Chapter １３

Nina's POV

After Andy left, My mother who came back from vacation began to shout my name from downstairs.

After I heard her calling my name a few times, I took a piece of cloth to cover my legs. After my mother entered the room, she pounced on me happily and hugged and kissed me. Later, she found that my face was a little pale.

My mother held my hand and asked me worried, "Oh, my dear baby daughter, what's wrong with you? Why do you look so bad? Did someone hurt? Tell me and I will show them who we are."

I told my mother with red eyes, "It's just that I haven't had a good rest recently, and I'm a little uncomfortable. It's nothing serious. You don't have to worry mom, I'll just have a short rest."

Mom and Dad can find out whether I am doing well at any time. My mother said to me gently, "I will take you to the hospital to see if it is serious to rest at home. You are my only baby daughter. I don't want you to feel so uncomfortable."

"No, Mom, I'm really fine. I will definitely get better tomorrow. If it's not good at that time, you can take me to the hospital, Okay?" I assured her, holding her hand.

After I repeatedly refused, my mother gave up this idea, and then my mother told me that she brought me back a lot of gifts. My mother took out a beautiful shell necklace from her suitcase and came to help me put it on. Then, she was very happy and took out a mermaid doll.

When she saw my face was not very good, "Baby, don't you like it? " She asked.

My mother looked at me with a frown. Instead of answering my mother's words, I asked a thing I always wanted to know.

"Why did you choose to divorce my father in the first place? " I asked.

My mother came to me and sat down. "Why did you suddenly ask this question? However, it's good to tell you that some things have happened to me recently. I'll tell you the details later." She said, looking at me.

I asked my mother a little urgently, "Can I know why? Is it because you don't love each other?"

"This problem can't be explained in a few words. I thought that when I first met your father, I fell in love with him completely." When my mother spoke, she looked forward to a beautiful love like an eighteen-year-old girl, and her face was filled with a happy smile.

"Then why didn't you go to happiness later?" I pushed her.

"Because there is a factor in love at first sight and moving towards a happy world that we have not considered, That is the so-called reality. Originally, I also thought I would go to the end with your dad. But in the end, reality defeated us. Love is not as beautiful and simple as fairy tales. It is unpredictable and uncontrollable. You can't let it change according to your own ideas. You can't make everything develop as you want. Moreover, not every love will have a happy ending. Just like your father and I, you must know that you can't force love. You should calm down and think about what to do. " She said seriously.

After saying that, my mother patted my hand and left the room. We always see beautiful love in the fairy tale world, and imagine that it will be the same in real life, which is simple and enviable. However, when life gives us a blow, we look back. Reality is cruel after all. It will not easily give us the so-called love, but it will test and test a person's sincerity.

What is love after all? I asked myself. Am I too young to feel this? But they said age, sexuality, gender, and everything does not matter, as long as both parties equally love each other. Well, I guess we both don't love each other like that yet but I know what I feel is true and sincere.

But does that mean my love is deep? Does deep love sound like something from a fantasy? Or does it also show in reality? As far as I'm concerned, people also have different meanings of love. I want to experience one. Deep love. How I wish I would find it. I thought it was already Kevin, but it was not.

Deep love is silly. It’s about being so incredibly weird with another person that you both would never be that weird in front of anyone else. It’s slow dancing in the kitchen for absolutely no reason. It’s laughing so hard you lose your breath. It’s getting drunk in your own apartment together dressed in Christmas pajamas when it’s June. It’s strange, and it’s funny, and it’s something the both of you don’t even really understand, but would rather not be without. Because one thing you both understand is that your lives are better with each other in them.

It’s about someone having a relentless curiosity in discovering who you are, because every time you reveal a new part of yourself they fall harder and harder. It’s about them wanting to listen because they’d rather hear your voice talk about your passions, your dreams, hopes, and inner-most thoughts, than hear themselves talk about anything else.

It should be having meaningless arguments about things you don’t even know why you’re arguing about, and it’s laughing after they’re over, about how juvenile the both of you were acting, and how tiny little arguments like those have no meaning in comparison to what you mean to each other, because you mean the world to each other, and that meaning doesn’t just disappear when you both become frustrated, or tired. What you mean to each other sticks, it stays put, and when other things like life in general try to move it, it remains.

Deep love is attempting to understand the things another person’s mind thinks and your mind doesn’t, it’s being inspired by them. It’s wondering how you found someone whose differences complement yours. Because differences are normally things that tear people apart, but in deep love your differences bring you closer together. It’s like the things you both find unfamiliar about each other somehow mould together and form this beautiful little mess and that mess somehow fits perfectly between the cracks inside your heart you never knew how to fill.

Love fills those cracks without making you forget that they exist. Deep love allows you to remember the past and how hard it might’ve been, and then it allows you to feel grateful for what you have now. Deep love makes you feel lucky for finding it. Right now, I'm feeling lucky, yes, not because my love was not felt, but because I now know that he is not the right person for me.

I want a love like wanting to make someone better when I can’t even begin to guess what’s wrong. It’s just knowing that something is off, that this person who I would give the world to, who often tries to fool me into thinking that everything’s okay, it’s knowing when it’s not. It’s the sixth sense I feel when they won’t tell me that they need me, but I am there for them anyway.

