Brief history with him

7 years old was when I first saw mine potato, unknowingly I had crush on him since then. I knew I had crush on him when in my last year of Elementary school. One thing that I knew was that he also liked me at that time, the way he looked at me dressed in pink dress with long black curly hair; he was looking perfect as well. I refused to myself I liked him when I had the chance but I did have the little date with him not knowing it was like a date that was the first time I had a real hug with him. He asked for a hug, does that mean he liked me as well right? I never have hear him say " I like you" if he had said those three words and we weren't that young when we had that first hug we would have been together. Sadly we are not, I am the girl who is afraid to make bad choices, that's why I listened to my sisters.

I stayed me jealousy when he hang around with other girls but didn't show that I was jealous, how I didn't like him fooling around with other girls. I had the chance to stop liking him when he dated one of the girl I knew but I still kept liking him. Him dating other girls mean he doesn't like me right? My friends told me all the things that they have saw what he did, and one day I finally saw him with her; hugging her. I couldn't see that, thank goodness I was in the school bus; I just turned around so I didn't had to see that. After few weeks they broke up, I heard that she was not who he thought she was so he didn't like her anymore. I was glad because she was like a two faced person.

Mine potato had stopped looking at me like he used to, when he looked at me he would smile when I look back at him. I should have stopped liking him when I had the chance just as when I had the chance to admit that I liked him; after their break up he started looking at me like that again. On our trip to Seattle for conference, a girl shyly talked to him, which made my mood off so I went outside to calm myself and he came out with that girl and looked at me. When that girl went her way to take pictures with her team he tried to take pictures of me and my group standing and talking but because I was jealous I think I didn't want him taking my pictures so I hide in side of my sister. Because I was really mad I slept in the van and his mood was off, was it because I was not focused in him when he offered the girl in our van for food? My thoughts goes all over when he acts differently.

Many things have happened but I never have told him how I feel, I call him potato because I like potato and also it easy to say I love you. In my language we call potato "allu", I still have crush in him and we are senior in high school and yes I still haven't told him that I like him with my own voice. I am sure that he knows I like him. His parents likes me, they are really good to me and friends of my family. Should I keeping liking him?