Little Girl Speaks

I've cut out my father and from what I can remember it was never a good reason to have him in my life. I have a better Dad that has been there since I was 3. But you know with surviving you always have those doubts or bouts of guilt, then I talk to someone who might be in more contact and it confirms that I made the right decision even though it hurts. I'm getting married in about a month, and it's bittersweet. Problem is that he never got help in the way he needed not even when he had a loving wife and children depending on him and he never is going to change for us. My heart just won't let go, because I still love him and want him to find peace if not here then the here after that I've decided to believe in not because of the trauma but despite it.