you were good to me.

"Seungcheol, let's stop meeting eachother" and I looked at him and smiled.

"What?! What did you just say Eri?"

"Let's stop meeting, let's break up. I can't be with you anymore. Please respect my decision Seungcheol"

"Eri you need to tell me a reason, I know you can't do this." he looked like he would cry anytime if I said a single thing, I can't do this anymore, it's hurting me more than him.

"I am tired, I can't"

"I know you love me, you are lying. Look at me and tell me, you are tired, tired of me and I will leave you." He knows my weakness and I can never lie looking at his eyes, never. I never did this, never.

"Let's stop this, I am really tired of everything seungcheol."

"you were good to me Seungcheol" I said looking at his eyes and got up from my seat, I walked past him smiling, I wish he held my hand to stop me and would've hugged me but it's all useless now, we are not together anymore. I went out of the café and drove to Yoona's house.

It's hurting like hell, how could I hurt him like this? how could I? for whom I did this? why don't I have a choice? I had a choice? My choice? My love? One thing I know, either of this decision is going to hurt us both in the end. I can't do this. this hurts more than anything, all these years I always wanted to make him mine, and we could call eachother 'us' and never end. How could I hurt the person who gave all of him when I needed someone in my life.

I had no choice right now but to except the fact that I hurt him and he won't be mine again, there would be no 'us again' in my life. Because I choose it this way, I choose to end us where I could've fought together with him, but I decided to hurt him. I can never stop blaming myself, never ever.

With that I parked my car infront of Yoona's house. I knocked her door, she opened; she was surprised to see me in such a way, I hugged her tight; there's nothing more I need right now except a hug. She hugged me tight and patted my back, even before we could get inside her house, I broke down then and there, crying all my heart out. How could I just do this?

"Erica stop crying, I'm here, don't cry" she was trying her best to calm me down.

"Let's go inside" and pulled apart from the hurt.

We went inside, she gave me water but I was a crying mess. I hugged my knees sitting on the floor near her couch, tears started making their way out; I couldn't do anything. I looked a like a heartbroken mess.

"I-I broke up, with cheol" I managed to say in between my sobs, I could feel Yoona's shocked face she hugged me tight.

"It's going to be okay, soon Erica" she patted my back

"Never Yoona, it hurts because I love him so much, why am I a fool and a coward. Why am I the only one running away? I could've told him and we could've fought together. Yoona I hurt him, the thing I hated the most and I promised myself I would never do and I did it. I can never forgive myself for this and letting him alone there. I hate myself"

"Don't say like that. I am sure you thought before taking a decision"

"Mum… my mum threatened me, she would ruin his reputation and ruin him if I don't agree with her shit arranged marriage which is for business purpose."

"I wanted to shout at her that seungcheol is more capable of these things rather than her friend's family. If she needs help then I am ready to handle it myself too, you know how reputed is seungcheol, one rumor or scandal can ruin him Yoona, I-I can't let her do that cause she have power too. Our company is listed in top five companies and she have power to do lots of things. I am a coward, I just ran away from the problems and broke seungcheol, he was hurt Yoona, I saw it, I can see through him. He was hurt, because of me because of someone who promised that she will never break his heart and never leave him alone no matter what but look at the mess I made today, I broke everything in one go. I am the worst person Yoona, I don't deserve love, that's why my parents didn't bother much since past 15 years."

"Don't say like that, it's not true. You know it, I love you and will never leave you even if you push me away, okay? And don't think you are alone, I am here for you. Do what you want, think carefully because you shouldn't regret this."

"I am already regretting every single thing in my life, why did I decided to go out with my family? Why did I decide to go back home? Why couldn't I say no? why did I break his heart? He looked so hurt. I can't Yoona, I can't"

"I lost him, I lost him Yoona."

"You had dinner? Eat something and rest, you need it right now"

"I am okay, Yoona. Eat? I am not hungry at all. Rest? What's that?"

"Stop being like this, I already cooked for you.

[NEXT MORNING]

[5:00 am]

"I am leaving Yoona, I need to go. I need to pack my things and go to my house. Mum and dad will be waiting for me, she said I will have breakfast with them or else" I heaved a sigh

Yonna hugged me tight.

"I am glad at least you slept a bit now go and take care, if something happens just call me, I will be there. Okay? I will go and meet you up, if you can't come out. Understood?" Yoona smiled, I hugged her tight and left.

I drove straight to my apartment, as soon as I entered my apartment yesterday's memories started coming. How hurriedly I went out to meet seungcheol, how I prepared myself not to breakdown. And I finally did it.

"sometimes it's better to let go of your love, for the sake of your love" I heaved a sigh.

I went inside my room and freshen up, I let go of my thoughts with shower; warm water helped me to calm down my tensed muscles. After taking a good shower, I picked up my dress, I wore plain white top and a black skirt. I started packing few of my clothes, while taking out clothes from my closet, I noticed the couple outfits, it was the red dress, and black coat. I remember it was our first couple matching outfit which he chose, seungcheol have his red turtleneck and black coat. It's always me who buys or wants to buy but this time it was him who brought this and this holds so many memories, it was this year's valentine's day's outfit. I took it out and held it tightly, memories started coming back to me, when we went to click pictures on 14th February, I remember everyone calling us cute. I was so shy I used to snuggle into him whenever someone called us cute or complimented. There's the picture of us on my nightstand near my bed, I looked at it. Both of us looked so happy, it was the day, I again promised him not to leave him alone, never because he was the one who was there for me always. He always said 'I will never stop loving you because you are my love and how can I stop loving my love?' all these words meant so much for me and here I am hurting him. I packed my dress, carefully, I am not letting my memories go away, after packing my clothes, I went to my dressing table, I looked at the mirror, trying to smile because I have to smile everytime from now on. I took out the pendant from my drawer, all the pendants I always cherished. Two of them were gifted by seungcheol on my birthday and one on our 4th anniversary, he said it on our anniversary when he gave it to me 'if you wear this, it marks me as yours. This is our loveline' I wore it, without thinking twice, how could I not? This is the one holds the emotion of me. I kept other pendants inside my bag carefully.

I packed everything, took my bag, my car keys, my phone; I checked out everything if everything's packed well or not, I looked at the mirror for the last time before grabbing my black coat and smiled. I locked my apartment and drove to our house. Throughout the time, I was driving but my mind was stuck with seungcheol, his face, his hurt eyes, his apologetic eyes, his sad eyes which had tears threatening to fall anytime soon, it looked like my world flipped upside down the moment I left him there.