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Dear Diary,

I feel scared and disappointed with my life. It seems as if each step I take to improve myself leads to me falling into a dark void. Since I made the red necklace it felt as if it loved me but at what cost? Perhaps it is the curse that is upon me. My mind feels tired after each shift and I lack motivation to study. I feel if I don't enjoy the things I once did in the past either. I just feel really worn-out. Work demands so much energy and I feel as if fire is in my chest. Today one of my ex-lovers came to my work and I had to serve them as if I didn't know them. I felt so mentally distracted because my glucose was elevated. I desire to relax and have the glucose normalize. I also wish my imagination would become a reality, all my good Karma would cash out, and that true Love would come for me soon.