The void

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Solomon---

When I opened my eyes, Levi was there again right in front of me 

I could almost cry- he wrapped his arms around me

"I missed you- Solomon- I missed you so much-" he replied with tears

"I-I missed you too Levi- I thought you never come back and that you hated me- I-" I replied in tears

he hugged me tight 

"I love you Solomon- I wish I told you that- instead- I fell for someone else- someone who didn't love me but someone else-and he's supposed to come back- F*ck that- I rather stay with you" He replied

"Levi- Please don't be mad at him - He loves you I'm sure- he said so himself" I replied

"That was a lie Solomon- He told me He loved me- But he didn't I was just a replacement for him- The one he love died and I'm sure they're together now" He replied

"Oh well that's ok-you have me now Levi-" I replied

I wrapped my arms around him as he cried 

He took a deep breath 

"Why do we have to be Madoka's lovers?" He replied

"Because that's how it was supposed to be-and you were a better one than me" I replied

"I know Solomon- but that's in the past they're gone and never coming back" he replied

"I'm sure they'll come back I did-" I replied

"That's different Solomon- You- killed yourself as I did- they died because of a curse just like him that's why I know I'll never see him again" He replied

"I was already- suffering I don't why I held on- I knew that you were supposed to be with him but I wish so badly that it was me- If I didn't love him- I could love you-" I replied

"Why can't you just love us both?-you know I- love you but  I also love them-" he replied

"You didn't hurt them as I did- Levi- I scarred him- he hurt himself because of me- I said awful things to them and I hurt him emotionally- I forced him to have sex with me- anything I wanted he would do- and then I tried to f*ck him again- I said I wouldn't force him but I did- I took it too dam far he was completely lifeless after that but he- still gave me another chance just because I regretted it- I don't want to f*ck them- especially after what I've done- twice- and then to fall for him again - It was worse I wanted to love you but I couldn't- and then I started to realize I was better alone- dying alone didn't seem so bad-but- I still held on- because you needed me-

and when you took your own life I knew I had to go after you- so I did-" I replied

"Solomon- You're f*cked up" he replied

"Yeah- I know- and I'm sorry Levi" I replied

"I don't care Solomon-but I'm glad you're here" he replied

"You are?" I replied

"Solomon - I'm just as F*cked up as you- I gave up on Madoka and wanted you- despite - knowing - that - Madoka was the one I loved- but I don't want them anymore- I just want you-f*ck- what's- wrong with me- I- Love you  Solomon-" he replied

"Levi- you're only turning to me because you're mad at Madoka because he went to someone else- because he doesn't love you- so you're convincing yourself to love me- because I love you" I replied

"I-hate Madoka- I hate him I hate him-I hope he stays dead" he replied

"Levi- you're acting like a teenage girl- after a breakup- take a deep breath and calm down" I replied

"let me sulk like one- he doesn't love me-whyyyyyyy-" he replied

I facepalmed- I am dealing with a child-'

"Levi- look at me- and take a deep breath " I replied

he did just that

"I'm sorry Solomon- I'm better now" he replied

"Well, that's good and you don't need to apologize" I replied

"So- are we going to f*ck or what?" he replied

"Who- are you and where's, Levi?" I replied

"Right here- and I was being serious I want to f*ck you again- and it's been a while so why not?'' he replied

"Levi No- we're not f*cking- you're still grieving- and f*cking isn't going to help" I replied

"But what else can we do?- this is boring and I have you-" he replied

his cold hand touched my chest- It was just a tap- and I was already hard-

Yes - the dead- are still horny as f*ck- exoplasm is ghost cum- and you can f*ck almost forever - since they have more stamina because there's nobody- but it requires a lot of energy to stay like that but it is pleasurable or so I've heard-

"You want it don't you?- you know I could just-" he replied

"Levi-I'm going to slap you- " I replied

" Slap me, daddy-" he replied

This mother- f*cker-

"I've had it Levi- quit acting like that- you're not him- so stop acting like him" I replied

