I wish I would have told you..

"It's nice to meet you y/n my name is Jung Hoseok but you can call me whatever you would like"

"what do your friends call you?"

"I don't have any.."

"yes you do."

"really?!.. who?"

"me!"

"you.. want to be my friend?"

"of course who wouldn't"

"well.. then you have to come up with a nickname"

"hmm.. how about.. Hobi?"

"yesss i love it"

-Time skip a few months after school *just got home*-

You go up to your room and pull out a notebook you have been working on something for Hobi.

*Writing*

Hey Hobi, you know it's crazy how we've known each other for a couple months. You have changed so much. I'm so proud of you. when we first met you were that insecure, depressed, anxious high schooler and know you have full confidence, stick up for not only others but for yourself as well, you became a brighter and bubbly person. I love being around you. you always make me feel better just by being with me. you out of everyone that I've met you were truly the only one that i could talk to. you made me feel safe. and for the first time in my life cared about. you are very special Jung Hoseok. I love you. I love you more than a friend.. I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry. please promise me something no matter what happens please stay positive look for the bright side in everything. please be the hope everyone looks for and finds. Thank you my Hobi. I wish I would have told you sooner but I'm happy how everything has turned out so far. oh and Hobi don't give up on your dancing dream. do what makes you happy not what everyone else wants you to do. :) I love you!

*text with hobi*

hobi- "hey do you want to go out with me to the store to pick up some things?"

y/n- "sure what time?"

hobi- "now I'm actually in Myeong-dong right now in our favorite coffee shop"

y/n- "oh haha ok i'll be there in a few minutes"

hobi- "ok see you soon"

you finally arrived and saw Hobi sitting in a window seat in your favorite cafe. all you had to do was cross the street. Hobi saw you and started waving you were waving at him not paying attention to the car speeding.

*Hobi's pov*

I was sitting on my chair anxiously waiting for y/n i looked out the window and there she was crossing the street i was so excited that i couldn't wait and i waved at her. she waved back with a beautiful smile. I suddenly felt like something wasn't right and that was when a speeding car hit y/n. my smile slowly turned into a sad and horrified expression I ran out into the street scooping y/n's body in my lap. tears started streaming down my cheeks.

"s-someone please call an ambulance please a-anyone"

"hey Hobi.. please don't.. i.. i don't want to be in a hospital. it's my time I'm sorry"

she slowly caressed my cheek and wiped my tears away.

"no y/n please don't say that.. you still have a life ahead of you. how am i supposed to make it in this world without you its so so cold y/n please hang in there ok its gonna be alright you're gonna be just fine ok?"

"Hobi.. you'll do just fine I made it this far only because of you. I would have taken my life along time ago"

"y/n.. y/n.."

"Hobi.. I'm sorry. i love you i love you i love you"

"I love you y/n i love you i love you sooo much"

she smiled weakly at me and then closed her eyes a tear dropped managed to escape. with everything left in her she gave me a limp hug. I hugged her back and kissed her head.

"goodbye my bestfriend I love you hopefully I'll see you soon"

"no y/n not yet please.."

I kissed her lips and she kissed back and smiled.

"Hobi.. look under my bed ok? read everything you promise right?"

"I promise my love"

her heartbeat slowly stopped and she was gone.

*time skip in y/n's room*

I walked into her room and saw all the polaroid pictures she took of us. my eyes started welling with tears again as i looked around the room and remembered each and every thing we did together. then i remembered what she had asked me to do. I looked under her bed and saw a notebook with Hobi written on it. I started reading it I got to the very last page and read it with tears pouring out.

"Hey Hobi, you know it's crazy how we've known each other for a couple months. You have changed so much. I'm so proud of you. when we first met you were that insecure, depressed, anxious high schooler and know you have full confidence, stick up for not only others but for yourself as well, you became a brighter and bubbly person. I love being around you. you always make me feel better just by being with me. you out of everyone that I've met you were truly the only one that i could talk to. you made me feel safe. and for the first time in my life cared about. you are very special Jung Hoseok. I love you. I love you more than a friend.. I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry. please promise me something no matter what happens please stay positive look for the bright side in everything. please be the hope everyone looks for and finds. Thank you my Hobi. I wish I would have told you sooner but I'm happy how everything has turned out so far. oh and Hobi don't give up on your dancing dream. do what makes you happy not what everyone else wants you to do. :) I love you!"

"I cant believe she wrote this man i miss her so much already. Y/n please tell me this is a nightmare and i will wake up soon. y/n i need you."

as soon as i said "i need you" i felt something gentle yet warm i was still alone in her room. but i knew it was her.

"y/n i know your here i'm happy you are i miss you. and i'm gonna do what you said. i actually got accept to be a trainee for Bighit i was gonna tell you in the cafe but well.. fate had some other ideas. im gonna work hard for you and make you proud okay? I love you so much y/n"

I felt a gentle touch on my lips and on my cheeks. the notebook that was next to me on the ground opened and then the words "i love you" were circled in red. i smiled looking at what she had done.

"I love you y/n I know you will always be with me. but when my time comes please explain everything to me when i find you because im not gonna lie but this was pretty cool. but y/n.. im gonna miss you you know that right? I wish I would have told you that i love you, you saved me, and im not complete without you. you probably already know that since your still with me. I'll talk to you later y/n have fun doing whatever youre doing up there.. p-please wait for me"

I started sobbing again. then i felt that familiar touch from when y/n wiped my tears when we were on the street.

From that day forward y/n never left hobi till the day that they would meet again..