Destination

At the beginning, when I first started to live life and I have never though of the reasons why I should be living my life or how I should be living my life to extend. Most of the people I know and hang out with they have their own destinations what they truly desire. So they have their own way to start of with life to what they might need to do to make their dream come realistic. But hanging with them, it has influenced me in a way that I have had any plan for life or choose a destination that I wish I could accomplish in life too.

With that said, as the day begin to pass and night shine brighter sooner than I have ever expected for 4 whole years until I reached 20. There is still a lingering question can I just live a normal life where I have a family, a farm and live with freedom. Can I?

My ex, who is one of the most inspiring women that I have ever known. She live how she want to live with most of the fear and care that she have to put up many times and with many fights keep constantly throwing on her, she still stood there like she was facing some breezeways that could not take her focus on her goal. But really when she down she a human that we call fragile and weak. Is that what everyone really is inside? Weak and fragile? And strong on the outside like they can stand against the whole universe without much thought? EARTH IS SUCH A MYSTERIOUS PLACE.

Everyone around me are concentrating and focus but they keep on hurting because they are not bless of what god have given them and they did not like the process of investment. But do you think that everyone like that process of investing on something knowing it would last or would not? My answer is experience and lower your expectations. Maybe just maybe it was not because of your ability it take timing too. Right?

Enough of other, let's focus on this newly author story that he will be the main character of realistic story. I am a family person, I can cook, I love hard and invest alot of time on them. But turned out I only found myself on a death end because I have no asset or possession as much as other candidate of husband material that the girl I love need. I would not like to admit this but she love a guy who are rich not someone like me, that lost from time to time like a idiot who can only love but not rich enough. All said and done, here I am again lonely in this humongous world of our that have people number in billions. Such a shame, but believe me I tried and from now on I wanted share all my life experience and connect with you all.