"Solomon- what are you talking about ?" he replied

"f*ck- nothing- it doesn't matter-" I replied  I made that promise with him we made - a few- before that- all them of I broke- it's so hard loving someone else- I know that's what he wanted-but- I hate this- I see them as the same- but they're not I know it- but- I can't help but be reminded of him and it hurts- all those awful things I said to him- and played around with him- but they're was some fun- not mention I got him pregnant- and then we couldn't stop f*cking-we had a good laugh out of it-and that promise- I wonder if we really will see each other in the real world-

"Yes it does You love someone else- and I'm a reminder of them- It's not fair Solomon- you're only supposed to love me!" he replied

"I do love you Levi" I replied

"No you don't- you love that faker- you prefer him- I can't follow you- to the real world - I want you to stay with me forever you promised me Solomon- you would only love me-" he replied

"Which Levi am I taking to ?- I know you're not the original" I replied

"I think you know babe-" he replied and caressed my c*ck- I slightly moan

I bit my lip- dam he's so hard to resist right now-

"You like this don't you Solomon?-" he replied

"Stop it Levi- don't tease me like this-" I replied

"I'm not going to and I will make sure you don't get pleasure out of this-" he replied

he grabbed my c*ck and squeezed hard- I almost release but he doesn't let me

he begins to tease me more-It's so frustrating- but it feels so dam - good!

"Ah- f*ck Levi- just f*ck me already" I replied 

"hmm- I thought you didn't want that Solomon-" he replied

"I- do now-you didn't f*ck me last time- and I want to feel it" 

"You want all of us to f*ck you-first Lukas- then that transmigrator- and now me- and then the original and probably charismatic- after that- the mean one- the carefree one the calm one- intelligent and lastly smart a**" he replied

"Well- you're a part of him so why can't I love you all? -" I replied

"That- doesn't help- we all want you for ourselves-sharing is so hard- I want you and I don't want you with anyone else-" They replied

"What about Madoka?" I replied

"Especially him-" he replied

"But- you said you let me f*ck them" I replied

"Eh- well I change my mind You're not f*cking him" he replied

"Wasn't planning to I rather have all of you f*ck me" I replied

"You know I hate sharing-but at least let me have you now- I Promise you'll like it-" he replied

"That's what I'm asking for" I replied

"hmm good-" he replied

I felt him go through me so he could put his d*ck inside- he used energy to hold his incorruptible body against mine 

as he began to rock against me the pleasure I felt- was- amazing- F*ck it felt so good- 

"Ah- Levi - faster" I replied

he began to pick up the pace and it- felt so good as he kept going until I reached my climax-

I saw stars as my ectoplasm- went every way

"F*ck-I didn't think it would feel that good" I replied

"Did you doubt my skills because we haven't f*cked before?" he replied

"No- I knew you would be good- I just didn't think f*cking like this would feel like that" I replied

"Oh, you mean as a spirit- then I'm sure you'll have fun with the others" he replied

Then everything went dark again and when I opened my eyes Levi was there

"Solomon!" he shouted and wrapped his arms around me

"Levi, how long have you been waiting?" I replied

"I don't know- but- I thought I wouldn't see you again-" he replied

"Oh- well what's the last thing you remember?" I replied

"We were going- to f*ck- weren't we?" he replied

"Yeah-we were If you want we can do it again-" I replied

"You know- I've been waiting so long - I can't do it any longer" he replied

he leaned in and put it and began to rock against me

"Ah- Levi!" I moaned

He moved back as his d*ck moved inside me and hit that desired place-

"Ah- Levi- right there!" I replied

he moved back and hit that place over and over again picking up the pace and f*cking deeper and harder

I could help but let my moans out-f*ck if I knew it would feel like this I would have killed myself sooner- wait- why- do I like being at the bottom?- I used to be the top-but he has a big dick and I like feeling it inside me-and I couldn't f*ck him- It doesn't feel right- I know I'm supposed to love him and - I'm not sure if I do- I know I care about him- I don't want him to get hurt- we've only had sex- once- that was the same day he confessed me that he loved someone else - I felt my heart break- but I made an agreement that I would let him go if he F*cked me first- and he did

but afterward- I felt- so heartbroken- I knew he couldn't love me- he isn't even real- but why am I so attached to him?- because he reminds me of the one I knew- and that first Levi- I loved- it feels like those feelings are a distant memory- because I fell in love with the real Levi- he's never coming back- and I know I'm supposed to love this Levi- but he isn't real and I know this bad- but if I being honest he's only good for sex-and I can't attach my feelings of the past on to him-

