It was Shan who woke up first. It was early in the morning. Much earlier than he usually got up, but he still slept over eleven hours. He looked down at the position they were sleeping in. He was hugging Hyun really hard, his head on Hyun's chest. One hand was still holding Hyun's hand.
Shan was staring down at it. He was reluctant to let go, but his bladder refused to be the one giving up. And going to the toilet, still holding Hyun's hand, was out of the question.
He let go of one finger and took a deep breath. Now the coldness and emptiness felt amplified, especially when he was staring at it. One by one Shan lifted up his fingers and took a deep breath every time. He was calming himself down with a feeling that he could grab Hyun's hand anytime if he wanted. And that helped a lot. After a few seconds that felt like millenniums, Shan's hand was free and he was running to the toilet.