No One Said Love Was Easy

Word Count: 1602

Pairings: Lucifer Morningstar x Reader

Warnings: angst, possible trigger, mentions of abuse

A/N: Request from  Feel free to drop me a request, and enjoy the story!

Summary: You wanted to move on, to get over him, he would never love you back. So you found someone else. But the man you were with gave you nothing but heartbreak and bruises, and you still loved the devil you could never have.

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You downed your shot as you sat in between Maze and Lucifer. You hadn't seen them in a while and you had missed them. Your boyfriend didn't like you spending very much time at Lux and so slowly, over time you went to see your friends less and less. You never argued about it because it was just the excuse you were looking for to further your attempts at getting over Lucifer.

You watched him laugh at something Maze had said and you smiled staring down at your glass. You had to remind yourself that Lucifer would never feel the same way about you. That you were wasting your time, waiting for someone that would never want you back. You tried to convince yourself the man you were with was the one you wanted to be with, but an uneasy feeling settled in your stomach. Maybe you shouldn't even be here right now.

"Where are you going?" Maze asked as you stood up.

You smiled as you slipped your jacket on, putting your phone in your pocket.

"I've got to get home, Sebastian doesn't like me being out to late."

You didn't miss the disgusted look Lucifer had, and your smile fell.

"What?"

He looked up at you, sighing slightly.

"It's just well... that boyfriend of yours isn't exactly a very good catch if I'm being blunt."

Your eyes narrowed, and you crossed your arms.

"Yeah? Well I like him, so I'd rather you didn't be blunt." You said coldly.

Maze's eyes drifted between you and Lucifer, sensing the impending argument.

"I don't see how. He's a bigger douche than Daniel is, honestly love I thought you had better taste than that." Lucifer scoffed.

You laughed in disbelief and turned around, storming out of Lux. Lucifer watched you, looking confused as to why you were so angry.

"What's got her in a fit?"

Maze raised an eyebrow.

"You're joking right?"

Lucifer looked at her expectantly and she shook her head.

"You're not joking, you seriously have no idea why you hate the guy so much?"

Lucifer shrugged.

"He's a little too much like a brother of mine, and we both know how much of a Seraphiel is." Lucifer said dryly.

Maze simply smirked and brought her drink to her lips.

"Really? I thought it was because he had a pretty close resemblance to you."

Lucifer looked mortified and offended by that.

~

You kicked your shoes off by the door as you finally arrived at your apartment.

"Where the hell have you been?"

You glanced up at your boyfriend for a second before looking back down at your jacket.

"I was at Lux. I haven't seen Maze and Lucifer in a while." You hung your jacket up.

Sebastian glared at you, crossing his arms.

"Lucifer? That insane club owner? I thought I told you, I didn't want you around him anymore."

You rolled your eyes and walked past him, going to the kitchen.

"Yeah well he's my friend, I'm allowed to hang out with whoever I want Sebastian." You mumbled.

You hissed in pain whenever he suddenly grabbed your wrist in a bone crushing hold.

"Not him! Excuse me for not wanting my girlfriend around the guy she's so in love with."

You glared at him, trying to pull your wrist free.

"You don't own me, you dick. You're not going to dictate my life." You snapped.

You suddenly found yourself staring at the wall. It took you a minute to process what happened, and for a moment you didn't feel the sting of your cheek. Your loving boyfriend, had just back handed you. The sole reason you were still standing was because of the painful grip he had on your wrist.

"Yes I do." He spat.

He let go of your wrist, shoving you back as he walked past you and towards the bedroom. For a moment you stood there, trying to sort through the various emotions you were feeling. You were so disoriented that you hadn't noticed your phone ringing, not until the person called back. Your hands shook as you answered it, not bothering to check the caller ID.

"Hello?"

Why did your voice sound raw? Where you crying?

"Y/N! Hello darling!"

You forced a smile and stepped out onto the balcony so Sebastian couldn't hear.

"Hey Lucifer."

You wiped away a tear and cleared your throat.

"Are you crying love? Did that reptile you call a boyfriend upset you?"