Then I was brought back- with Levi right in front of me

"Solomon?" he replied

"Levi-" I was shaking- was remembering too much?- I know he doesn't love me- and I can't love him but why does it bug me so much?

he wrapped his arms around me

"Hey it's alright Solomon, I don't hate you" He replied

"You don't?- Even though I'm a terrible person?-" I replied

"No- I love you Solomon- and I wish I realized sooner- but I denied it- I believed I could only love Madoka but I was wrong after they died- I was heartbroken - and I cried a whole lot but when I killed myself thinking of him- I was brought here- and I wasn't alone- Beel was there- but he was different he couldn't remember a thing- well except Madoka- and he said he was waiting for them and I tried to tell him he wasn't coming back but he didn't, believe me, he told me that Madoka would come back but I didn't believe him- I started to hate him because Beel was left like that- and then I started to think of you- and started to realize I missed you more and I wanted to be with you- and then I was- I hope I didn't upset you- I know we've f*cked once- but it felt-natural-" he replied and he turned bright pink- I didn't think he could still act like that

I could help but laugh- "Pfft- You're acting like that after You F*cked me- I don't get it- I thought you were a confident gay" I replied

"Well-I- I- am- but- it's different with you- Solomon- you were the first one I loved- but I couldn't admit it until- I met Madoka and he told me to confess to you- I did and we kissed and then I don't remember- what happened after that- I just knew we ended up together and I was happy but then- I saw Madoka again-and I started to like him more- than I thought-and I choose him instead- I decided I would tell you and I did- I expected you would be more upset- but- you weren't you told me that I should go to them and I was going to leave- but you stopped me" he replied

"I told you I wouldn't let you go unless you f*cked me" I replied

"And I did and I regret it so much" he replied

"Oh-of course you did-you love Madoka-" I replied

"You're wrong Solomon- I love you- that's why I regret it- I just left you like that- and I told myself that I couldn't that I could only love Madoka and I would but I'm not so sure I did- I made myself believe I did- but then after Madoka died and I cried-and then I died thinking of him- and then after some thinking, I realized that it was you I truly loved- and I wanted to be with you" he replied

"I-Levi are you sure You love me?- don't you care about them more?-" I replied

"Solomon- I care more about you- maybe I felt something for him- but my feelings for you are stronger" he replied

"You know- I hurt him-"I replied

"and you almost killed yourself over it-" he replied

"You- remember?" I replied

"barely- in bits in pieces- but- I knew how bad the guilt was destroying you- and I told you that I cared more about you- like I'm telling you now" he replied

"ha-and he said- you wouldn't- but you are more alike than I thought-" I replied

"I- Solomon what are you talking about?" he replied

"Madoka told me you would hate me if I told you the truth-" I replied

"he said that?" He replied

"Yep and that I should f*ck him in the future so you would hate him as well" I replied

"What-Ok- that's screwed up-after you broke him- he still wanted you to do it?" he replied

"Yeah, I was just as surprised, but he said he would give me time first and he was willing to give me another chance because I regretted" I replied

"Oh-he told you that- because he felt it was his fault as well and he couldn't blame you and that's why he gave you another chance-" he replied

"Yes- that's why Madoka is so much better than me-" I replied

"Madoka was a good person huh?- is that why they told me they loved me?" he replied

"Yes, they didn't want to hurt your feelings by telling you the truth-" I replied

"This just- hurts more why couldn't they tell the truth? if they did I would have realized sooner that I didn't love them" he replied

"Because he knew you were lying to him to yourself- but he didn't want to tell you because he felt bad-so he said it back- even though he didn't feel it " I replied

"And neither did I" he replied

"Yep-I should have guessed you were just f*ck buddies-" I replied

"I-I guess that what it was huh?" he replied

"Yep you just made yourself believe that it was love but - it wasn't" I replied

"It- wasn't as fun as I thought it would be-and we didn't even f*ck the first time-" he replied

"You didn't?" I replied

"He said he couldn't, so I didn't force him -and he told me why- because of how a past partner treated them-" he replied

