me more. It was a brown cover with blue gem on it. It was very beautiful

After taking it I paid for the book and went home.

THAT night I felt different. While walking back home I saw the sky it was beautiful that night with many twinkling stars and a beautiful round moon,by looking that I reached home and wrote my diary and lay on my bed . It was peaceful and with the peace I slept that night.

Next day I woke up but this was different I felt very happy today. Seeing me full happy my parents were also happy.

That day I went to college with a smile. Everyone saw me and they were shocked because after a long time they saw me smile. Even the professor was surprised seeing me smile. That day after the college while going home I saw two figures being happy. Yes, of course it's my ex-boyfriend and ex-friend. But I didn't feel the pain which I used to feel before once I saw them. I was confident on myself more now. After they saw me I smiled at them seeing me smile they were shocked . That day I went home and I got dressed and went to the park again to paint but today the park was beautiful with children playing and laughing together, then couple around, parents recording their children's play. I don't know how but today this park looked more beautiful, I smiled to myself seeing children's and started painting that

After that I came home and had dinner and went to my room and wrote my diary and slept very peacefully that night.

After that day it was usual, I was very happy because I got my old self back.

Tomorrow is new year. I'm going to start this new year with the new me .

To be continued.......