Chapter 122- Diary of Memories 2.

Raina's POV.

I was breathing hard at this moment, my memories were unraveled everytime I read the diary, even the drawings made me remember a lot I had forgotten about my life.

It was like a Pandora box, but this time it wasn't about any deep secret, it was about my memories, as I opened the next page, the memories came flowing harder each time, clearer each time, much more vivid with each page I read.

And my memories made me realise myself more, I got to know myself better by reading this diary, I knew about my childhood, about my family, the family I had found hard to recognise immediately I came here, I could recognise them easily now, they felt more familiar with each memory unlocked.

I sniffled when I opened the next page, I didn't even realise I was crying till I heard myself sniffling, it made me scared, maybe I lost my memories for a reason, maybe I shouldn't have revisited them, but I knew that I needed to remember them, my parents told me that the sage his my powers and sent me to the human world, but he never said things about losing memories, I must have made them go away, I no realised how much this defense mechanism I had was strong, it was very obvious that I locked away a bad memory I had when I was five.

I sniffled again while reading the next page; "diary today, I'm so mad, I don't why but I'm upset at my parents, my brother said I should understand them, but I can't, today is my fifth birthday and I needed it celebrated at school, but I can't go out because they insist that a blood witch wants to get us, I need to leave this house, I'm tired of being locked in, it's making me upset." The memory came surging in, I remember being so upset, I remember being more mad that they forgot my birthday because they were so occupied with hiding me from the witch, I remember how I cried myself to sleep after writing that down.

I flipped to the next page immediately; "diary today, was exhausting, but at least it felt futile, my father apologized for forgetting my birthday, mother hasn't, she's mad at me for reasons I don't understand, I should be the one mad at her, I don't know why she's having the satisfaction, but I need to go out of here, this house is really stuffy." The memory surged in, I was so happy with my dad Apologizing, but mad at my mother for not doing that, I remember refusing her food, and sleeping hungry. I cleaned my face wondering why I was such a little brat, my rebellion didn't come when I was a teenager like it normally did to others, I shook my head as I opened the next page.

"Dear diary, today I am very happy, I read lots of books that are for grownups, and I know how to sneak our of here, father and mother didn't teach us the magical use of our abilities I found there, if I see the witch she will get a taste of what I learnt, father and mother already told me that I was a very powerful druid, so I wouldn't be scared of going out, I just need to explore, my drawings are coming to life more, and exploring would help it better." The memory of me sneaking in my father's study and reading the books he locked away, which I unlocked with the keys I climbed the ladder to get, I read about five of them, I remember planning to escape the next day and come back.

I shook my head as I flipped the next page, I was really giving my parents headache; "diary today, I did it, I felt so alive, I explored the river, I'm so happy, I can't even imagine how excited I am, it made me realise I missed so much, I was nervous at first, but my nervousness died down later and I explored, I will sneak out later, I think big brother knows I snuck out though, he is not saying anything, but I can feel his judging eyes on me." The memory came in, how I was happy the day I went out, and how my brother kept looking at me suspiciously that day, though he didn't say anything,but it was obvious he knew that I went out.

I flipped the next page immediately, it was drawing I drew the day after, I remember my mother complimenting me and me ignoring her, when I drew it on the drawing paper, I remember drawing some of in my diary.

I flipped the next page; "diary today I explored again, it was fun, I wish my brother was here, I know that he knows that I'm sneaking out, but he doesn't want to join me, I guess he is more scared of the witch than I thought, I want to show him that book I found so he could learn, but I'm scared he would tell mom and dad and they would make it harder to escape." The memory surged in too quickly, I remember how my brother looked at me when I came back, he was silently judging me with his eyes, I wanted to make him join me, but I stopped myself and decided to do the exploring alone.

I flipped open the next page; " dear diary today I went out again, I was a little scared and guilty, I felt something following me and watching me, but I was so shocked to find the blood witch, and I saw her kill that child today, she was around my age, I couldn't even help the girl, it made me so scared and guilty, I ran back home immediately, I was almost caught today, my parents are feeling something, they asked brother but he said I was home, I'm happy he covered for me, though he came to the room and scolded me when they left." The memory surged in, I remember seeing the blood witch and other witches around her carrying the girl and killing her in the altar I discovered, I remember now engrossed I was in my drawing that day, I remember feeling weird and stopping the drawing and when I hid away, I saw a druid girl they took and killed right in front of me, they didn't see me, but I saw them, it made me so scared I was shaking, I remember crying when my brother scolded me, that he must have felt something was up, he stayed with menm comforting till I slept off, I remember being so scared for a week because the memory of the the witches killing the girl kept coming back.

I flipped open the next page, it felt like it was just two writings left in the diary, I stilled as I read the next one; "diary today I decided that I won't be scared of the blood witches, I would fight them, especially their master, my father once said the person controlling the circle is the wicked one itself, so I went into daddy's study and read those druid power books." The memory surged in, how I was so determined that day after weeks of being scared, how I read a lot, and how I was prepared to go out to the exact place I saw them, I sighed as the memory came, I was really so stubborn that I willfully decided to walk into trouble.

I blinked hard as I opened the next page, I realized that was the last time I wrote there; "diary today, I'm feeling too many things, I defeated the witches though I didn't get the head witch, but I made those who got me to her pay for touching me, the head witch was surprised to see my power, I was proud of myself, I even hurt her a little, but I ran away when I saw the witches come out more, and when the head witch tried to touch me, I hurt her really bad, she was screaming when I left her, I was so scared because I had her tell them to get me, so I kept running till I reached home, Dad and mom exploded in anger when they found out where I've been and what I've been up to the past months, they were so mad at me, they got so mad at brother, they blamed him for not telling them, mother said she'll send him somewhere, and send me to the human world and that they were going to hide for a while, till the witch stops searching, she told me that the witch wanted my power now, I was so scared, when father angrily told me how I will be without powers, they called a sage and he has sent brother somewhere, I cried and my brother cried too, the sage took me to his place, he is going to do a spell to seal my powers, and also hide me till I was safe, today is the last day I would write here, I hope this book is safe." 

The memory of that day surged in, I shook as I remembered everything, I suddenly felt strange and powerful, I closed my eyes as I suddenly felt weak.