"And I was that past partner" I replied

"I know- and I should hate you- but- I don't- instead I love you despite that- doesn't that make me a terrible person?" he replied

"No Levi- it doesn't -It makes you a good person because you love someone despite how horrible they were to you or others-and maybe if that other person accepts that love they can become a better person-but there are others who will use that against you but don't let them-" I replied

"but I already did-" he replied

"Levi-I love you-" I replied

"I know but- you just used me for sex-and I have a feeling you've done it before" he replied

"I-you're right and I'm sorry Levi- I-" I replied

"I'm not mad- I just know you like my d*ck" he replied

I felt myself heat up and my d*ck hardened

"You do- huh?-did you want to feel it again?" he replied

"F*ck- just put it in-" I replied

and he did

 moving back putting his full-length in which is big as I've mentioned before-

"Ah! Levi!" I moaned

"You like this don't you babe?" he replied as he moved his hips back as his d*ck moved inside

"f*ck Yes!-that feels amazing" I replied as he hit that spot once again

 I rolled my eyes back as I felt intense pleasure- never wanting it to end

but it did  

as he pulled out, I felt myself release 

 my exoplasm spread everywhere once again

"You're beautiful like this darling" he whispered in my ear 

I felt my d*ck twitch in response - f*ck how can he be so hot?-  How did he change so fast?- he used to be so cute- he was so shy about kissing- and the way he reacted to me sucking his c*ck

and then his reaction to me sucking his finger- but- the rest wasn't him- It was him- and he acts the same now- I thought they were different but they're more alike than they used to be-it scares me- I felt myself shake again- f*ck- I miss him- what happened to him why did he leave me?- 

"Solomon I'm here" he replied as he wrapped his arms around me

"I know Levi-but-it's not the same-" I replied

"You miss Madoka don't you?" He replied

"NO- IT's NOT HIM!-" I replied

"Oh- alright Solomon who is it then?" he replied

"How can you not know?! HE- Was with you-He- was a part of you-" I replied

"Apart from me?- you- know Lukas?" he replied

"Yes- but it's not him-It's- it- Levi - I need to tell you the truth-"I replied

"Alright I'm listening" he replied

"I'm not from this world there's no magic or demons - men can't get pregnant either- I worked for a company- that was run by Madoka- in that world, they are a girl- and you- were there as well-

you were obsessed with them you did everything for them- and when I came along everything changed- I liked her a lot and you were jealous, and we fought over her constantly- till the day you finally won - and that day we were all transported here- first was Madoka and she tried to change things but the world fought back and sent me in - you were supposed to be sent in first but for some reason, I got there first- my mission was to destroy them- In the worst way possible" I replied

"So- Madoka- you and me are transmigrators?- cool" he replied

"Levi-it's a bit more complex than that- 

 You and that Levi isn't the same- at least you used to be different- but I think you learned from him and that's why you act the same- but you're not-" I replied

"So, I'm just a replacement huh?" he replied

"Basically- I didn't want to hurt your feelings- by telling you the truth-but I know-your already hurt- by it" I replied

"Of course, I am- you don't love me-I'm Madoka in this satiation- I replaced you with Madoka- and now I'm a replacement for that Levi- the real Levi- the one who pretends to be me- and used my body no less-" he replied

"Wait you remember?" I replied

"Of course, I do- you triggered those memories- though there are still certain gaps-" he replied

"Oh-um- what do you remember?" I replied

"I tried to confess to you but- the words didn't come out right- but you still caught on and kissed me-really fiercely- You rubbed your c*ck against mine- after that you gave me a hand job- Then you s*cked me off-and then you stopped- and talked to Luke who had walked in on us- poor kid-and then after that- I f*cked you-though it- wasn't actually me in control- and then- I'm not sure what happened- but then you told me- you want to f*ck me- and I pushed you back- and told you- I liked- it and I liked how- you sucked my d*ck- and then you asked if I wanted you to do it again and I told you no and let you give me hand job- after you did you were pretty eager and pulled my pants down- and I pushed you back and put my hand in and then put my finger to your mouth and you suck it- and then you bit my shoulder and then moved down-and when you saw my birthmark- you stopped and I got dressed- you asked if Madoka was my soulmate because we had the same birthmark and I told you I didn't care about that and That I loved you

