Birthday Sadness

It had been months since I've seen my bd or my ex. My life was calming down a lot. My friends decided since it was my birthday. I should go out. There was a few huge house parties scheduled on my birthday. So I agreed to go to at least 2 of them. Well by the time we got to the 2nd house party. The police showed up. So we ended up going on a beach run. To finish off my birthday night. We all got together and created a bonfire. We were here sitting there, drinking and having a good time. Then a bunch of others showed up. Cake, ice cream and a ton more alcohol. I knew most of them. It was nearly 2am. Most had already left. My So called good friend Kiki left me for a bathroom run. It was about 45 minutes since they left. I knew the bathroom was about 10 minutes drunk walking distance. Normally it takes about maybe 5 minutes. So I decided to go look for them. Walking through the bushes. I noticed throw up in the bush. So I side stepped and kept going. I knew I was going on the right direction. As the throw up smelled of alcohol. I was walking a good 5 minutes. When I heard someone in the bushes with me. I called out thinking it was one of my friends. No one answered. So I turned my phone flashlight on. I tried to use it to look around but all I found was a stray cat. I turned back around and not even a minute later. I was hit on my head. I felt dizzy. Panic ran through my body. I tried to fight back. I was hit in my face. Next thing I knew I woke up. I was next to my car, half naked. There was blood everywhere. I had cuts all over my back of my body, scrapes from head to toe, gash on the back of my head, another one on my face, and my entire body felt weak. I passed back out. I'm not sure how long I was out. When I heard my phone ring. It got up completely and drove myself to Kikis place. I hopped in the shower and just sat there. Washing the blood off of me. Her mom came in to check on me. I had completely broke down in the shower. No matter how hard I scrubbed. I still felt dirty. My body still felt weak. His smell was still lingering. I did not recognise his smell. He wasn't any of my friends. Her mom walked right in and immediately understood. She slowly approached me and got me out of the shower. Helped me dress and took me to the hospital. Halfway through the exam they took my clothes. Gave me a new, clean pair of clothing . The police showed up. I told them what happened. They took my statement and clothing. On the way back we stopped and grabbed a morning after pill. Then Kiki called. She sounded freaked out. She said they've been looking everywhere for me. They ended up passing out at the bathroom. When they got up I was already gone. I told her I was heading to her place. To drop off her mom then I was heading home. I sent a cab over to her. So she had a way home. Told her I needed to go home. Bad things happened and I need to go. We didn't talk for a few days. Then I went over to visit her and I heard her talking to her mom about me. She's lying, she wanted it so bad. She didn't even fight. It was all an act. She just doesn't want to look like a whore. I pulled out of her driveway. Went home and deleted her out of my life. I told my bd and he to. Basically told me I did it to myself. So I went on a 6 month drug and alcohol binge.