Chapter eight

The following morning, Senah and I took our baths in a small natural hot tub created from the waterfall. I then decided to ask her all the questions which were bothering me.

"Senny, do you like Brandon? I've studied the way you watch him and the way he also watches you. It's like everything he says is directed at you." I said calmly.

"I don't know, sis. Whenever I look into his eyes, I feel like I've known him for ages. It almost feels like I love him. Sis, I really don't know about how I feel towards him." Senny replied and duck her head under the water. I chuckled.

"Senny, you know I feel like I understand what mum did. We wouldn't have seen all of this if mum hadn't said what she felt. I just realized that I was also tired. Maybe I didn't realize it then because all I thought of back then was you and mum and how to survive. Not how to live." I told her.

"I agree that mum did help us in a way. But I'm still angry at her for leaving us. She's not the only one who lost people. A normal fifteen-year-old should be in school or should be having fun with her friends." Senah said with pain shown all over her face.

"But she didn't want us to be stuck there our whole lives. She loved us so much. I think I understand her now. She knew we loved her too so we wouldn't have left her. That is why she pretended to be cold to us to drive us away." I finished with tears welling up in my eyes.

I knew Senah also understood what I was saying. She had turned back against me and I knew she was crying. Later, we both just sat there in silence. We all had our thoughts. I was thinking about my mum for some time and before I knew it, I found myself thinking about Xavier. Something inside me assured me that Xavier was more than what he made people believe about himself. I had realized that Xavier was open to everyone except me and it made me worried.

As far as I remembered, I hadn't done anything to him.

Senah and I remained there for some time in silence. I missed those happy days with my mum and dad too.

Well, if there's one thing I've learned, it's that life's not always the same.