Everyone has there own kind of pain.

It's never been declared who's the most handsome person in the world. This is because it changes every day, every day it's like a new handsome person is discovered. For quite some years now the BLACK ANGELS has been domineering this sector. We are considered the four most handsome people in the world. It's either I'm leading or Evel is leading and then Shin and Min Jae alternate. It's always been this way but lately, I'm beginning to doubt it, yes we are super handsome but ever since I met Axel I'm beginning to doubt whether it's just us because if he's discovered right now then he'd immediately be the one and then Felix. Oh yeah, I was surprised when I learned that Shin slept with Felix, I don't judge him, and Felix is very handsome even though he's younger than him. But I'm a bit worried because Felix kinda looks like a bad guy, I mean he looks like he's always in trouble and looks like a player too but what's much worrying me much is that Shin is in love with him. It should be a good thing yes but Shin is in denial, seems like he doesn't want to accept the fact that he has loved someone else so quickly. Lately, he doesn't wanna hear the name Felix and he gets mad at anyone who mentions it, especially me. He is still not over Evel, and that's why he can't accept that he is falling in love with someone else.

Everyone has their own kind of pain. Even though the four of us have been together for so long, I can tell that there are things that we keep for ourselves, maybe we don't want to share them because we don't want to be a burden to each other. Well, I also have something that I keep to myself too.

Being an artist isn't easy, being a K-pop artist is hard, and being a successful K-pop artist with fame all over is more difficult and more overwhelming. There are super serious practices, you have to maintain a diet so that you don't gain weight because it's considered ugly, knowing how to present yourself in front of the camera, knowing what to say and what not to say. There's both the brighter side and the darker side. I won't speak much of the brighter side because it's all visible to everyone and that's what brings the dark one. On the brighter side, money is never a problem, you get to perform and a lot of people support you, you can live a good life and take care of your family, able to travel the world and dress in super expensive shoes and clothes. You get to meet a lot of successful people and you are treated like a god because you're an idol.

They call me Woojin or bunny. They like my boxy smile, others my face, others my height, deep voice, my hairstyles, my dance, and many other things. I love the fairies so much, so much that I can't even explain it but I guess we have grown so much, and when we were younger, communication was much easier, right now when I go live or anyone from the group does then it's always like Woojin marry me or Shin marry me or Minjae marry me or even Evel marry me. You don't get to find a whole text without marry me. It's not like I don't like it but I'm just worried about the fairies out there, some breaking their marriages, and some are single because in their minds they are dating one of us. That's not what I want for the fairies, I want them to be happy, I want them to focus on themselves too, and live good lives. It breaks my heart that one day I will break over millions of hearts of many fairies when I finally find the right one and fall in love. I still wonder if they will love me the same. Will they accept me? Will they accept the person ill choose? Will they still see me in the same way? Honestly thinking of that gives me an unbearable headache most of the time.

The internet is filled with all types of people, so let's not forget about the anti-fans. It's not a must to be a fan of any group because it's not by force but then, there are these people who just hate you for no reason. Ok, hating is one thing but then sharing it to the media or commenting when someone posts something I don't think it's right at all. With over millions of fans, there are still those who hate us. Today it'll be why does people call him bunny. He acts so cringe, I hate it when he smiles kike that, it is a fake smile, he is gaining weight and his cuteness is fading, he doesn't have talent, always spoon-fed on a silver platter. There are a lot of hate comments but thanks to fairies for standing with me and any other person in the group who gets hated on. I might not be the best dancer or the best vocalist because my voice is deep but it fucking hurts when people think that you have no talent and you are just a parasite depending on the other members of the group to survive. I take music so seriously and I do it wholeheartedly so it hurts me so much when I see people hating on me and even much more when they say that I have no talent.

Let's now talk about the paparazzi. You never know whose side they are on, they inky need to stalk you and get information about you and then deliver it to the world. Sometimes they get too personal and I hate it. The other day they followed Evel to the gym. He had made the mistake of doing a life while at the gym and suddenly they knew where it was located. We are humans too and we need some space. We also wanna go out without having to worry about people running ti us and asking for pictures or creating big attention wherever we go. We also wanna go to oars and hang out or even sit on street furniture and take time to think but it's not possible. Maybe only if you do it at night. If I was to be granted a wish then i'd want to live normally just like other people like us. We don't have to be treated like gods all the time.