05|Cicatrize

Eda

(a couple days later)

RIIIING. Oh my oh my oh my oh my. I quickly hit snooze on my alarm and get up. It's September sixth!! The first day of school and this year I am going to the one normal people go too. Yaaaayy I wanted to scream so loud I was so happy. I check the time five o clock okay I have lots of time. School starts at seven fifteen but mom said we have to get there a little earlier.

Alright Eda first of all lets take a shower. Which I do and after I am done I grab my clothes off of the chair. I got them ready yesterday night. Mom helped my pick my first day of school outfit. We decided on a light brown high waisted jeans with a tight long sleeve t-shirt thats the same color as the jeans and topped it with a dark vest and some simple jewelry. I liked the outfit it was simple but cute. I was sitting down on my vanity chair getting ready. Which really meant brushing my hair,applying Vaseline on my lips and some day cream. Mom never really allowed me to wear make up as she always told me "your a natural beauty dear."

"Good morning Mom, ready." I say in excitement as I head downstairs. It was still quite early and I had enough time to eat breakfast and arrive at school early.

"Morning to my beautiful angel here take a seat breakfast is almost ready."

I climb the long stools that are next to the kitchen island.

"Wheres bag."

"I got your backpack ready its next to the door."

"Thanks."

"Of course here you go eat up you get a long day ahead of you."

I do as I am told and eat my waffles in peace. Mom doesn't make waffles a lot especially that I put lots of topping on mine she says its too much sugar.

"Done," I say and I grab my plate and put it in the sink.

"Okay hunny let's head out, are you sure you have everything ready."

"Yesss," I clap in excitement and try to hold my self from jumping up and down.

I grab my backpack from the front door and  we walk out. Mom locks the house door and she heads out to open the car door for me. I am not out very much, and if I do ever leave the house that would be because I am outside in our backyard taking care of the garden. Other than that I am in my room reading or in the basement playing the piano or guitar. Plus mom usually goes shopping for me or sometimes she always me to online shop. Only on special accusations have we gotten out which was usually either my birthday or moms. And going out consisted of eating at Danny's little restaurant and than to the park.

But I shouldn't be complaining I was at homes much worse. We're I've worked as a maid at such young age or even as an entertainment used as a toy and much more things that I am trying to just forget about. God has sent me mom and I know the whole staying at home was for my best and I don't mind it at all. Going out meant talking to people and I didn't know how to did that at all.

As we were driving I was looking outside through the window. Everything was so mesmerizing to me. The colorful leaves on the ground the trees and most importantly the breathtaking sky. Rarely leaving the house makes me think that everything is just wow. The four walls of my room were my comfort place. I would never willingly go outside but this was nice.

"Open?" I ask mom as I point my finger at the window.

"Yes dear I can open the window."

The fresh air was hitting my face and my hair was all over the place but it felt nice. The more I think about it the more it hits me I am gonna be in public school for five days a week now. At this point I didn't know if I was excited or scared. All my life I've been inside and there was always rules I had to follow. I did wish to go to school and try the experience but now that I am going I feel like backing out.

"We're here hunny," mom cheerfully beams as rolls my window up and leaving my thoughts all hanging.

I didn't even notice that we arrived I get out of the car and look at the building. Is that what they call school. It was way to big, to big for a high school. But who am I to talk as if I seen enough to judge. There were four buildings mom had shown me the map but on paper it looked somewhat small. Or at least something that I can manage but now that I am standing in front of I am trying to not let me jaw hang on the floor. Mom had already started walking but she noticed that I was still frozen next to the car.

"Oh sweetie please tell me if you don't want to do this I never wanna push you to do something your not comfortable with."

I am though,I am ready why shouldn't I be ready. All my life I've been waiting for the moment I face the outside world and it finally came I shouldn't be scared. I can't back away now. Eda you're 17 years old it's now or never. Take a step I tell my self and I do, I walk behind my mom and we enter the building. The atmosphere changed and the first thing I notice is the smell,is this what school smelt like. Paint. We walk into a room that had the words office written on top.

"Oh hello Miss you sure came in early," the lady at the front desks greets my mom and than looks down at me.

"And you must be Eda welcome we're so happy to have you here,you sure are a beautiful girl."

I stared at her for a good while,she seems nice should I respond. Mom gives me a look but it wasn't the explain look it was another one that I barely get to see.

"Thanks,' I say while trying to give her a warm smile. I didn't wanna be rude who knows what shes gonna do to me if I make her mad.

