Return of my first love

Jihoon's pov (in the twin's apartment)

I sat in my room looking at the ceiling wondering how I was going to handle the complications. Minji was a person who I just hung around to forget the pain of my first heartbreak. I never really intended to develop feelings for Minji and to be honest, I don't view being in a relationship with him. But I have this sense of comfort when I'm around him and I never want to leave it; but, TaeHyun was the one I truly loved.

He was my first in everything, he was also my first heartbreak. The day we had to end things between us because of his family moving to Thailand. It wasn't a forever goodbye because we would always go to visit but, it didn't feel the same. Hooking up with an old lover and then pretending nothing happened, not to mention at the time he had already found another boyfriend. I think that was the thing that led me to randomly hook up with people I didn't know, but when I found Minji he was the first and only source that could take away the pain I was feeling inside.

Now I'm stuck between two people.

Later that evening there was a sudden commotion downstairs, and BaekHyeon came knocking at my door. "There's someone here for you!" He rejoiced opening my door, "Who?" I asked, "Come see for yourself." He said shutting the door. I sighed dropping my phone on my bed and headed downstairs.

As I was walking down the stairs I saw a very familiar figure standing in the living room. Once I got down the stairs there I saw Taehyun standing there with BaekHyeon by his side. He smiled at me and waved, "Taehyun?" I said walking closer to them, "Did you miss me?" He asked, opening his arms. As soon as I realized I carried him into a hug and held onto him very tightly.

I wrapped my arms around Taehyun, feeling a rush of emotions flood over me. "I can't believe you're here," I whispered, my voice choked with emotion. Taehyun hugged me back, his presence a reassuring comfort.

BaekHyeon clapped his hands in excitement, "Surprise!" he exclaimed. "I couldn't keep this a secret any longer. Taehyun wanted to visit and I thought it'd be great to give you a surprise."

Taehyun pulled back slightly, his warm smile lighting up the room. "I've missed you so much," he said, looking directly into my eyes. "I had to come and see you, even if it's just for a little while."

I placed him back down and dragged him back to my room. "Please don't make any noise!" BaekHyeon exclaimed.

"Is this why you called me yesterday?" I asked as I closed the door behind me, "kind of." He replied, I hugged him from behind and smiled. "How long are you staying?" I asked, "Two weeks." He said. He turned around and looked at me smiling, "I can't believe it's been years since I saw you face to face" he wrapped his arms around my head. My heart skipped a beat but just looking at the smile he was wearing. "I miss us Jihoon," he said, "I've tried to move on but nothing seems to work, all I can think of is you." He stated some I felt guilty by hearing those words.

Even if I also did try to move on I slowly started losing feelings for him every minute I held Minji in my arms. I never thought of him when I was with Minji, even when I was not around Minji the only thing I could think of was Minji. At that point, I started to lose feelings for the guy who was standing right in front of me.

"What about you, did you also think about me?" He asked, I sighed and decided to tell him the truth. "I'm not going to say I don't think of you but…" There was a small pause in my voice hesitant to speak out. "I met this guy a few years ago, and I've been around him every now and then. At first, he was just a person I wanted to hook up with but I slowly started finding myself going back to him day by day." I confessed, "Also when you called me yesterday I was with him, but I sent him home when we ended our call." I told him.

Taehyun sighed as he slowly backed away from me. "Are you guys serious or is it just a hookup thing?" He asked, "It's just a hookup thing and nothing more," I replied, "Do you like him?" "At first I never tended to feel this way but, he gives me a sense of comfort whenever I'm around him," I stated.

Taehyun sighed as he ran his fingers through his hair and turned away from me. "So was I dumb thinking that if I came to you and tried to fix things, everything with be okay between us," he said, "Just because I feel the way for that guy doesn't mean my love for you has completely disappeared," "I still do love you TaeHyun, you don't know how happy I was when you called me yesterday. I was over the moon by just hearing your voice." I told him, "You can't love me because you make love with him every other night Jihoon!" He exclaimed,

I felt a pang in my chest, the weight of Taehyun's words hitting me hard. "TaeHyun, please... it's not what you think," I pleaded, trying to find the right words to explain.

"I didn't know how to cope when you were gone," I continued, my voice trembling with emotion. "He was just a distraction, a way to fill the void you left behind. But my feelings for you never changed, not for a moment."

"Then block him," he said like it was a command or something, "why should I block?" I asked, "If you really do love me like you say you do block him right now. It shouldn't be a problem right," he said.

I couldn't believe this right now. "There's no need for me to block him, can't you understand that I love you and only you!" "Look, I never told you to end things with your then-boyfriend because we weren't together anymore and I understood that you had to move on," I said, "Now you have to understand that this guy means nothing to me. You're the only one I want for goodness sake!"

"I came back so we could fix things and it's obvious that you don't want that." He said walking past me and towards the door. "Can we please not do this right now." I said holding him back, "You're finally back and I don't want to start like this."

Tension hung thick in the air, the weight of our unspoken words suffocating the room. Taehyun stood at the door, his hand on the knob, his eyes clouded with conflicting emotions.

He turned to face me, a mix of hurt and frustration etched across his features. "I need you to reassure me that this guy means nothing to you, especially if we're going to fix this. We're not always going to be around each other every day so please tell me you're never going to see that guy once again because I've cut off all the guys I talked to." He explained

I felt a surge of mixed emotions, understanding the depth of Taehyun's request. His eyes bore into mine, searching for the reassurance he desperately needed.

"I promise you, I won't ever see him again," I said, but my heart felt like it sank deeper into the ocean. It feels heavy that it hurts, I don't know why but I hate this feeling.

To be continued