Chapter 7

Having lost my memory didn't mean I had become disabled. I still had all my senses intact and working. I was told that before I got into the accident and lost my memory I was a fashion designer with my own brand.

Jack and I had not gotten a chance to spend time together. He had been busy. I didn't want to hide anything from Rou. I at first thought that It was a better way but I knew better that if I hid anything from him then I'd had to come up with excuses and lie to him and to hid the lies I'd had to lie more and that would put me in so much mental destress and I wasn't willing to go through that. And all that for what good reason, just because I was married and someone was making me feel more than my own husband.

I decided to tell Rou. But I also wasn't going to wait for him at home, I didn't know if he'd come late or not or even come at all. So I called a cab since I still wasn't ready to drive the car and I'd had to relearn how to drive.

This was the first time I was going to the office. I thought that I'd ask him to show me to my own building and my own workplace.

This whole way was different, new to me. Big buildings stood tall, the cab stopped in front of such a skyscraper. The building was beautiful, the structure was different from any building around. I went inside. I went to the receptionist and asked her to inform Rou that I was here. The call didn't went through, according to them he was in a meeting.

I told them to not worry and that I'll go up myself. The way they treated me, it felt that they knew me. But something was off when I reached the office floor.

I reached his assistant's desk and told her that I had to meet him but she said that Rou was busy in an important meeting. To see me the assistant's face turned pale for a second. For some reason I was adamant so I didn't listen to her and barged in the office.

The sight had me weak in my knees. Rou was there with this another woman in his arms and they both were making out with each other, standing near the desk. The moment I saw them, I sensed they saw me and Rou blanked away and so did I, something in my head snapped and I saw a vision, a forgotten memory. I saw a guy in a club, blinking colorful lights, and a woman in his arms, both of them happy and dancing together and This all was blurry for me. I tried to make out their faces but I couldn't.

I lost my balance and fell on the floor, I couldn't breathe. I saw Rou there, worried but after witnessing his affair in front of my eyes I just didn't want his hands anywhere on me, So I kept trying to push him away. I tried to get up and limping I left the office. I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe, and everything felt like the whole world was crashing down.

I took the elevator and somehow got out of the building, the tear stained my face and I kept walking. I didn't know where I was but a car stopped and someone came out of it, I turned and saw it was Jack and suddenly the vision returned and this time the guy had a face and it was Jack. And at that moment I blacked out and all I remember was, Jack catching me and calling out my name.

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It hurt a lot, my head was hurting. I tried to open my eyes but the pain was immense, but I opened my eyes after trying very hard. I found myself in a room, a very beautiful room, the bed was soft and it felt like the first time I had opened my eyes after the accident, the difference was that this time the man was not Rou but Jack.

He saw me waking up and came to me.

"Hey, how are you feeling now? do you want some water?" He asked so gently.

I nodded my head yes, And tried to reply.

"M...m...y... he...ad.... hurts...."

He helped me drink water and gave me the pills that the doctor had prescribed while I was still unconscious. Apparently the doctor had guessed that this would happen.

"What am I doing here?" I asked him, not being able to recall the last that happened.

"I caught you when you fainted, and took you to my place and called the doctor here too. but what had happened?"

I remembered why I had gotten into this state. I didn't have anything to hide from Jack and neither did I want to hide anything.

I told him about everything and about how I was feeling about him and about Rou and Rou's affair and the images that came to my mind when that happened and the guy being him.

He understood everything except the part where I saw him in the club before losing consciousness.

He and I agreed maybe It was some hallucination and stuff. Otherwise why would I see him in a setting he hasn't been to.

I was at his home, he canceled all his appointments and meeting for the rest of the day and I didn't understand why he would do that.

I had many questions ever since I woke up in this whole reality. Now these questions were not only about me or Rou but also about how I felt about Jack and how meeting him felt like destiny.

We were sitting on the bed, he had brought me some porridge to eat, and while he was cooling it down, I was looking at him smilingly, it was the first time someone had their whole undivided attention to me.

I had a husband whom I had things to deal with but this space, me and Jack and our closeness felt so comforting and so easy that I didn't want to leave and be welcomed by Rou. Was he even looking for me? Or was he with his girlfriend?

I didn't realize that Jack was holding a spoon full of porridge in front of my mouth, until he asked what was happening in my head. He put aside the tray and held my hands in his.

spoke, "don't worry, it is all new to you. And I know having been faced with such a shocking fact would really have messed with your mind, don't think about it. Now that you are here with me, be with me. can you do that for me?"

I replied "Yes. But why?"

He looked confused so I clarified, "Why are you doing this for me? I'm married. We just met and you and me this doesn't make any sense."

"You told me about your feelings for me, and if I'm being honest with not only you but myself then I wanna tell you that you're not the only one who's heart beats like crazy when we are near, that you are not the only one confused of how and why someone would feel the way we are feeling. What we feel is unexplainable but it is there and I like you maybe more than that."

He spoke with still my hands in his and his eyes never leaving mine. He was right what we were feeling for one another had no explanation, it made no sense but it didn't matter, now it didn't because, he liked me or maybe loved me and I felt the same for him.

I still had to go home and confront Rou about this, about the whole mess that we were in. At least I wasn't alone.

I was happy more happy than sad and it was weird but maybe the fact that I wasn't the same person from the past could explain this.

Seeing him so close to me, I couldn't help myself and I moved forward to meet our lips and the moment our lips met, it just took me to places. I could see myself in different settings. He moved slowly, I could sense that he too wasn't able to control this urge of wanting to explore each other. He slowly moved forward and held my waist, and I held his nape and my hands moved to his hair.

He felt like heaven. We had our fronts pressed to each other. We had to stop to breathe and when we let go of each others lips, had our forehead together. and we smiled and just kept breathing heavily.

What I saw while kissing him, was me in a very different world, and it all felt real. Now I had to figure out of that was true or if that was me hallucinating.