At that moment you wanted to tell Lucifer everything, wanted him there to protect you. You knew he would come in a heartbeat, but instead you lied.

"No, I'm just tired is all. I'm actually about to go to bed, so I'll call you tomorrow ok?"

Lucifer was quiet for a moment and you held your breath, praying he didn't hear the lie in your voice.

"Are you sure you're alright?" He sounded worried.

"Yeah, really I'm just tired. I'll see you later Luci."

You hung up, leaning back against the sliding glass door as you stared at the street below. You took a moment to collect yourself before going back inside. You didn't bother changing your clothes as you crawled into bed. You stared at Sebastian a moment, before laying down and staring at the ceiling. You lay there, unable to sleep, for what fell like hours. The longer you laid there the more your blood boiled. You raised your hand staring at the skin on your wrist as clear signs of a bruise began to show.

The voice in the back of your mind seemed just as angry as you were.

"No." You muttered.

You stood from the bed, and began shoving anything of yours you could into a several suitcases. You were as quiet as possible, and moved around the room without making a sound. Once you had gathered whatever you could, you headed for the door, giving Sebastian one last venomous look before leaving as quickly as you could. You threw your cases in the trunk of his car and slammed it close. You speed down street after street until you arrived at your destination.

Lux.

~

As you walked down the stairs you silently hoped that Lucifer was not there tonight. That he was out in a case with Chloe, you couldn't face him yet, you felt ashamed, like it was all your fault. Your heart dropped when you saw that Lucifer was here, and so was Ella, Chloe, Linda, and Maze. You were tempted to turn around and leave, but when Ella spotted you waving you over, you realized you had missed your chance.

"Y/N! I'm so happy that you made it!" Ella smiled pulling you into a hug.

You smiled as you pulled your sleeve down over the growing bruise on your wrist. You pushed aside any thoughts you had of telling them and you drank. You drank until your anger was replaced by laughter. You drank until the sting on your cheek, and the ache in your wrist disappeared. After a while of drinking you began to feel unsteady on your feet so you sat down in the booth beside Lucifer.

"I'm surprised the reptile let you come out tonight. He's seems a tad controlling."

You only shrugged, watching Ella almost trip over her own feet.

"Oh I left him."

Lucifer head turned to look at you so fast you were surprised his neck didn't break.

"What?"

You nodded and downed another shot.

"Yep, he hit me, so I packed my bags and took his car." You giggled.

You couldn't stop the words from tumbling out of your mouth, but you were too drunk to care. Lucifer grabbed your hand when he noticed you pull your sleeve down again. He was careful as he rolled your shirt sleeve up. He stared at the bruise on your wrist for a moment before grabbing your chin. He turned your head to the side, where the thin layer of make up you had applied was failing to cover the bruise that was getting darker on your cheek.

"Time to crush the little pest." He hissed, eyes flashing red.

Your senses seemed to return a little and you grabbed his arm, pulling him back down to sit beside you.

"Lucifer don't."

"But he hurt you darling, he deserves to be punished."

Your hold on him tightened when he tried to stand again. You didn't see Maze standing behind the two of you, listening.

"Please Lucifer, just leave it."

Lucifer's eyes studied you, taken in your tired expression, the sorrow in your eyes. His expression softened, and he lifted you into his arms. He made up and excuse to the others about you being too drunk and carried you to the penthouse. Before he got in the elevator, he shared a look with Maze, who nodded.

~

You had fallen asleep a while ago, curled up against Lucifer as he sat beside you on the couch in the penthouse. He hadn't left your side ever since you had told him what happened. He looked over his shoulder as Maze walked in.

"How was our dear friend?"

Maze smirked as she grabbed a drink from the shelf.

"Crawling like the snake he is. He won't be walking anytime soon." She laughed.

Lucifer smiled, before turning his attention back to you. Maze watched him hold you protectively.

"You know, you'll have to tell her how you feel eventually."

Lucifer sighed.

"Yes, but not tonight, she has enough on her plate right now."

Maze nodded and turned to leave.

"Just so you know Lucifer, she feels the same."