The beginning of my suffering

I saw that Ayuna was sitting sweetly on the edge of this bed and she smiled sweetly at me, making my eyes bulge and becoming curious about what she had done to me. I'm very sure if Ayuna must have taken something from me while I fell asleep in my sleep.

"Morning, my dearest sister .... let's take a shower first! You'll be late! Oh yeah .. today Jimmy will take me to school, he is very happy to know I will go to school with him starting today". Ayuna said while smoothing her hair in front of the mirror.

It felt like my breath stopped suddenly, after hearing what Ayuna had said to me just now.

I wanted to complain to papa, but we are not children anymore, and this problem is only a problem of children our age and this is only about me and Ayuna, but honestly inside, I really can't afford to continue like this.

Today is the beginning of Ayuna and starting school

he was able to steal Jimmy from me, then what about tomorrow or the day after ... what will happen next to me ?? I immediately got up from my sleep and ran into the bathroom because I was unable to imagine everything. I can only cry with the rushing sound of the water in my bathroom, my heart is broken and very broken.

Currently, the time has shown at 6 am, Myself is ready to go to school together with Ayuna. As usual Jimmy came to pick him up and I saw his face

Jimmy was surprised when he saw Ayuna standing right next to me and I could only surrender to wait for what would happen next, whether Ayuna or I would be picked up by Jimmy. I could only look at Jimmy with empty eyes and didn't know what to say.

This time I saw Jimmy didn't smile and didn't say anything, he could only see me standing like a statue with eyes swollen from crying this morning, then his eyes looked at Ayuna who was smiling at him, smiling at him, Ayuna is like the most beautiful princess in the world this.

"Eeh .. there is Jimmy, it has come ...." papa scolded him then Papa walked over to Jimmy, smiling after being close to Jimmy, Papa said to him ...

"Son, Jimmy, from now on, let me take them, because now there are already 2 girls living at my house, he he he he he he, so this is the responsibility of me, he he he he he...!"

Papa said to Jimmy, at least Papa's words made me feel calmer because my tears won't come anymore at this time.

"Jiim .. wait a minute !" Ayuna's voice suddenly made us all shocked. and also stopped Jimmy from leaving the two of us.

"Paaaa .... I made an appointment with Jimmy, he will take me to school, can he !?"

Ayuna whined to papa, in a spoiled fashion she begged Papa and asked Papa to agree to her request. Hearing and seeing all this, my heart hurts so much and it also feels hard to breathe and I can't endure all of this anymore,

I saw Jimmy's face, which was like a fool, stood staring at us, not knowing what was going on.

"You can't !! Today is the start of going to school so papa must take you !!" By saying firmly Papa stopped Ayuna's whining. and also made herself speechless as well as myself and Jimmy.

"OK, sir, I'll say goodbye to school first, ok?"

Jimmy just said to papa Then left me and also Ayuna, now all that's left is ignorance that shows on our faces as an introduction to Jimmy.

"Papa ....! How is this papa !! I've called Jimmy so that he picks me up ....!" In an angry tone Ayuna said to papa after that Ayuna started her action she looked sulking to Papa and her eyes very cynical to me.

I was very surprised when I heard Ayuna's words, she said, that she called Jimmy! that means ... she knows Jimmy's phone number! Oh, God....! where did he get that number .... ?? I asked myself and I kept thinking how Ayuna could know Jimmy's phone number. I know very well that in my diary .. I never wrote anything about Jimmy, I just put it in my cellphone, I saved Jimmy's phone number ... Oh God ... !! Suddenly I remembered the thing that I had been carrying with me wherever I went and now I just realized what Ayuna's smile meant to me this morning, it turned out that Ayuna checked my cellphone this morning, that's why she could smile sweetly but cynically because she was harassing myself .

I really can't believe it turns out that Ayuna can do this to me, even though I still have a cord of blood to her, but she can treat me like this, Inside she really thinks of me as the biggest enemy in her life.

These tears finally fell again, these eyes felt I couldn't take it anymore, I don't know what I should do to face Ayuna like this. I really can't complain about Ayuna's behavior to Papa, if I tell all of this to Papa, then Papa will think that I am the one who is too mean to Ayuna.

Ayuna is laughing happily seeing myself crying at this time, She looks very happy above my suffering, if I could run I wanted to feel like I ran to Mama's place, because I wanted to also feel what it was like to live with Mama so I could be educated with Mama to be personal who is like Ayuna.

Even in the car leading to this school, Papa just kept talking and giving advice to Ayuna. I can only listen in silence because my tongue is currently burning in my hurt cries. Every now and then my eyes glanced at Ayuna who had prepared herself to become a superstar at school. I'm sure if he can definitely ... become an idol in school later,

because from top to bottom, Style Ayuna is really like a top artist.

Indeed, all this time, Ayuna has been educated by Mama to always look stylish and super luxurious, because Mom left dad, when Mama received a contract to become the actress she had always dreamed of.

Whereas Papa taught me to always realize that life must be filled with gratitude, Papa is only a permanent employee in a private company until now Papa always loves his job.

In fact, Papa and Mama still love each other, it is proven because until now they have not been married.

However, it was because of finances that finally divided my family so that they took their own decisions and lived out their own selfishness.

Their character both impacted me and Ayuna. Truly I never understood. although me and ayuna are twins but our character is 180 ° different. We were like enemies in blankets and we fought slowly.

I saw Ayuna casually playing her cellphone, she was engrossed in texting someone who was on her cellphone, but what made me feel strange, Ayuna's eyes occasionally glanced at me as if I was afraid if I peeked at all the messages she wrote that .

Honestly, I feel like screaming, but I feel my scream is just in vain. because I will be considered as an atmosphere destroyer by Papa, because Papa will see Ayuna as better than me.

I saw Papa's car has now entered the school area, the area where my suffering, will begin.

Before getting out of the car, Papa gave a message to Ayuna and myself so that we both could take care of ourselves. I can only be silent and lower my head to hear the message from Papa after finishing, I immediately got out of the car and walked into the school area with a slightly crushed feeling, totally different from Ayuna ...

She got out of the car with a flushed laugh that radiated beauty to every boy who saw her .. Likewise with Papa, looking proud to walk beside Ayuna, because every eye is currently looking at Ayuna.

Papa accompanied Ayuna, because Ayuna is a new kid at this school, for the first time she had to be escorted with Papa, perhaps as an introduction between the teacher and the student's guardian.

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