you asked me if I still love you even if you were a terrible person and I told you I would even if you hurt me and you said you didn't want to hurt me- but you did- and you broke down completely

and then you told me about our past lives and I told you about mine and then after that, you told me you wanted to f*ck me- and I asked what made you think you had to tell me about our past lives first and you told me it was Madoka- and I asked if that's how you ended up f*cking them

and you told me no- and then add a well- that yes they did but it was only a little bit before you f*cked them - and then I asked if there was any other reason-  and immediately regretted it because your answer made me mad- and you asked if I was jealous of course I was

you said it was because I didn't let you go all the way- and I replied that you didn't go all the way either with him-but that wasn't true and you broke down and holding a dagger in your hand - I stopped you and you asked why and I asked why you would think such a thing and I didn't want this and knew you were suffering but I could help you through it and be by your side and you replied if I could only be so forgiving in the future  and I asked why and that's when you confessed what you did and hugged you as you cried you said you didn't deserve this and I said I didn't care I still loved you I know what you did was wrong but you regret it if you didn't you wouldn't act like this and then you asked why I was doing this and if I cared about Madoka

I replied of course I do but the one I care most about is the one in my arms and you cried out saying you didn't deserve this and to stop doing this to you but I didn't not until you let it all out" he replied

"and then I started to remember my true past with Madoka- and I found out I was his past partner and then you asked if I was alright and I said I wasn't and found out I was his past partner- and you should give up on me" I replied

"And I told you that I wasn't going to and I know you did something horrible to someone you once love but you weren't going to do it again-" he replied

"and I asked how you knew that I knew what I was doing was wrong but I still did it what if I did it again?" I replied

"and I replied you've stopped before so why can't you now?-" he replied

"and I replied I don't know but can I still f*ck you?" I replied

"and I shouted No why would I let you after that?!- and then you tried to f*ck me and I tried to warn you then you got on top of me and asked If I wanted to know if you could stop yourself

and I told you this wasn't the way- and then you got off me" He replied

"and I replied fine what am I supposed to do then?-" I replied

"And I replied what you just did and you thought I meant F*ck me but I meant that you stopped" he replied

"then- you teased me- and I replied don't tease me like that if you don't- want- me to f*ck you" I replied

"Solomon-something feels- off these aren't my memories- I know my body was there and I remember them as my own-but-I don't think it was-" he replied

"Because- that was him- you are a replacement- hmm- I didn't think this would happen-" I replied

"Whatever it is your thinking don't do it Solomon" he replied

"Why not you can't do anything and we've already f*cked twice- and me and him have f*cked way more- and it was in your body so it should be in your muscle memory that's why it feels so natural when we do it- though I haven't f*cked you- in a long time" I replied

"Why can't you?- you've done it before I can't even remember  the feeling" he replied

"I- just can't- I don't have that pride anymore-and I like being a f*cking bottom- what the hell is wrong with me?" I replied

"it's because- you hurt me or more specifically him- right?" he replied

"Yes-I f*cked him up badly both physically and emotionally-" I replied

"I see-is that's why you- tried not to get so attached to me right?" he replied

"Yes-but- it was hard-and I broke down- I knew you weren't him- but you reminded me so much of him- especially now- and I've used you as a replacement- and I'm sorry for that" I replied

"It's fine- really to be fair-I used you as a replacement too-but- You are nothing like them- they didn't have to become a better person because they already were but you did-and There's nothing wrong with that- that's why-I- he loved you" he replied

"ha-thanks Levi-can I hug you?" I replied

"Of course" he replied 

I hugged him tightly, and he hugged back

then when I let go he smiled at me-

my heart leaped-f*ck calm down- it's just a hug and a smile

"you're blushing Solomon-are you thinking of dirty thoughts of me?" he replied

"I wasn't- at least this time- they were surprisingly clean-" I replied

"Oh- that's new-I thought you just liked sex-" he replied

"I-well- I've changed- but- doesn't mean I don't like sex- I still do-but-I won't use you like that again" I replied

