Chapter 12

"Light is always looking for flaws, it is able to penetrate even the smallest hole. The light is so warm and soothing. As is the case with love that brings peace. If you find love but it doesn't bring you peace, maybe it's not love."

The message was almost sent to Dinda's number. But Doctor Firman quickly deleted it again. Something made him hesitate to send the message.

"No Firman, no! Dinda is now happy with her husband. Don't be a thorn in Dinda's happiness. Even if you still love him," said Doctor Firman to himself. In the past, religion was the barrier to his love with Dinda. Now it's marriage that makes it impossible for them to be together.

The smart object that was still in Doctor Firman's hand shook. Immediately he opened the incoming message.

"Doctor Firman, can the Doctor accompany me to lunch." Write a message from Dinda. Doctor Firman smiled reading the message.

"Where?" reply fast.

"I'll send the address"

No need to wait a long time for the address of a message containing the address of a cafe entered in the green application on Doctor Firman's cellphone. The man's smile grew wider, his heart pounding irregularly. He rushed to get ready.

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Fifteen minutes have passed, Doctor Firman still hasn't arrived. Dinda was getting tired of waiting.

"Ah, from then until now he hasn't changed. Always late," protested Dinda annoyed. Her eyes stared at the entrance of the cafe.

All eyes in the café were on a man who appeared from the door of the cafe. Praises of admiration escaped their lips as the man in the white shirt walked past them.

"Oh my God, Doctor Firman!" Dinda said amazed. She didn't blink for a moment as he stared at the man walking towards her desk.

"Really perfect!" said Dinda amazed.

Doctor Firman pulled the chair in front of Dinda. Immediately Dinda woke herself up. Before Doctor Firman caught him staring in awe.

"Sorry I came late, Just now the road was congested!" said Doctor Firman.

The soft scent of Doctor Firman's body filled Dinda's nostrils for a moment.

"Din!" Call Doctor Firman to break Dinda's daydream.

"Oh yeah, no problem!" Dinda replied quickly, grimacing at Doctor Firman. Occasionally she stole glances at Doctor Firman. The man with slanted eyes, white skin looks very charming.

"Why? Do you have any more problems?" asked Doctor Firman looking at Dinda.

"I ordered a drink first!" Dinda got up from the bench.

Doctor Firman let out a long breath. "Okay!" he replied.

"What do you want to drink?" asked Dinda who was still standing beside the chair.

"Just like you," replied Doctor Firman. Dinda nodded and left Doctor Firman.

A moment later Dinda returned with a tray of food and drinks for her and Doctor Firman.

"Okay, now tell me. What is it?" said Doctor Firman looking seriously at Dinda.

Dinda looked back at Doctor Firman, doubtful. "This is about the HIV disease that my husband suffers from." Dinda's voice sounded low.

"What if my husband asks to make love to me?"

Doctor Firman looked surprised. There was jealousy in his heart. But as a doctor he must be professional.

"Have you never done this before?" said Doctor Firman looking suspiciously. Dinda shook her head, with a worried face.

Doctor Firman took a deep breath before answering Dinda's question. "So you are still safe from the transmission of the virus," said Doctor Firman.

Dinda nodded. But his face still looks worried. "If i keep refusing to have contact with him, he will definitely suspect," complained Dinda.

"You can still have sex, as long as your husband is diligent in taking the medicine the doctor gives," explained Doctor Firman. "You can also use protection if you doubt that the virus will catch to you."

Dinda nodded her head, a sign of understanding. "Then what if I want to have children?"

"Can!" Doctor Fieman replied. "For people with HIV now they can have children. Without having to worry about contracting the virus, either the mother or the fetus later. Indeed, the process must be different from normal people. Usually the patient will do a series of examinations first. The doctor will ask to do a CLUSTER test DIFFERENTIATION 4 (CD4) to control white blood cells on a regular basis. After the patient is declared healthy if the CD4 is more than 350." Doctor Firman explained it in detail.

"Then?" exclaimed Dinda curiously.

"Not only that which must be considered. Body weight, the presence of co-infections such as sexually transmitted diseases, hepatitis, and other infections must also be checked. When the condition has improved, during the fertile period the patient can have sex without having to use a condom. It is possible to transmit HIV through sperm or vaginal fluids, but the chances are very small.

"Can't this disease be transmitted through sperm?"

"It's not Din, he just sticks to the outside of his sperm. So it's safe," explained Doctor Firman.

Dinda nodded her head, a sign of understanding. But her face still looks worried.

"Do you think I should do it with my husband?" Dinda looked doubtfully at Doctor Firman.

Doctor Firman returned Dinda's fixed gaze. Like not willing if Dinda did it with her husband.

"Do not do it! I love you!" answered Doctor Firman.

"What?" Dinda's eyes opened wide. Her face was shocked. "you …"

"Ha ha …!" Doctor Firman laughed in satisfaction. "I'm just kidding Dinda!" said Doctor Firman after Dinda turned annoyed.

"Sorry Dinda, I really love you!" said Doctor Firman in the heart .

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Dinda came home late. The restaurant where he worked was busy. She was forced to be in the restaurant until the evening.

Dinda lay down on the bed. Her bones felt so sore after a long day at work. The sound of the bedroom door opening distracted Dinda's gaze. Agus walked quickly with a sad face. Dinda got up from the bed.

"Dinda, I'm sorry!" Agus hugged Dinda. His shoulders shook, holding back tears.

"Honey, what are you doing?" Dinda was surprised. Her face was confused.

"I'm sorry Dinda. Forgive me!" Agus wept bitterly.

Agus released Dinda's arms. His face was downcast with puffy eyes. "Leave me, Din! Marry Doctor Firman," said Agus.

"What are you saying, honey?" Dinda lifted Agus' face to look at him. "I will not leave you, Agus!" said Dinda.

"Din, I'm sorry, I don't deserve you!"

"I don't care, honey. We will go through all this together. So don't say that again," said Dinda holding back tears.

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To be continued ...