I want someone who cares and someone who I treasure and care so much. Caring so much for someone that I want to help them sometimes more than I want to help myself, sometimes it’s loving them more than I love myself. Because for me loving them is easy, and they’ll love me easily in return, but self-love is something that might take them a little longer to master. Because the kind of love I show them won’t always reflect back at me, it’s not reflexive. But when they do forget how to love themselves just as much as I do, I will be there to remind them that they are indeed lovable, that deep love is more than just something they deserve, it’s something I know they are capable of receiving.

A love so deep that it felt like healing. Like seeing someone at their most vulnerable, often lowest point, and reaching out your hand to help them get back up. Because deep love is selfless. It’s realizing there’s someone out there that you don’t think twice about caring for. Caring for them is as involuntary as breathing.

Deep love is often unexplainable. You can’t explain why it happens, or how, and you can’t instruct others how to find it, but when you do find it, you’ll be able to decipher deep love from all the rest.

We never fall with the intention of falling out. We never fall with the intention of leaving with a broken heart, but we know deep down it’s a possibility. Because when we are falling, our brains only focus on the good. They like to compartmentalize and highlight the happy moments, the giddy laughs, the late night talks, and the warm cuddles that make you melt.

But our brains can also blur reality from the truth. When we begin to fall for someone, our judgment too begins to weaken. We lower our guard, we begin to forgive quicker, and we overlook what may have been warning signs all along. We want to believe this person we love was created by design for us. We want to believe they are perfect. We want to believe they are our forever.

As time passes, maybe by choice or maybe by devastating heartbreak, you two part. A person you once imagined your whole world with. A person who knows your fears, your patterns, your favorite appetizer, and your preferred Sunday morning television show, suddenly separated from you. How cruel is that? At least for me, I immediately knew that he was not for me. He even called me a monster. I mean, would someone who loves you wholeheartedly call you a monster or some sort? I don't think so.

I will just think that I saved myself from the thing that I know that it will become a heartache. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice my phone.

On the other hand, Andy, who had just returned home, called me. Ask me how the result of the consideration, I think carefully, then carelessly said to him, "In this world, no one will like a mermaid, even if the mouth said they love me, when we are defeated by reality, when they are bored in the future, they will abandon me, then why should I take a risk? I'm tired of embellishing my life. I don't want to add bitter medicine to me. We are only suitable for being friends. Love is not suitable for us. Let's call it a day."

I refused Andy. Andy yelled at the other end of the phone." I will prove that I love you with my heart. We haven't tried it. How can you know it's inappropriate? You don't even give me a chance, why can't I if others can? " He insisted.

I didn't talk to him again, but hung up the phone. I was really tired. After taking a bath, I lay in bed, listened to songs to ease my mood, and then fell asleep. I had a dream.

In my dream, I dreamed of Grandma Lucia again. I saw her sitting with a grandfather whose appearance was a little vicissitudes. They talked and laughed and looked sweet. I hope I will also find a love like that.

Grandma Lucia and that grandfather sat on the Stone on the shore, and Grandma Lucia snuggled up to that grandfather. They were thinking about things when they were young.

In Greenland, There was a beautiful mermaid. That was Grandma Lucia. In the past, she experienced a failed love, Grandma Lucia originally planned to stop falling in love, Until Grandma Lucia's beloved one came to Greenland, His name is Evan, Grandma Lucia's childhood playmate. When Evan was a child, when he was traveling, he accidentally drowned. Fortunately, there is Grandma Lucia, Grandma Lucia was a lovely little girl at that time.

Only then they lost contact because they separated until they grew up.

When Evan went back for work, he was accidentally left by the team on Greenland. While in Greenland, he happened to meet Grandma Lucia who had just fallen out of love. Grandma Lucia forgot Evan, Until one day, Grandma Lucia found that Evan had the same scar as the man she saved when she was a child. It also grows on the shoulder of the man.

It happens to be a scar of ten centimeters, Because Evan was drowning when he was scratched by coral. Grandma Lucia remembered Evan, So they talked and after some things,

Their Feelings came back as good as when they were a child. Trapped in Greenland, Evan, every day, he does what Grandma Lucia said.

They can eat delicious food every day, they can also have fun, Evan knows that Grandma Lucia just fell out of love, So he plans to help Grandma Lucia get rid of her emotional injury.

He entertains Grandma Lucia every day, Chatting with her and she also taught Evan to swim.

Unconsciously, Evan found himself in love with Grandma Lucia. Then on Grandma Lucia's birthday, He confessed to her. However, Grandma Lucia did not agree. Evan didn't give up either. Instead, he continues to accompany Grandma Lucia.

One morning, Grandma Lucia found Evan missing. She started looking frantically for him, But in any case, Grandma Lucia just couldn't find Evan.

Grandma Lucia thought Evan had abandoned her like Lio, so she cried sadly. When she cried, Grandma Lucia suddenly recalled that every time she cried, Evan would accompany her and wipe her tears. Grandma Lucia discovered that she had fallen in love with Evan, so she would be so sad when he left her.

Actually, it's not the case. Evan was taken back by his family, Evan said he wanted to marry Grandma Lucia as his wife, but Evan's family disagreed, so Evan went back to Greenland with flowers and diamond rings despite his family's opposition.

Seeing the lost Grandma Lucia, Evan went to her, knelt down on one knee, and then he proposed to Grandma. This time Grandma Lucia agreed, and Evan happily held Grandma Lucia in his arms.