"Solomon? - Isn't the Only thing we do is f*ck?" he replied

"didn't you say you wanted to go on that coffee date?" I replied

"Solomon- what are you talking about?" he replied

"You- don't remember?" I replied

"sorry it's not in my memory-" he replied

"Right- I guess he kept that memory to himself-" I replied

"I'm sorry Solomon- I- failed" he replied

"Levi- try to be yourself-" I replied

"I- don't know if I can-my default always falls back-it's sort of like he's still a part of me-" he replied

"but he's not fully there-and you're your own person-"I replied

"Solomon-I'm not even real-I'm just a bunch of code- filled with memories that aren't mine- I even have their personality-and I've realized- I don't love you- like him-I don't feel anything-" he replied

"Wait-your sentient- f*ck- um- well that's not good-but are you sure you don't feel anything?" I replied

"I know- these feelings belong to him-I'm not sure of my own-maybe I'll like you-but know I don't have any negative thoughts towards you" he replied

"I- don't like this-I want Levi back-" I replied

"but- I am Levi-well I could try to be your Levi again" he replied

"What- happened to the kind- and adorable Levi?" I replied

"oh-he's still here- I can try if you want-" he replied

"yes please-" I replied

"um- Solomon- what happen?-" he replied

"hmm-you basically became a robot- well I guess- more like an ai- and too aware-" I replied

"What did you tell me?" he replied

"Basically everything-how I'm a transmigrator- and there was a transmigrator inside you- and you still have his memories" I replied

"huh- that's strange- why would I have his memories?" he replied

"I don't get it either Levi- but you do well not everything-I'm sure there are things you don't know-" I replied

"Like what?" he replied

"Like that coffee date," I replied

"what coffee date- did we go out for coffee? when?" he replied

"We haven't but the real Levi promised we would" I replied

"Oh- well that's nice-is it bad I'm jealous?" he replied

"no-it's fine my Levi- I can take you out on that coffee date too-" I replied

"But you promised him and I don't want you to replace me as him" he replied

"Oh- you don't mind? - I'm allowed a free past?" I replied

"Solomon- he's real- and I'm not-" he replied

"But- your real to me-you have your feelings- and multiple personalities and I still love each of you" I replied

"Each of me?" he replied

"Yeah- I'm always talking to different Levi and it's hard to keep track-but you're all attached to me in different ways - but- I'm learning to love you- all of you- I only- loved- a few of you but- I can't pick favorites- because you fight-over me-" I replied

"ha- but aren't you already picking favorites?- You love this real Levi- and you trying to love me again- and I'm not sure about the others-" he replied

"You're the original original- not the one I had sex with-" I replied

"Solomon-don't tell me- have you f*cked these other Levis?" he replied

"Well technically- I have only f*ck the real one- the others f*cked me-" I replied

"I- Solomon- do you even realize what you're doing?" he replied

"What- don't you want to f*ck me too?" I replied

"No-Solomon- I can't- you don't even love me- I know you used to and you're pretending to now- and I loved you- and I had those desires- but those are long gone- I don't know if I can even love you- especially knowing what you did to Madoka- and You have just used me for sex-" he replied

"Oh- I didn't think one of them could hate me-" I replied

"What did you expect you're not a good person- and all you care about is sex-" he replied

"that's not true- I'm not like that anymore- I'm different - I've changed" I replied

"No you haven't Solomon- I don't know how many times - they've f*cked you-but I know you only came for sex- and you're trying to coax us- so we fall for it but- I'm not like the others- I won't fall for your BS - Solomon-you don't love us- you love our body-" he replied

"I-maybe- your right- I think it's just your body I love- I know I once did love you and I'm trying to attach those feelings when- I don't feel anything- and I want to because- I fell for the real Levi- if I didn't get so attached to him- maybe I would have still loved you- but I don't" I replied

"Good at least your being honest now-and I'm sure the real Levi loves you and probably still does- so don't give up on him- if you love him that is-" he replied

"I do love him- very much more than just sex- despite using him for it-f*ck- I wish I could apologize to him- and tell him just how much I love him- I miss him-" I replied in tears

"heh- that's good to know- I just wish it was still me but I'm glad he has you" he replied

Then everything went dark again-