Chapter 18 My brother

"Let's forget about that romance."

He was taking back his fake love. I smiled and said, "fine, as you wish."

"Shi Sheng, I agreed to divorce only because I owe Wen Ruyan a wedding and want to give it back to her, not because I wanted to hurt you. Sorry. You can turn to me if you have any need in the future."

"Are you going to find it difficult to get over your ex-wife?" I sneered, and remind him: "there is nothing you need to be sorry about. You just do not love me, and I don’t feel pity about our divorce. Don’t tell me that you begin to like me and feel regretful after the divorce. Don’t you tell me that you are not sure if you still love Wen Ruyan. Otherwise, I will take you as nothing but a cheap man."

Gu Tingchen had a brief silence, and said: "Shi Sheng, you don't have to be so tit-for-tat. I admit that I feel guilty about you, but it doesn't mean you can say or do whatever you want."

"Then what’s your point in making this call?"

"After all, I owe apologies to you for the abortion!!! "

"Stop it. I don't accept apologies. Speaking of abortion, you should apologize to the baby instead of me. I know what you're thinking. You want to apologize to me and then you can marry Wen Ruyan feeling at ease and justified. Am I right?"

Gu Tingchen: "¡­¡­"

I hung up, directly turned the phone off and put it in the coat pocket. Thinking for a long time, I turned it on and sent Gu Tingchen a text message: "Forget about it. I don't want to bother to blame you. From now on, we should have nothing to do with each other. Wish you happiness with Wen Ruyan, and I’m going for a new life."

My message was hypocritical and stereotyped. Probably, Gu Tingchen would not believe that I really didn’t blame him.

But apart from the prison sentence of Ji Nuan, there really was nothing that I wanted to blame on him.

Essentially, I should only blame myself.

Everything had resulted from my own fault.

ALL sufferings had fallen on me because I had asked for them!

I let out a breath, and felt colder and colder.

My legs became powerless, and I knelt directly on the beach. The waves came over from the distance. Before they overwhelmed my whole body, a pair of powerful arms held me gently.

As I saw who it was, I lost control of my tears.

``Brother Chu Xing, why are you back to Wu city? ''

The man in front of me was handsome, and stared at me with his eyes which looked as deep as the ocean.

He was adopted by my mother twenty years ago, but was taken back to his real home at the age of fifteen when his biological parents found him. I was only eight years old the year he left, and we haven't met until now. I usually contacted him through video chat over the phone, but our contacts were not frequent. Fortunately, I had recognized him at the first glance.

He replied, "I've been on vacation recently. So, I come back to Wu city to see you."

After pausing, he said, "you seem to be really unhappy."

"Yeah. I'm particularly unhappy."

"Then go to S City with me."

"No. My home is here."

"Fine. Then let me keep you company these days."

"Ok. Thank you, brother."

Thank him for showing up so timely.

Brother Chu Xing left hold of me, and squatted down to carry me. I obediently put my arms around his neck, and heard him asking lightly, "your face is so pale. Are you sick?"

I said honestly: "yes."

Chu Xing patiently asked, "have you seen the doctor?"

"Yes. The doctor said he couldn’t cure me."

He asked in a low tone, "what disease is it?"

"Advanced cancer."

Chu Xing: "¡­¡­"

Chu Xing sent me home, went to boil water, and get cold medicine for me. I took the medicine, lay on the bed and asked him, "where's my sister-in-law? I heard you say last time that you were breaking up. "

"She makes scenes frequently, and I'm tired of that. Forget about her, now I should care about you the most. How has your health become like this?"

Chu Xing sounded sad, and couldn’t believe it.

Hard to believe as it was, that was the truth anyway.

I comforted him: "it's all right, I know you are shocked and can’t accept this. It took me a long time to accept it, too. Now I have accepted the arrangements of my fate. Don't be sad. I don't feel sad that I’m dying, but I don’t want to make you sad."

Chu Xing finally had no choice but to say, "then let me take care of you during this period of time."

"Ok. Thank you, brother Chu Xing."

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The next morning, I was woken up by pain. I covered my abdomen with the hands and took two painkillers. After the pain was over, I went to the bathroom for a bath and went downstairs after putting on makeup.

Chu Xing was making breakfast in the kitchen downstairs. Hearing my movement, he turned around and looked at me. There were concerns and worries on his cold face.

"Sheng er, you have nosebleeds."

Hearing that, I reached out and touched my nose. Then, my legs finally failed to hold up my body, and I fell into his warm arms. I looked up at him in a daze.

"My cancer may have worsened. Can you send me to the hospital?"

Chu Xing took me to the hospital. The doctor gave me anaesthetic, and I lay in bed. It was a long time before the sense of pain disappeared. After the doctor left, I put on my coat, left the ward and saw Chu Xing sitting on a bench. That proud man was full of tears. I asked softly, "why are you crying?"

Hearing me, Chu Xing looked at me in a hurry.

He scolded me softly: "you silly girl. Why did you neglect your health like this? I have neglected my duty as a brother. Why didn't you tell me? I could have come to Wu city to accompany you early. I can't imagine how you have endured it and how lonely and helpless you were."

"Brother Chuxing, it's destined. There's nothing to be sad about."

He said to me, "come here. I'll carry you home."

I ran over with a smile. "ok, you must take me home."

I went over and lay on his back, reaching my arms around his neck and closing my eyes.

He put his hands firmly around my legs and carried me home.

Just as we were at the entrance of the hospital, a nasty voice with fake surprise called my name: "Shi Sheng, why are you here? Who is this man? "

It was Wen Ruyan.

I didn't want to bother to talk to her, so I closed my eyes and pretended not to have heard her.

Seeing my movement, Chu Xing intended to ignore her and leave, but Wen Ruyan stopped him, asking ignorantly: "who are you? Do you know who she is? "

A cold voice interrupted her: "Ruyan, don't be unreasonable."

Chu Xing started to leave, and the cold voice called him: "Mr. Chu, I heard that you would come to Wu city a period of time ago. I didn't expect to see you in this way. You and miss Shi… "

"Mr. Gu, she's sick and is not feeling well. If you don’t have anything important, I have to leave."

Then, Chu Xing sneered, "Mr. Gu, I don’t know what is wrong with you to treasure such a cheap woman. I don’t think she is even 1/10 as good as my Sheng er."

Chu Xing generally knew about my matters. By "ill-bred" woman, he was referring to Wen Ruyan.

I don't want to see them, so I just pretended to be asleep on his back.

When she heard Chu Xing humiliating her in this way, Wen Ruyan couldn’t help arguing, "what nonsense are you talking about? If I am cheap, she is cheaper!"

"Oh?" Chu Xing frowned. "Do you think you are more honorable than her?"

Wen Ruyan wanted to say something, but Gu Tingchen stopped her.

"Ruyan, shut up."

Chu Xing said coldly: "Mr. Gu, tell your own woman to behave herself."

Gu Tingchen said indifferently: "there is no need for you to remind me of this, Mr. Chu."

Chu Xing carried me home from hospital. I did not know that from beginning to end Gu Tingchen had been staring at me. I no longer wanted to see him and subconsciously avoided him.