"Alright well here's your schedule if you wan't I can send a senior to give you a tour before school starts," the office lady says as she hands me my papers and I take it from her. I exchange smiles thinking that better than talking and immediately put my head back down looking at my shoes and ground which at sometimes can be very interesting to look at.

Mom than turns around and leans down "Do you want someone to show you around." I nod my head. How bad can it go, your gonna be fine Eda I reassure my self. This is a public place they won't dare to do anything and you can punch them if anyone even thinks about harming you. 

"Alright great I'll send one of the seniors over some of them are in the gym talking to the coach."

"Thank you so much," mom responds all happily.

My head was still down the whole time mom and the office lady were talking. A couple minutes later there was someone else in the office but I can only see his black shoes.

"Omg Mateo you've grown a lot," mom says in excitement.

"Miss.Jones how are you I am surprised to see you here," he said which made me come to two conclusions he has very deep voice and a light accent. Which lead to me thinking how old is this dude? From his deep voice he can easily be mistaken for a 20 year old.

Mom knew this dude? Who was he? And I most definitely wasn't comfortable with the atmosphere.

"Oh great you guys know each other," the office lady says.

"Yes I know Mateo, I was his Social Studies teacher in middle school and he was one of the most hard working students ever," Mom says and I just know that she was smiling. I didn't have to see her face I can tell from her tone she was happy to see this student of hers. Which wasn't something new mom loved all of her students and her job even more. And now I am feeling bad about how I was the reason she's been away from her job all these years. I shake my head from the nonsense I am thinking about and get back to reality.

"Well Mateo I am glad you're gonna be showing Eda around."

"I am leaving dear I hope you have a great first day." I whisper a bye to her and she kisses my cheek and within seconds shes gone.

"I don't think I'll have time to give you a tour so let me just show you where your classes are," this Mateo boys says.

I hand him my schedule and walk behind him. In attempt to make this less awkward for the both of us.

"Soo you're the new girl," he asks which I am gonna guess that was his attempt at starting a conversation with me. I don't blame him though he's probably thinking by talking that he's helping the both of us but only if he know that if I opened my mouth that's when the real awkwardness going to start.

I don't respond. I wanted to but I didn't wanna embarrass my self. I think he gave up on me becuase the rest of the walk was quiet. He showed me all of my classes and we were about to go back to my first class because the bell is about to ring.

That's when the most embarrassing situation happened. I was walking normally but than out of nowhere I trip on thin air. I put my hand out so that I wouldn't face planet but that's when I feel large arms wrapped around my waist and I find my self also embracing the help I am getting and wrapping my arms around him??

I look up for the first time today. Me and this dude faces were inches apart. What did he have for breakfast jalapenos? His breath was hot and heavy. I was staring at his eyes they caught my attention. They were brown but it had nothing to do with the color, I felt something while staring in his eyes. Was it because they were beautiful or maybe because they were oddly familiar. I break our eye contact and now I was looking at his face. Why does he look perfect. Why can't I be perfect like him. Oh my god how can someone have such filled lips, and wow those eyebrows. Oh my God and what is this man's skin care routine he can't have make up it looks to shiny for any foundation to do that. It's just so clear and I bet it's smooth. Lord I see what you have down to other people he's a literal man and has bigger lips than me better and nicer filled in eyebrows plus that skin of his and...

EDA WHY ARE WE HUGGING THIS STRANGER. I mentally yell at my self as I finally realize the position we were in and how I was digging my finger nails in his shoulder and that I've been staring at him and he probably noticed and now thinks that I am a creep more than I already probably gave off the expression.

He chuckles, or was that a full on laugh? I don't at the moment my mind seems to be making up things. But he shakes his head and says something along the line of I am so handsome which kicks right back to reality and that is I am in the middle of a hallway with a stranger nearly on his lap and almost all over him to the point where if someone saw us from afar they would think we're making out so common sense finally decided to kick in and I do what's right.

"Sorry,mistake," I managed to get up and out before he says anything. Quickly running straight ahead to my first period thinking any second I am gonna fall but I don't and make it on time all out of breath and most likely with a tomato face. I hold my locket and start taking some deep breaths. For you mom and dad I am here for you, to make you proud. All I just went through and all I am about to go through is to prove that for what ever reason you left me it wasn't enough and that I'll become a great person. Maybe you thought I won't be able to do but I'll prove it.

This one is for you; mom and dad.

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Cicatrize

(v.) to find healing by the process of forming scars

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note: So they meet!

What do you think about this cliche first meeting LMAO. Next time babes