Danger of ssg

For the past few days, Hyun found a new life. He went to the bar, sometimes he hooked up with someone, and sometimes he would drink his full and then pass out after coming back home. 

Sometimes, he drank because he had a guilty conscience. After having sex with some random person, of course with protection, three faces flashed inside his mind. 

Seonho, because Hyun felt guilty that he wasn't a better boyfriend to him. His brother's face, because their faces were really similar, and he was going around and fucking random dudes, knowing if something happen it would put him in trouble. And then… the last face belonged to HNYG.

Over and over again, Hyun told himself that he should keep his feelings simply on a fan level. But he couldn't. He was getting attached to that person, having loud notifications and not sleeping for HNYG's streams. He would watch every match and every post his team posted. It was becoming an unhealthy parasocial relationship, and Hyun knew it. But he just couldn't help himself. 

He downed another glass of soju. Today he was sitting in a normal outside stall eating chicken and having a drink. The second bottle already and he could feel that if he stood up now, he would meet the sidewalk with face.

"Are you Seonhwa?" a girl came to him and asked. Hyun lowered the register of his voice, and raised the cap a bit so she could see his black hair. Which now his brother had longer and pink. 

"I'm sorry, no I'm not. But I get a lot of questions like this," he answered, his tongue getting stuck now and then. She apologized for disturbing him and he just flashed her a smile and looked at the dark sky above him. He saw nothing but blackness. Maybe he should get somewhere outside of town to see some stars. Maybe he could visit his grandparents in the village.

Hyun was sitting there like that for a long time before sobering a little bit. He paid and went his way. But he felt too sober. His thoughts of guilt were actually resurfacing.

Last time he read that only fifty percent of people had no inner thoughts. And Hyunyeong was jealous of them. There was no inner voice telling them how useless they were debating their life choices or just simply debating what they would have for a meal in two months. They just had silence, and that was so sought for by Hyun. 

He stopped in the convenience store to buy some beer and more bottles of soju and decided he could get drunk easily at home. At least he wouldn't shame his brother's face.

He sat on the floor of the living room and turned on some music on YouTube. He especially loved piano pieces and songs from musicals or similar genres, groups like Forestella or La Poem that gave pop music a distinct feeling. Today, it just fed his feelings of sadness and sorrow. 

Hyun finished all he had bought and felt he couldn't even get up. He struggled to keep his eyes open and soon fell asleep. Right there on the floor, like a complete failure. 

And on top everything, he had weird dreams. Usually, he wasn't dreaming, but tonight he… he saw HNYG smiling at him, waving and giggling. When Hyun came close, HNYG placed his hands on Hyun's chest and started caressing his skin. It felt weird, as if there were multiple hands at once. He was still giggling, almost like a teenage girl.

"Hold on, you are too quick," he said when he felt HNYG's hands on his crotch.

"What the fuck are you doing?" Hyun jerked himself awake, scared he fucked up somehow, when he heard Lucy's voice. But he still felt a hand on him. On his chest, his shoulder, his face and, what was the worst, his crotch.

"What are you doing here you bitch!" Strange voice shouted and Hyun opened his eyes. There were four girls, his hand all over him, phones out.

He panicked, Hyun had no idea what to do. Was he just… just… He couldn't even think. He just rolled into a small ball and shook. 

"Hello, someone broke into my friend's home and groped him and sexually assaulted him." Lucy made the call he heard, said the address and everything, and he could hear a lock on the door.

"What do you think you are doing? What are you even doing here with our Seonghwa!" One shouted and attempted to get out. Lucy simply evaded her and called the security downstairs.

"I would calmly wait for the police to come. I don't think you are getting to see the light of day anytime soon. I will take care of it!" The three others just woke up from the shock and stopped touching Hyun and got up to aid their friend. 

"You can do nothing to us…!" Lucy simply raised her phone, showing she was recording them. 

"You broke into his house, sexually assaulted his brother, and you think you are getting out of it? I don't care about you. I care about him." She pointed at Hyun, who somehow finally woke up. His stomach was rolling around and he was shaking so badly. He felt so dirty. Those strange women were touching him in places without his consent. Hyun wasn't a misogynist, he just simply didn't like to be sexually touched by women. He wasn't attracted to them. At all.

"Brother?!" they shouted. Hyun finally breathed out a few times and stood up, getting in front of Lucy. He was afraid they would attack her. Because she was standing between them and the door.

"Yes, I'm his brother," he said, his voice still shaky. He didn't feel good. He wanted to take a shower. Long, long shower, with peeling. To peel some of his skin away.

There was the sound of a ringing bell, and with the camera, Hyun saw the security. It would be a long day. But Hyun was ready to defend himself. And his brother, because it was fortunate it was just him. If Seonghwa was home, Hyun couldn't even think what would happen.

Lucy opened the door and two tall guys who knew Hyun came in, looking really surprised to see those four girls. Hyun would definitely press charges. They were too dangerous…