Aiden
I'm nervous about meeting Jack. I'm not sure what it's all about. He said he was leaving.
Maybe he wants to discuss our relationship. We are in a relationship, right? Or…
If everything is so easy and simple for Jack that he did not even tell me he was flying away, then maybe this is all we'll have?
Was I hoping for more?
I thought he was perfect.
Did I start to expect something from him?
Why would he be in relationship with a kid like me?
It is clear that I am neither the first nor the last one for Jack. I was just too absorbed in my feelings because it was all new to me. Did I really think that everything would be so sweet and simple?
...
Well, yeah… I actually did...
Maybe I didn't think it through... Maybe I didn't speak aloud about it, but I wanted to. I wanted to know that I had found someone I could rely on. A friend, a protector, a lover...
I can feel the pain building up inside.
I had a lot of “first time”things with Jack...