Chapter 19

It’s been about two weeks since I’d seen Rowan. We’ve texted on and off, but every time I try to come up with plans for us to go out together, he has an excuse. It’s like he’s scared of seeing me after I broke down in the kitchen.

I must’ve really freaked him out. I don’t blame him for keeping his distance.

But I didn’t want distance. I felt better when Rowan was around. Less scared all the time.

Jessica reassured me that everything was fine, but I knew she was hounding James for answers. I thought Rowan and I had a good thing. We were getting closer, and I was really enjoying our time together. But Rowan was dealing with his own problems. I didn’t need to load him down with all of my emotional baggage.

I kept expecting Rowan to come back to the kitchen that night, comfort me a little. He didn’t. I can barely even get a text back these days. Now I’m expecting him to call me and dump me over the phone.