Break up

Olivia's POV

I hissed softly and followed Mike into the car, we got into the car, and he drove off.

Silence envelope the whole place as Mike drove me home.

"Are you okay?". He asked with his eyes focused on the road.

I hissed softly and lean on the chair without saying a word.

"Olivia". He calls out, 

I hissed softly and stared at him

"Take it easy on yourself, okay ?". He pleaded.

I remove my gaze from him and peered outside the window.

All Rona's words keep running in my head, 

"Act like strangers". I murmured

How can he even say such a thing to me when I assumed he liked me.

"We are here ". Mike's voice brought me back from my thought.

I look around and noticed we were in front of our apartment.

"Thank you ".  I murmured and was about taking my leave when Mike held my hand.

I turn around and faced him.

"Are you okay?". He asked, 

"Yes".  I whispered and reached for the door, but he gripped me back.

"Wait ". He stared at me with so much sympathy and concern in his eyes.

"Make sure you take care of yourself". He stares at me with compassion before letting go of my hand. I went for the car door and opened it before coming out of the car.

I got in front of the apartment and open the door before walking in. I went in and noticed everything was just in place the way I left it.

I sign in relief and sat on the couch with my eyes filled with tears.

"You are supposed to be happy, Olivia, you should be delighted ". I murmured to myself 

I was supposed to be happy now that Rona has finally let go of me,, but I can't explain the pain in my heart.

Rona letting go of me means I could be with Derick and worry over nothing, but yet, I wasn't happy., it felt like this wasn't what I wanted.

A call on my phone got my attention.

I went for my pocket and brought out the phone, check the caller and saw that it was Derick.

Hissing softly, I picked the call.

"Hey Derick"I greeted, 

"Are you okay? ".he asked 

"Yeah".  I murmured.

"Am in front of your apartment". He announced, 

"Okay, I will be right there ".  I murmured and ended the call, 

I stood up from the bed and lazily walk to the door with my feet scrubbing the floor.

"Come in ".  I stood aside and let him in.

He steps in and stared at me with curiosity.

"You are not okay ". He muttered out those words while staring at me, 

"Am fine".  I replied and walk into the sitting room.

"Please sit. ". I added those words and sat on the couch.

He did not say a word, rather, he stares at me like he was trying to read through me.

Nervously I smiled at him and look away .he hissed softly and sat on the couch opposite me.

"How are you? ". He asked while staring at me.

"Am fine ".  I murmured while looking elsewhere.

I am in great pain,, but I was trying to hide it from Derick.

"Oli". he muttered slowly

I hissed softly and flash him a big smile.

"What is it?". he asked in a worried tune, 

"Nothing am fine".  I replied softly.

He stared at me for a while before getting up from the couch.

He walks up to me and sat beside me

"You are lying, and I know that ". He whispered tho words while he gently caress my cheek, 

I hissed softly and closed my eyes while I feel his touch.

His touch reminds me of Rona's, how he teases me, touch me and the way he makes me feel.

"What is it ". He asked while he strokes my hair.

I closed my eyes and did not know when I started crying, I remembered all Rona said and the tears I have been suppressing all poured out.

"What's wrong?". he asked in panic while pulling me to himself.

I cried until my veins came popping out.

"Tell me what is it? ". he asked after I stopped crying.

"Shit ".  I whisper to myself

What will I say him, how will I explain to him that I was crying over Rona's rejection.

"Olivia". he calls out my name with care.

I hissed softly, but did not say a word.

He moves away from me and raised my face, so he could look at me.

I met eyes with him and could see the worry and fear in his eyes.

He kissed my cheek before he started placing kisses on my face.

"Did anyone say anything to you? ". Saying those words, I could notice his anger.

"No one said anything to me ". I murmured still in tears

"Then please tell me what is it".he pleaded

"Nothing ".  I murmured 

He hissed softly and stared at me.

"You were crying, how can you tell me nothing is wrong? ".he asked 

I hissed softly and stood up from the couch 

"I just don't wanna talk about it ". Muttered out 

"Really ?". he asked in disbelief, 

I murmured softly but did not say a word.

He stood up from the couch and walk up to me.

"Is Rona right ?". He asked with a red face, 

"I don't know what you are talking about, ". I whisper

"Don't fucking lie to me ". he yelled on top of his voice.

I hissed softly but did not say a word, 

"What did he say to you? ".he asked in anger 

"Nothing ".  I muttered out in anger, 

He hissed and roughly ran his fingers through his hair in anger and frustration.

"You are lying to me, oli, you are keeping things away from me, ".he yelled, 

I stared at him and noticed he was clenching his fist and gritting his teeth with anger. Seeing how furious he was, I swallowed nervously and move away from him.

"You should leave ". I murmured 

"I should leave?, are you driving me out? ". He yelled at the top of his lungs.

I gulped and move a bit from him, I haven't seen Derick this angry at me.

"Do you think am a fool ". He shouted, 

"You think you can take me for a fool just because I love you? ".he exclaimed angrily

I swallowed nervously and bite my lips in fear.

"You think I don't know you weren't at home last night? ".he yelled angrily".

"Shit".  I whisper to myself 

"I was here oli, I came here looking for you, but the apartment was empty ".he spoke in a low tune, but I could see the anger in him.

"You were at his place, right?". He asked in anger, 

"You spent the night in his fucking house "

"My girlfriend spending the night in another's man bed ". he hissed and ran his hand through his hair.

"I knew all this but decided to let it go, yet you are treating me like a trash ".he wailed in a hurt tune.

I felt my heart clench in pain when I heard those words from him., he must have gone through a lot when he knew I spent the night in Rona's place, yet he was trying to hide it from me.

He hissed softly and sat on the couch., closed his eyes and took in a deep breath before opening his eyes and staring at me. I met eyes with him and I could see how hurt he was.

"What must I do to make you love me "

He Muttered out those words while staring directly at me.

"Tell me oli, tell me what I must do, and I will do ". he muttered those words like he meant every bit of it.

Hearing those words from him, I knew I was doing the wrong thing.

I was hurting Derrick's feelings when he did nothing but to love me wholeheartedly.

"Oli". He took in a deep breath before he stared at me with hurt in his face.

"I think we should break up, ". he whispered those words in pain, 

Hearing those words from him, I stared at him with wild eyes.

"Derick". I move close to him and stood in front of him, 

"Am sorry if I must have hurt you with the way I reacted". I apologized sincerely

"No, oli, you are not sorry., it's not about what happened today it's about what have been happening in our lives".he spoke calmly.

He stood up from the couch and move away from me while running his fingers through his hair.

"I love you Oli, God love I love you a lot. I have never been this madly in love with a girl before, but I can't keep forcing you to myself when clearly your heart is somewhere else. You yarn for him even when you are with me ". He muttered bitterly.

"Breaking off this relationship is a favor I am doing to you Oli, you can now be with him ".he whispered those words.

Hearing those words from him, I felt guilty and ashamed of myself.

I hissed softly and move close to him, but he signaled me to stay away from him.

"No, oli, there is no need of you feeling guilty, it wasn't your fault at all ".

Taking a deep breath, he moved closer to me and pulled me to himself in a tight hug.

"I hope you find happiness ". He pulls me away from him and flash me a painful smile before walking away.

Seeing him walking away, I realized the feeling I have for him, and it was indeed love.