Chapter Seventeen

Rica's pov

Our class was music so we walked together. We both sat at the back of the class as we conversed on places to go after school. Mr Dante walked in the class as he did the whole class going silent. The pin drop silence could be heard as he shuffled the papers he was carrying in his hand then he finally spoke. "Good after noon class as we had spoken three weeks ago two of you will be visiting a grand hotel. The two who performed best were Sebastian and Rica unfortunately a tragedy took away Miss Rica's life and she is not here with us today so our new exchange student Avery will sing for us since she was not part of the class that week," he said. I was asked to stand up and sing before the class. I stood up and walked in front of the class not bothering to introduce myself as I started singing. I chose the song purpose by Justin Bieber and let the words flow from my mouth.

Feeling like I'm breathing my last breath

Feeling like I'm walking my last steps

Look at all this promises that I've

Look at all these tears I've wept

Look at all the promises that I have kept

Here's my soul to keep

I let you in with all that I can

You're not hard to reach

And you bless me with the best gift

That I've ever known

You give me purpose

Yeah you give me purpose

Thinking my journeys come to an end

Sending a farewell to my friends for inner peace

Ask you to forgive me for my sins, oh could you please?

I'm more than grateful for the times we spent

My spirits at ease...

After I had finished singing the last words of the song everybody was quiet. Mr Dante stared at me as he motioned me to sit down everybody started clapping. I didn't think my performance was that good I always sang with my heart because music was the healer of my soul I was very proud that everybody liked it. Before I sat down I had Mr Dante ask, "Why did you sing such a song?" I looked at him and smiled remembering all the memories that Whitney and I had shared for me by the best memories in my life she had given me purpose she was the best gift that I've ever known. Even though I had faked my own death just for her to realize how much she loved me. "It's because sometimes you just have to let your spirit to be at ease and say farewell to all those who meant a lot to you but you just have to let them go because you might not be good enough for them so you can get inner peace, "I answered.

He nodded his head as I sat down then I saw her walking into class. "Miss Anderson you are late for class but since Avery here blessed us with a nice melody you are forgiven," he said. I stared into empty space worrying if she heard had me sing. The reason I had agreed to sing was because I just need some release if Whitney had heard me then she would have known it's me if not then she really didn't know me. The rest of the class went smooth as he taught us about various tones of singing. At the end of the class he requested to see Seb and I. I told Johnny I would meet him at his locker after my other class since we didn't not have the same class. I stood in front of Mr Dante's desk staring at him pointedly. He took out two tickets and gave them to Seb and I. He then gave us two invitations to a luxurious hotel. I looked at Sebastian who was excited and I barely had what the teacher said to me.

I didn't want to go to a luxury hotel because all my life I had been in such. But by seeing excitement in Sebastian's eyes I chose to accept it maybe it could be away of thanking him for the good deeds he had done for me before. I walked out of class and into the hallway trying to get into my next class as quick as I possibly could. I felt someone stepping beside me as we started walking down the hallway together. We got looks from students who were not minding their own businesses. Why did high school have to have such drama and gossip. I'm sure the girls who kept staring at us were those who had a mega huge crush on Seb. I mean you could look at him and think he was out of a Calvin Klein model magazine . He had ocean blue eyes but when you looked at them you could just feel the calmness of the oceans and the tides that could carry away your every worry.

If I wasn't in love with Whitney I would have had a huge crush on him he was super gorgeous oh my god sometimes he looked at me and I felt like he really saw the real me without all the masks and the façade. By the way he was looking at me I could see he was smitten. It was funny that at first sight he was able to identify me as Rica where my potential love I interest for two years could not. By thinking about that fact I I felt my heart start to ache because Whitney just couldn't see it that it was me and it hurt me greatly. I hadn't realized that I had got to my next class and Seb was now looking at me. I looked up at him and smiled and mumbled a quick thank you as I got in. Throughout the whole class I just kept thinking about the words Whitney had said at the wake. If she loved me why didn't she tell me why did she give me false hope if she saw I wasn't good enough for her but then her pain was crystal clear as she had fainted knowing that she'd lost me forever that she would never have me again and it broke my heart to see her crying I don't know how long I could keep pretending or stay away from her because I loved her.